I'm a Widow But a Virgin
POV Rengganist
"Preciate your time with your partner, make the best impression as if you were last alive today."
*abymanyu*
Mas Aby once said that when we walk to Bandung lembang.Etah it is a hunch or not, I consider it only an advice, because my situation and Mas Aby are fine.
But today I realized, it was a message from Mas Aby.
Long before I got married I knew Mas Aby, we grew up together as kids and I just thought of him as a big brother.
But when we were rediscovered as adults in the sacred bond of marriage it wasn't hard for me to love him, because Mas Aby was so gentle, loving and good-natured, that's what made me fall in love.
While in the car, Aby sang "my favorite" I was so moved, Mas Aby said do not leave him, but the real Mas who left Me first, why Mas?
Mas Aby went straight away not saying goodbye to me, why Mas?are you afraid I'm angry?😭😭
Well.maybe God loves Mas Aby more, but my love is also great Mas for you.😭
If I had known Mas would have left Me so soon, I'd like 24 hours to accompany you, along with you, to see you, I wouldn't have to sleep once I'd like to.😭
Last time I heard your voice, you said I should get ready tonight, maybe it'll be a night for us, I'm ready, very ready Mas, but why are you in such a hurry to leave me before touching me,I do not feel fully a good wife to you Mas, but I pray, may be replaced with an angel in heaven there Mas, Mas makes me jealous of the angel in heaven there.😭
We always eat on the same plate and the same glass, because I'm hard to eat alone, the taste is good if eating together, especially with loved ones, at this time you leave Me Mas, Mas,later I will eat with anyone Mas, who will plate with me Mas.😭
But I do not want to dissolve in sadness, if I am sad for sure you are also sad, Mas, I believe so much in destiny and every living thing will surely die, back to the creator, the Creator,I also realize that everything in this world is a deposit, including you Mas, you are entrusted to the most beautiful God, I am so grateful to love you, to be your soul mate, even though our match time is so short.😭
The universe is Yours, O God
I've never asked for it....
Why did you leave it to me?
Why did you leave it to me?
If all is not mine, what should be done with your Custody?
When you take that care why is this heart so sad?
When You take it, as a test of Your trials
Because you have the most beautiful plan behind all this.
Rabb, that day, death, death, the return of a servant by Your side.I realize that all there is is is a deposit but still this heart is jolted.Why do You take the care of it before I feel together in this life. why do You take the one I love, I realize that nothing in this world is everlasting, that everything will come back to YOU. This heart does not feel possessed and does not feel possessed because all is Your Custody, O God. Every disaster and favor that comes to me, then I must feel solemn to Allah SWT. For God is according to our Prejudice.
On this day, my status changed, and now I am a widow.
A week ago I had the status of a happy wife.My heart was messed up, but my mind was still able to khusnudzon and will always be khusnudzon.
From today's destiny I learned, do good things today as if we were going to die tomorrow, because the wheel of life no one knows, so now we can be happy tomorrow sad, sad,it could be that now it is still alive, but it is gone, if today it does not do good, then there is no chance.
**Hiks hiks hiks author nysek.😭😭
