Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES
Section 14
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The beach is far enough away. The motorbike driven by Ari runs slowly, so it has not arrived at the beach already looks golden orange (dusk shade) meets the sky.
They'll be late to see the sun go down. Even so, it does not matter, because what they want is not just to enjoy twilight but the same time together at the same time.
"Don't bring a jacket?" ask Ari.
"There is no Ari."
"Hmm." Kiss Ira's hand.
"Don't overdo it!" said Ira who initially teased Ari but she herself was embarrassed.
Arriving at the destination. The afternoon combined with the sea breeze made Ira feel cold.
Ari stops the bike, Ira goes down, but the man doesn't take his grip off.
"Apaz?" Ira tried to take her grip off.
"Later out!" ari replied further tightening her grasp.
"Yu come here?" pulling Ira's hand.
"Basin' weird guy!"
They both walked by the beach, because that afternoon was already near the night the sunlight was no longer visible. Mega in the vast sky and the expanse of the sea that is not blue, obviously this scene becomes a cure of all pain and worry, especially for Ira.
Under a not-so-high catapult tree, but Ari's shady let go of his grasp.
Ira just turned her head, when she was about to ask she had already seen that Ari was taking the mat for their seat.
She spread out the mat and then she sat down.
"Sit down leaning on me!" said Ari smiling.
Ira took off her sandals sitting next to Ari.
Ari placed Ira's head on her shoulders.
Ira just smiled.
"In the meantime" said Ari.
"What?"
"You want a regular drink, what beer is alcohol?"
"Better warm coffee." Ira smiled back.
"Not beer or alcohol?"
"No ah, then go again and again continue to get drunk. Ari's lonely again even though we both have the same desire, but I don't want to be an escape."
"I love you not just now, from the past until I don't know?"
"I know that!" Ira smile.
Ari left. Ira looked at the back of the man who managed to make her feel the amount of affection she was holding now. As Ira's woman feels she has no right to be Ari's lover, she is well aware that she is who and what kind of person? sometimes he is afraid that Ari will find out what he is doing, and then he moves away leaving sweet memories that end bitterly later.
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Ari arrives with a shopping bag and two cups of coffee in her hand. He saw a bottle and a few drinks.
"Hot watch!" give it to Ira.
"Thank you."
"Can you please please, ma'am?" ari said while sitting.
"What?"
"Yes I'll try." Ira smiled.
This time the man rubbed Ira's hair.
"Can tanya? how's Ari's relationship now?"
"There's no relationship."
"(Ira smiled) Tomorrow's the road together again."
"Not really ma'am!"
"Yes-in."
"Yesterday was in a straight line what and how? he said he could not continue the relationship, the point is that he chose the guy." said Ari explained.
"Yes." Ira insisted on disbelief, knowing that of the many women who had been close to her Ari only loved her. Even if he is not elected now, if tomorrow the woman comes to contact again Ari can immediately accept it without thinking.
"Mom?"
"Yes?"
"Can you give me more time?"
"meaning?"
"Udah ngerasa risih ngurus romance, ask for your time yes to nerima Ari?"seriously said.
"No, don't talk about it. I don't want to change the relationship between us. What if there is a problem in the future? will rich familiar usually what is not? it's already!" reply Ira.
Ari smiled, she knew for sure that Ira would be like that.
"But never think that today and this talk is a form of escape. Before this happened, you know? I love you." he said.
"Yes." Yeah." Ira smile.
"Gue rarely cry, it can not be different where the pain is the same pleasure. I feel like this heart is dead so there is no feeling, but I realize there is love and it only applies to you. Not just a sense of comfort, but as if you were home for me to settle in." Ira said in her heart while looking at Ari.
"Don't look at me with that look!" ari told Ira.
"What the hell?" Ira smile.
"Mom, you better talk. Not all problems are solved by silence."
"Heumm?" Ira was astonished.
"If you can't trust anyone, make yourself a closed person, but at least speak a few words. The human mind and patience are not that perfect to withstand all problems."
"Sometimes something has to be done in silence, and there's something that when it's quiet all gets messy."
"Trust me, can you?"
Ira just turned her head, looked at Ari and smiled. He turned his gaze straight at the vast ocean.
"You know what?"
"I want to go somewhere, where there is only me and solitude. I want to go somewhere, where I can hug myself. Where I can try to heal the pain in my chest, where I can cry without anyone knowing. I want to go somewhere, where there is only nature and solitude.
Where I could hear my breath, where I could start all over as if I were reborn. Not to forget my mass journey, but to realize and let go that it has passed." Ira said at length.
The young lady explained all the things she wanted even though she knew the possibility was between there and nothing.
Deep in his heart he felt unacceptable with all the circumstances that had occurred. He knows that man cannot change mass because it has passed, but at least man can improve the future and he is working on it. But what he had planned and determined was sometimes he himself who betrayed him.
Among the many hardships she had experienced was only one of the hardest, she was trying to get out of this dark life. He was trying to keep things out that had something to do with his pride, but he himself knew it was hard,. No matter how much he goes away, he will come back.
What he is doing right now is a job, as long as he needs salary money, as long as he also has to work. All he wants right now is to wait for school graduation so he can get a better job, and free himself from this despicable bond.
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