Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES
Section 22
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"We're like two grown women talking, right?" anggi smiled.
"More precisely in demand to become an adult by circumstances!" reply Ira got up from her seat carrying a cell phone lying on the desk bench.
"Ri?"
"Hmm..?"
"Lo's got his own explanation, right?"
"Try asking him what is the problem?"
"Sutt!!!" Anggi put his phone in his pocket because Ira was back.
"Ehhh jerk off," Ira walked out of the classroom.
"What Ra?" yelled anggi asked.
"Pri."
"Where?"
"Still there with Rendi anyway. But I think I'll call you again."
"Oh haha!" Anggi laughed because he was the one who called Ari.
"Laughs di?"
"What if I see Ari calling again?"
"A little anxious and want to know hahahaha!!"
"Woyy suutt is noisy!!" shout Iki.
"What are you problems? ruin our moment!"
"For the rame-ram!"
"A little jealous of Ra?" ask Anggi about Ari.
"Maybe haha!"
"What if for example, a week ahead Ari really already has a girlfriend again?"
"No papa at all."
"Forced to remove?"
"The universe told me to let go, but just holding it I've never been funny, have I?"
"Ahh haha I'm speechless you're a grown woman!"
"Loving the most mature is letting her love the person she chose ekhemm." she said.
"Iraaa haha!!" Anggi laughed because they could not bear to talk to each other with words like this.
"So what do you want now?"
"Are there really a lot of things I want to ask you?"
"Other time!" Ira stood up and stood up.
"What?"
"You nyamperin Ari, bother little can haha" he said out of class.
"Ikuaut?" yell Anggi following Ira.
When he saw that his phone call was over, maybe Ari turned it off.
"Out what?" Ira is waiting for Anggi in the doorway.
"Yeah?"
Walking over to Ari and the others. They sit while playing the guitar in front of the computer room which is only used during the lecture hours. The place was empty and used to be a gathering place. Especially the Tkr kids and Ira class.
Ari was silent looking at Ira who was coming over. He felt that he was no longer holding it back, eager to ask a lot of questions and hear what Ira would explain. Because he was uncomfortable with what Ira was talking about to Anggi.
"New co here? where have you been, ma'am?" ask Rezki to Ira.
Because Ari calls Ira the First Lady, sometimes Ira's male friends also call her by that call. As with speaking, sometimes good is rude. And Ira doesn't have a problem with that.
"In class." reply Ira sat in the middle of Ari and Rezki.
"What kind of school is this? maybe people learn I even have no teacher who is not taught." said Wisif.
"But you're a seneng, right?"
"The opportunity rarely comes many times, like the woman who is on perk*sa would not want yah to be enjoyed rather than her hurt haha!" said Beni.
"Start starting!" Ira looked at Beni.
"In perk*sa it's not just a crime but coercion there's no way women can enjoy it bego!" Anggi.
"The danger is that it becomes an inherent trauma." Ira added.
"For me to change, like a woman of the night who sells her body to a man she doesn't know. I don't want him to enjoy it."
"Hey whoring*have a job too, don't you think they're enjoying it?" Ira is getting upset with Beni.
"But they keep doing that?"
"I know, actually they don't want to do something like that. But each of them has their own reasons so I don't think you have to talk bad about them either. Inget! they are women just like everyone else" Anggi said.
"Try thinking, they have to serve people they don't love even they don't know. How can they enjoy it?"ask Ira.
"It is no different from women who do ****free out there." Anggi who helped Ira fight Beni.
"To be more precise, indeed a prostitute*r it has no self-respect. But at least their bodies are bought, compared to those who have self-esteem but give up their bodies, for what reason?" Ira asked anggi.
"For love, love and love!!" connect Anggi.
"In fact, humans are equally sinful, it's just a different way.Is it Nggi?"
"Goody!"
"Ben mending lo diem, don't jump on the girl debate. Moreover, these two people (pointing Ira and Anggi) as much as you want to win, will not be able to!" said Sandi.
"That woman was never wrong!" Anggi is happy.
"What the hell is talking about anyway? rapist"faan, prostitution*ran crazy lo all!" said Sandi.
"Nih Ra?" Beni will restart the debate.
"Suutt diem! from today I want to live to avoid a lot of debate, self-defeating males. If others say I'm bad, I'm wrong, don't know myself, relax. It's all really ko haha!" Ira turned her eyes away.
"Yes you won" said Beni finally silent.
Ari and the others just smiled noticing this.
Beni is a man who talks a lot. Arguing with her is like arguing with a woman who is jealous of her lover (There is no end).
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"Mom?" Ari whispered in Ira's ear.
Ira just looked at me.
"Class?" Ari wants to take Ira.
Without further ado Ira got up from her seat.
"Where's ma'am?" ask Rezki.
"Where's di?"
"Class!" Ira walked away from them.
"Why is he not?" ask Rezki.
"He is not clear!" reply Arif
"Revelation." Ari wakes up after Ira.
"Lo's following Ri?" ask Beni.
Ari just looked.
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"Lo not ki?" ask Ira to class
Iki who saw the movie earlier.
"Dew*sa film yes?" Ari came crashing the table.
"Korean drama*jing haha!"
"A rough way lo haha?"
Iki laughed then refocused on her HP.
Ira sat on the back bench by the window.
"Saw.brukk!!" Ari unites the 3 chairs into one and sleeps on Ira's lap.
Iki turned to "Woy school!"
"No teacher, empty class."
"As for the school's ruler!"
Ira just smiled watching.
"Don't sleep!" said Ira rubbed Ari's hair that had closed her eyes.
"Start."
Ira sees her phone opening up on social media and turns out Ari is commenting on her post.
Ira
*While not drowning but need to be saved*
Ari
*Someone reached out but she avoided it *
Ira was silent looking at Ari who was sleeping on her lap.
"Ri I know you don't sleep, better accept bitter honesty or accept lies but sweet?"
Ari opened her eyes and fell silent.
The two of them stared at each other, there was a lot to talk about but they were silent.
"I feel like I want to force you!" Ari closed her eyes again.
"meaning?"
Waking up from his sleep sat beside Ira silently staring.
"This first!" said Ari said.
"I'm not a good man. Without having to date, I've already interviewed every woman close to me. That's why they always talk bad about you, because they know I've been dating you for a long time. So did they think your tub*h must have been damaged by me."
Ira froze in silence because she did not believe that Ari would say that truth about her love affair.
"If you think I'm a good man because being nice is wrong, I've done a lot of women. But from the moment we get to know each other and say that I love you, you're the only woman who's lucky because I don't think about touching your body but you're the one who's welcome it." Ari added.
"Have you never heard from anyone else that I'm a man thirsty for women?"
"Even I've been rude to women when it comes to relationships."
"Anji*g I swear by anything I hate a destructive man like this, why should Ari?" Ira said in her heart.
"Anji*g lo Ri.. jerk!" Ira smiled slightly in disbelief at what Ari said.
Strangely enough, Ira has a lot of boyfriends but has never heard anything bad about Ari. When talking about someone, a man's mouth is more evil and honest than a woman's. But why doesn't Ira know anything? did they cover it up intentionally?
"I knew and realized after I tried to have you but it was very difficult."
"My heart or my body?"
"Mom? I said I love you and didn't think to touch your body!"
"After what you said earlier, do you think I'll be easy to believe?"
"Mom please?"
"One day I don't want to say that 'we're no longer attractive after getting it' maybe you understand?"
"Don't hurt Ri's woman, especially her body. You tau? there are many prostitutes*r who cry every night because they realize their bodies are getting damaged but they have no choice!"
"You don't believe me that was before? you're too focused on the mistakes I've made, without seeing how hard I've struggled."
Ira was silent as to what answer he was going to say. He wanted to be angry, to scream, to hate. If that's true, then what if Ari finds out that Ira is a prostitute*r who sells her body until now. How angry and hateful will he be?
Honestly even though it had passed, Ira's heart felt pain. The logic has to stop, but the heart still wants one more time.
In her heart she did not want to be a selfish woman. There is hope that someday this man will also be able to accept it well even though Ira knows it is between possible and impossible.
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