Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES

Section 40

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The woman was silent in silence. "It turns out to be true, this little heart-telling feels more comfortable. Thank you Nggi," he said with a smile.

"Muachi!" Ari who suddenly came to kiss her cheek.

"Riii?!!!"

"What's? no one." sat in front of him.

"But this is school!"

"No cctv in class either."

"Basic, where is the same?"

"From Brother, let me go home to work."

"Well? hmm, be careful!"

"What are you smoking again?, go home, right?"

"No, no, I'd like to stay at Susan's cost."

"At home just mamah nemenin while waiting for me to come home from work, how?"

"Thank you, it's with Anggi."

"Tumbens?"

"You open up to each other. Men don't bother you, do they?"

"Hmm, what, no guy?"

"It's a sure house, there are a lot of guys who are more handsome especially at the school next door." Ira smiled at him.

"Muuu?!"

"Haha, not handsome." rubbed his hair.

"Tomorrow, who goes to school?"

"Ka Ayu anyway, most together with her sister Goddess."

"Are they working together, right?"

"Say she's going home?"

"Yes," nagged to look at Ira.

"Suspicious sight."

"According to someone else, my face was already suspicious." Ari turned her eyes around.

Ira saw her phone with a message from Ayu.

Suddenly, Ari raises Ira's chin and kisses and bites her lips....Before he pushed his body, the man had already let go.

Ira leaned against the wall closing her eyes and rubbed her face, "Yaalloh why love this jerk?" laughing with embarrassment and not thinking.

Ari who sat in front of him just smiled looking at his female behavior.

"Romantis ma'am."

"This handsome jerk isn't romantic!" he said with a sad face but he smiled.

"Hey, you two are mulu?" The goddess enters the class along with Sandi.

"Lo is alone!" Ira smiled.

"Plaaac!! thankfully, there were no people!" hitting Ari's shoulder.

"I've also seen the situation before."

One by one the students entered the class, including Iki, Anggi, Rendi and the others.

"Ra's coming home?" tanya Iki stood in front of him.

"No Ki, nginep in Anggi."

"Oh yeah." passed Ira.

"Who has a teacher?" Ira asked Anggi and saw the others sitting on their benches.

"So, look out for Ri!" answered Anggi who was standing next to Ari.

"I'm going home first, right? later on the phone." said Ari moved from his seat left the class.

Ira just looked at him away.

Then the Indonesian teacher entered the class.

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Ira, Anggi, Susan, Dewi and Santi have been friends since entering SMK. They are close and open to each other, only Ira is closed to all her personal affairs. The four friends never even knew who Ira was dating because she was always covered up. All they know is that Ari has liked Ira since she moved to SMK, but they don't know how the two are related.

Because Ira knew what it was like to be betrayed by someone she trusted. He did not want to feel the same for the second time, since then he never put his friend in the position of friend. For him it's all the same. But this time their friendship was really open, especially Anggi.

Anggi makes Ira convinced that not everyone is the same, Anggi assures Ira that he can be trusted. As well as the others, Ira already knew their secrets.

Anggi who has injuries due to being harassed by his guidance teacher, makes him dare to date like a normal person and fight parental restrictions. Kissing, hugging, it's just that she's still a holy virgin. The goddess once slept with her lover, but her parents insisted that she be a holy virgin girl. Susan always lied to her parents that she was a good boy when she was just like Ira, a smoker and a drunkard as well. And Santi who always lies spends his money to give something to every man close to him.

If all these things are known by others, especially their parents, it will definitely be a complicated problem. That's how each of them is silent. It's just that they don't know anything about Ira at once they figure it out.

The woman had already thought about this some time ago, she would believe in her friend and tell him all about herself. He knew sometimes not everything had to be talked about, but he himself realized that this would be his wound someday. This is pain, if it cannot be treated at least he can reduce the pain. That's what he believes right now.

This time he would believe, in his heart he did not expect that his friend would betray him. But still deep in his little heart he hoped his friend could keep the secret he had been hiding. Because now he himself is struggling not to go back on those who wish him back.

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The lesson hour was over, all the students were out of the class.

"Gue's coming home first isn't it Ra?" Iki left the class.

"Yes," Ira sat tidying up the books and kept them under the school.

"You want to go straight to kosan?" asked Susan who stood in front of Ira and Anggi.

"You want Ra now?" the Dewi.

"You guys go first, I go home and bring clothes for Ira" Anggi replied moving from his seat.

"Lo's not with Ra?" ask Goddess.

"You guys go first, I want to reflect first haha" said Ira leaning against the wall.

"Yes already, first." said Anggi out with Goddess and Susan.

It was heard from outside that some students were scattering home through Ira's empty classroom.

"Don't Ra go home?" thunder asked Ari's co-worker who was standing in the doorway.

Ira turned to her, "Let's go, you just come home?"

"Hour majors, this is straight to work."

Ira just nodded.

"Gue first!" go along with the others.

"What did I not tell them? what if one of them ends up betraying me by opening an identity that I have been covering up? what if one school finds out that this beautiful woman is a prostitute*r? what are they gonna say? don't you think their eyes will be like what? will I graduate soon?" the woman was feeling uneasy.

"Hmm, what about the other friends? The rendition? Rezki's? Ariff? The pras? Beni's? Sandy? and,, Ari? envy you! they don't have to know. How bad am I gonna be in their eyes?"

View your phone and open the group. Silent sculpting,,, putting his phone back on the table.

"okay! I don't care what people say and what people think, my mental health is more important than anything. After all he said: Humans are hard to understand before they experience. So, we need to be a little crazy to face a world that is not talking about" he said to convince himself.

The woman played her mobile phone and opened her social media account and posted.

* Sometimes it is necessary to be a little crazy to face the world that it speaks of not about :) *

Silently staring around. The school seems lonely, maybe many of them have gone home.

"Gue will tell stories, and I won't expect more of them" he said.

*Duut duut!!" phone's vibrating.

"Yes baby?" smile themselves.

"Thunder is still in class?" ask Ari in the phone.

"Yes,,,"

"Why hasn't it come down yet? wait for someone else what?"

"Yes, I want to meet." Ira smiled softly teasing him.

"Tell me!"

"Haha, no! going down." moving from his seat carrying a bag with his left hand.

"Yes, eat first!"

"Yes careful!" ended call.

The woman walked out of the class. All around seemed quiet, only an indistinct voice was heard from below.

"Maybe the underclassmen haven't all gone home yet" he murmured.

Down the stairs, some people were eating in the cafeteria. He just passed by and smiled as the underclassmen greeted him.

*Tuut tuut!" calling Anggi.

"Yes Ra?" the voice from sebrang.

"Where?"

"Udah in Susan's room. Lo where?"

"Gue's still in class alone Anjir!"

"Well? haha I think you're the same Ari?"

"Work, pick up my dong down!"

"Wait at the gate!" switched off phone.

The woman walked towards the gate.

In his mind, "If indeed his identity would be open and he graduated, people would remember me as a prostitute*r who did not know shame or pity me for a life that was not as lucky as others?"

"If they remember me as a prostitute*r, what are their rights? have I been bothering them all this time? what

I'm shaming the school's good name? and, if they pity me? please no! I've always tried hard and didn't feel sorry for this shitty life. Regret it for sure, but if they pity me it'll be worse. Not only is it regretful, but it will really hurt because I can't love myself instead of ruining it."

"Heummhhhh,,," let out a long sigh of realization that he had arrived before the school gate. And fittingly,, Anggi came with his bike.

"Goddess Susan is waiting, we think you're with Ari."

"Gue had been sitting in class by himself." climbed up behind Anggi and they set off for Susan's boarding house.

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