Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES
Section 61
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Difficult does not mean not can not, but if the pain must be injured even though bleeding or not. Just like that woman now, can't. He could fight against fate by walking away from this dark life, but would he be able to face his test? lost everything and have to work even harder?
Not only is the heart so sick, but the physical and the mind. Mental health is the most important thing, it is believed by people. Can not be denied, maintaining mental health is the hardest thing to do.
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A piece of wind makes the bulukudu goosebumps because it is cold. The woman came out of the grandmother's house running small towards her house.
"Tok tok!! Tia?" his call was standing at the door.
"Yes?" his sister answered and opened.
"Tia, we'll go home to Malem, right? want to go." said Ira while walking towards the room followed by Tia.
"Say you Ayu tteh want to go, right?"
"Yes PKL, 5 days. It's busy."
"Oh yes" he said out of the room.
The woman lay on the bed staring at the ceiling of the room.
Remembering something, seeing her phone call someone.
"Tuut tuut!!"
"Yes?" a man answered on the phone.
"I'm gonna take a shower, pick it up now, okay? because later there will be a similar business malem." he said directly without further ado.
"Yes, now at home, already" he answered ending the call.
Then Ira went straight to the bathroom.
"Sorry if gini, my feeling is not good" he said while taking off his clothes.
"Tok tok!, there's a noisy phone. Lift don't?" said Tia standing behind the bathroom door.
"Huh?" shut off the water faucet.
"Someone called from earlier."
He remembered, this time his phone was not in silent mode. "From who?"
"There's no name, it's just an S."
Ira immediately put on her towel and opened the door, "Here, thank you." fell silent at the incoming call and let it end.
"Ngapain suleng nelepon?" he said he kept the phone on a soap shelf and rinsed his hair.
With her body shivering from the cold, the woman finished her bath. She immediately put on a shirt and sat in front of a mirror to dress up.
"I don't feel good, what's wrong?" his murmur went from sitting and tidying up the mattress.
"Duut duut!!" the cell phone lying on the table was shaking.
"Is he ready?" ask the man.
"Udah, this is ahead" he answered ending the call.
Before stepping out of the room he reflected back, checking the bag to make sure the house key was brought and then storing the phone inside.
Looking at the entire quiet room, it seemed that mom and Tia were in the room. He opened the door and walked slowly. Passing through the grandmother's house carefully, seen from outside the window grandfather and his two sisters were sitting while watching television.
In the afternoon before dusk, the wind that shook the trees drove the woman to the side of the road.
"Damn!" he said he saw there were some fathers and mothers who were sitting coffee in a stall across the street.
"Heumh, bodo is so!" he said he saw the man's car stop in front of him and he went straight in. "Go ahead, don't park here." with a panicked face looking back at the people.
"Why?" tanyanya did not understand.
"There are neighbors who are cautious, already want maghrib also they have not come home" he said feeling better.
"They are not wrong, you are too blatant. I said I'll be picked up at 8pm, why now?"
"Later malem there is a similar affair, deliberately collected anyway. Anterin yes?"
The man just nodded without saying.
In the words, the woman always said bodo very and did not care about the views of others about her. But in reality, he felt fear and panic when any of them saw him along with the man.
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In silence she recalls an incident in which she had slapped a wife, whose husband teased her but she insisted that Ira teased her first.
Ira is not a hypocrite woman, especially about what she wants and what mistakes she has made. Obviously at that time, just call that guy SJ.
Day by day he approached Ira. Not only did he accidentally meet her, but he gave her money without asking. Which woman does not want to accept what men give for free? he did know what the man meant, but if he wanted to give me whatever Ira asked why not?
He knew the man was married and the house was not far from the grandmother's house. He repeatedly refused the more deliberately the man approached, until finally he only responded and unexpectedly his wife knew what he was doing.
It is only fitting that his wife thinks Ira is a cheap woman and seduces her husband first, because when she finds out their relationship Ira has already returned the message. One day when Ira went to a grocery store and met the woman, she unexpectedly scolded her in front of a crowd. He chided her with dirty words so Ira could not help it and slapped the woman's face without saying anything.
When someone else has broken up, Ira says unequivocally that the husband of the woman who always approached him and even gave without being asked. He said that he repeatedly refused but that the man was getting closer. And Ira asserted by involving Alloh that he did not even sleep or deliberately meet the man.
Although he knew his wife couldn't possibly believe it but he had already explained and didn't want to prolong the matter, he changed his phone number so that SJ wouldn't call. But in reality, one mistake can be fatal. Everyone believes that Ira is a cheap woman who seduces people's husbands.
It was not impossible for him to accept the man, no matter how much money they offered, but if the man was his neighbor Ira would refuse. It feels uncomfortable to connect with people who are often seen and already know a little about his attitude. What if they were to betray by talking about this to others? it was the same as bringing yourself to a steep ravine. Fall and die, or fall silent but in displeasure?
"Dreaming?" her question in silence resuscitated Ira.
"A little bit" he replied briefly.
"Not a little, have you eaten?"
"It was at my grandmother's house."
"Now want to eat?"
"No need."
"Directly?" tanyanya slowed down the speed of his car.
"So, I have some business. No papa, right?"
"It's okay, I also need to." he answered and turned the car into a beachfront inn.
The car stopped and the man left first to book a room. Ira was silent her feelings were getting worse. Restless, restless, afraid and anxious mixed in making his body tremble and repeatedly let out long sighs.
"Hopefully there is nothing" he said and remembered, "It's funny? even in times like these I remember You."
"Picture!" the man knocked on the glass door hinting Ira to follow him.
Walking down his steps, he walked into a spacious room overlooking the beach. They already knew what kind of atmosphere made the woman feel comfortable.
Sitting with a roko, they fell silent for a while. Feeling agitated, without changing his clothes and wanting to speed up the time Ira immediately teased him.
It was easy for him to tease such a man. Just by coming closer and giving her a gentle touch, she directly carried her to the bed without delaying the time.
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