Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES
Section 72
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"Maybe true, if not a lucky destiny is still destiny. Whatever effort we desperately try for a better life but Allah has written the destiny for us, all efforts are in vain" said Dina broke her silence between the two.
"Mr? don't tell me that you haven't managed to get away, and instead work somewhere else?" ask with a sharp look.
"Gue did succeed Ra, I made it out of this dark life, but that doesn't mean my suffering is over"
Ira looked at him, she was waiting for what the woman would say.
"Before I could judge that the man I am currently with is not a good man. But because of the love I have and the trust I have with hope, I hope he changes. Until I decided to go with him. Until finally, he made a few mistakes, but strangely he was still a perfect man in my eyes. And now, it's humane not if I feel tired and desperate?" he said it made Ira think far and did not understand clearly the meaning of all his words.
"Mr? it's not wrong if women like us hope in love? it's not wrong if we believe in a man who will accept us?" Ira asked curiously, she expected an answer that was in line with her expectations.
"Perhaps, for the lucky ones," he answered making Ira's body feel weak.
"He didn't treat you harshly, did he?" the question that made the woman raise her chin looked at the sky.
"He never hurt me physically and treated me well. But often he hurt my heart and soul. Haha even until now I feel worried, actually this is a test or karma? is it true that women like me do not deserve a better life? or is a happy life really a wishful thinking that can never be achieved?"
"Just like you, I can't do anything but hope for a better life. But perhaps, no matter how many sins we have committed there will be forgiveness. People say: Heaven is not only a place for the faithful, but a place for all people, including us. Just like in real life, the end of all pain is bound to be happiness"
"Lo sure Ra?" ask her with teary eyes.
"Maybe" he replied, looking away, he was doubtful and still hoping for a better life someday.
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"If you want, you can say everything the same I mbak. Maybe I can not accompany you when you go through it, but at least I understand and hear all the complaints," said Ira in silence.
"Now night, and this is the beach. If it wasn't for the pain I could no longer endure, I might still be silent at home"
Without answering Ira looked at him, he let the woman speak.
"The life that I had planned was even shattered, I was lulled with love and confidence so as to forget that humans could change at any time," sighing in length, "Like him, he was, suddenly the storm hit me as my stomach became bigger. He changed, he who always treated me well has completely changed. He's no longer the man I know, so often I find him in touch with other women, until finally I actually see with my own eyes"
"Sick Ra, really sick. Maybe because of the affection and for the sake of the baby in the womb, I tried to hold everything. I even forgave him who was outrageous, he was in touch at the house where I lived, in the room where I slept, he did it when I was coming home from my mother. It hurts, but unfortunately life, there is a wound that even I think it is the pain of all the pain that I have ever felt," with the heavy voice of the pregnant woman holding her cry.
"From all the pain I've received, I've tried to forgive and I'm sure he'll change. If it wasn't for me, at least for the baby in the womb. But in fact, I really did not expect, that a man like him re-emphasized about where I came from, and what kind of woman I was before. Haha, isn't he?" he said with tears streaming down his cheeks.
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Ira's body went limp for a moment, this reality that she never expected.
"Rho? sometimes, it's good if your partner later does not need to know how you have lived. Whether it's for the sake of a solution or wound healing, but not everyone should know about your mass. Although it will not make you feel comfortable, but live as another normal woman. Pretend that you are a good woman with many advantages in it, even those who say they can accept the bad good we can change our mind and leave us at any time. True what you always say: There is nothing truly sincere in this world, sometimes behind a kindness there must be a reward"
"Maybe we can fight against destiny, by forcing what we want despite having to feel a lot of pain"
"What kind of destiny will you impose?" dina's question made Ira speechless.
Again and again, the two women fell silent. In her mind Ira could not imagine how painful it was to be Dina. How could a husband hurt his wife while she was pregnant? did he not realize that he was directly hurting his son?
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After calming each other down, Dina got up from her seat. He walked a few steps while rubbing his stomach and then came back again.
"Sir, may I know where you live? can I not play? not to meet you, but with a baby boy in the stomach" Ira said.
"Gue contracted, rather there," pointed to a small alley beside the restaurant where Ayu worked.
"Oh, I know. Can you play there sometime?"
"Come by, I'm staying in room 4," she saw the clock on her phone, "Gue go home first huh? poor this cold kid"
"Do I need antherin?"
"No, it's the kids hanging out in front of her husband's restaurant"
"They're on the brakes there?"
"Yes, my husband went home from work malem. I asked them to make anther here, calm down"
"Healthy baby, onty wait," said Ira as she rubbed her stomach.
"Onty first," Dina pinched her cheek and stepped away.
Ira just smiled looking at the skinny woman who was now pregnant. He sat back down, his feelings started to get restless, meeting Dina was his wish for a long time, but with him he remembered all the nightmares he had experienced.
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