Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES

Section 44

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The noise from the motor that passed outside could not cover the story of the pain that was being told by the woman. Tears that tried to be held back with a smile finally fell down on the cheeks.

"Haha funny right?" Ira said with a trembling voice.

Anggi who was sitting next to her hugged Ira and cried, "You're great baby."

The Goddess and Susan just looked at him with teary eyes.

"Udah dong, said there were no tears?" anggi said whining.

"Haha okay, okay,, hmmmmhhh huuuhh!!" Ira wiped her tears and took a deep breath.

"The funny thing is that after the incident there were problems, many problems in my life, but this is all I really could not escape until now.

"What Ra?"

"Gue was discriminated against by one school because of the slander of someone. Actually it's not slander, it's reality. But they don't know anything."

"Discrimination?" Anggi was astonished.

"From first grade Junior High to want to graduate I was equal to 5 people, it was beautiful when our friendship 6. Even one of them had been friends with me since 1st grade, but everything was broken because of that problem and even I think just call it the Beautiful, she really managed to destroy my good name."

"What is Ra?"

"But, first character introduction dong! the Beautiful: The frequency of friends I met in 1st grade Junior High. He's not nice, his company is bad and honestly I get carried away by him but it makes us feel comfortable because there's nothing to cover. Call him the Cute: My little friend from since 1st grade. He's kind, pinter and cute, it's just that he's a hypocrite in everything. And other friends are just followers who are easily carried away by the flow.

"Haha Ra lo there-there is, continue!" the Goddess shook her head.

"The most important role at that time was the beautiful . I play with him most often, and be open to my problems. He even offered me to sell this tub*h to his boyfriend. At the time, I did not take it seriously and did not agree with what he said. I'm short, the point is the guy likes me, I don't respond at all. But he already knows if his guy likes to send chat with me. It turns out that during the national exam, he spread rumors to school friends that I am a prostitute*r. Is it the guts?"

"Nyebelin yes?" susan said while eating chips.

"Banget! oh yes I told you, on Monday I went to school and then paid the poor payment. My body, my feeling, is really bad. Not because, as if I can not understand and feel what really happened to me. All I want is, to hell with life: I'm no longer a virgin, I sell it for money! I thought, is this a cruel life or my weak self? at that time my friendship was tenuous, rumors had spread and people were staring at me strangely. Many talk about me even in front of me directly, many men men who insult me with the words: what hour Ra? funny right? nobody wants to talk to me, nobody talks to me and it's so hard. Especially after the exam, practice being supposed to be in groups as if I just registered the name and worked it all out alone."

"Definitely you're called to BK, right?" ask Goddess.

"Yes, I was interrogated and until finally one of the good female teachers wanted to talk to me. Here I am very sad, when he asked: But Ira is still a virgin?. At first I insisted on answering still! until he wanted to take me to the hospital for a check, I finally gave up and said that I was not a virgin. He asked me why and for the first time I was honest, told him that I sold this tub*h for money."

"What was the teacher's response?"

"She was crying, this beautiful girl had to lose her virginity to pay for the school arrears. He said many times: why not tell mom? why would you do that? I'll try to help."

"Yes, what else am I answering? until even a cry of blood will not be able to restore the situation, I am no longer a virgin girl."

"Yes, too, confused! but I can't imagine what it is with you who are alone when faced with such a bad situation" Susan said looking at her phone.

"Anji*g really! even I'm really confused, everyone else why the hell? although the rumors are true, am I that bad? until the person who collided with me even just stared without speaking! can't you shadow?"

"It was romance, right?"

"That's a rumor, but the truth is I've sold tub*h even though they don't know. Furthermore, really, I might be lucky with 4 men who have been stamped bad at school because of their mischief but they want to talk to me as usual. Helping the practice that should be done with the group, nemenin when others avoid and they never talk about the rumors that exist. Aahh thank you bad people who are actually good." said Ira while opening a bottle of water and sipping it.

"There's no reason for them to be so good?"

"I used to ask one of them when graduating, he said: is there anyone who has nothing wrong? the sacred? don't go overboard! the point is I'm the same they make no difference. They understand more and may pity me who is discriminated against by a generation, even teachers."

"Yes I understand, both sinners why should they behave so holy?" anggi.

"That's really bad!" added Susan.

"Keep your relationship together temen lo how is it now?" ask Goddess.

"Because I graduated and I went to school while he didn't, we rarely met and communicated with each other so I don't know. There is no revenge, it has passed."

"Yes, what about the cute one?"

"Honestly, this is what made me hate him until now. Maybe you know before I moved here, I went to school at my favorite high school... At that time I felt very frustrated because the suleng could not be contacted for maybe one month, while besides being with him I had never been in contact with anyone else again. Things are really bad, my school fees, pocket money, meal money, other necessities, no one is nervous. The money I saved also ran out over time! trying to find halal work, but difficult. What kind of job can an SMK student get without dropping out?"

"Yes, that's undeniable!" anggi.

"After graduating and going to high school, I met a beautiful woman named Lisna. He's just like me, the difference is he's openly brave by hanging out in a brothel*and it's been a year."

"You mean he's not hiding his identity?" ask Goddess.

"Yes, at first we only knew each other, until I finally knew from Lisna that it turned out that this Cute became a night butterfly. Shocked, incredulous, and wondering why? though I know his family's economy is enough."

"Lo met him? what is he not the reason?" ask Goddess.

"Because we went to the same High School we re-connected, opened up to each other, had our usual days, met more often, spent time together. Because after graduating from Junior High we never met, until I finally asked him why he did it? then he said: the money my parents love is not enough, I want a lot!"

"The story of the kangen-angen time between 2 friends, it's the home of him who is not true Ra" said Susan.

"Yes, actually with this cute guy there is a story that I myself do not know between sad or happy. Maybe the role of the real Night Butterfly. A very clear taste is inherent. Which is where when I remember it, not only feel the taste but the atmosphere and the circumstances. I saw clearly the pain of life as a woman of the night, the cruelty of men who have power, and women of the night who are considered so despicable as a man.

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