Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES
Section 48
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Trying to close her eyes but the woman did not go to sleep, her head felt dizzy she opened her eyes and moved.
Sit down to look at his three friends who are already sound asleep, "Why?" he said slowly while opening the pillow carrying his phone.
A message from Ari.
*Message contents*
"It's over, straight home"
"Yes I know, thank you for being my woman"
Ira smiled, instantly feeling homesick with the man.
"A lot of rest, go home to school straight to work. Healthy always does" Ira replied.
Sitting leaning against a wall while hugging a pillow and one hand holding a cell phone.
"For what? that jerk must have been sleeping." he said putting a cell phone on the bed.
Recollecting all that was told to his friend.
In his mind, "Wrongly tell them? can be trusted, right? he also graduated from school. What if all this was open and when I graduate, people will know me as school trash?"
Heated a long breath, rubbed his face then looked at those who were sleeping. "Udah! I'm sure myself, why should I doubt now?" said it.
Of all that he told me was only half his journey, in silence he remembered.
The woman once sat on the porch of the brothel*an while waiting for someone who wanted her, she did not pay too much attention to one by one passersby. Until finally, it was startled by a middle-aged man who was staring at it from a distance.
The instant the woman regained her senses, she was startled and immediately ran out of the place through the back door, which was, running in high heels without any care until he fell in the garbage hole because of the dark conditions without lighting.
Followed by Mama Rani and called her, "Why?"
"Maah suuttt!!" said Ira woke up helped by Mama Rani.
"What the hell is it to run? is anyone known?"
"Yes, there's my neighbor" Ira replied.
They both go to Mama Rani's room and Ira tidies up her appearance.
"They don't know anything, they just see the ugliness" said Mama Rani.
"It doesn't really matter, but what if they go to Grandma and grandpa?"
Mama Rani fell silent, giving Ira a drink clearly visible from the look on her face she was completely shocked.
Ira smiled as she recalled the events of that night, but at the time of experiencing them there was only fear and worry. Either go home or stay there.
It was the last night he was there, the night that he received no one but saw an unpleasant incident.
A little boy woke up from his sleep because of the noise of music. He was looking for his mother but there was none, because he was serving a guest.
He cried calling his mother, staring around the many men/women who were drinking and snoring. How could a child be allowed to grow up in such an environment?
Ira tried to calm the boy even though it was difficult, until he finally wanted to be carried by Ira and he took her to the terrace while looking at the car motorbike passing by on the road.
"Which mom?" the question began to whine.
"Mom again defecate first huh?" Ira said soothing though her heart was really touched to feel like crying along with the child.
What is that cruel life? how come? who is guilty of this?
never imagined how her mother felt when she was in a relationship and heard her son cry. He could not calm his son down before finishing it, lucky if the guest was a good person who allowed him to meet his son first. Then what if the guest he received was a rude and inconsiderate man? it was inconceivable that he should pretend to enjoy his relationship in a state of uneasy heart because he heard the sound of his son's cries getting louder.
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In the middle of a quiet night. With a body that was tired of wanting to rest, Ira planned to go home. But restrained from seeing the child sleeping in the arms of his mother who was sitting daydreaming on the porch.
Everyone has gone and fallen asleep, including Mama Rani. But Ira was silent there, sitting next to the woman.
"Why Tea?" his tanyanya roused the woman from daydreams.
"Why not go home yet?" back asking.
"No, don't know where to go? lots of open spaces, but until now haven't found a comfortable place." Ira sighed rubbing the boy's hair.
"Hopefully someday you can find a comfortable place and can be surrounded by good people."
Ira was speechless looking at him, "How could we possibly find a comfortable place with our status like this?"
"Is this self that bad? so there's no more comfortable place to rest?"
"Tea?" Ira looked at him sadly, her heart hurt if she had to look ahead.
The woman smiled, "Lo is young, you are beautiful. One day there will surely be a man who wants to accept you as you are" he said while stroking the hair of his son who slept on his lap.
"Is such a thing in the real world?" Ira's question made the woman go silent for a moment.
"Allah is good. Even though I am not considered a decent child, sister, and woman. Alloh is good with giving me the option not to kill this kid, he was born healthy, although not in a good environment. Alloh good by presenting him as a encouragement and my best friend" he said to kiss the boy.
"Effort to get out even if it's hard, you're still young. Leave that nice body of yours for the right guy someday."
"Haha sad tea, may you?." replied Ira with teary eyes.
"Lo has a girlfriend?"
"So far it's not hard to have a boyfriend."
"Yes it will be difficult, stay aloof until you can get out of this set*an environment!" sounds ordinary but behind this, the woman is berating the situation.
The night is calm, but not with feelings.
Looking at the time wall clock shows at 03:04 am. The woman is still not asleep.
"Why should I remember what I should have missed?" he said he was lying back on the bed, without seeing his phone he was staring at the ceiling.
In his mind, "What kind of life and freedom do I want? it's definitely not like this." Sighing, turning to face Anggi. He hugged her!
"Ggi, I can't sleep, trying not to think about what I shouldn't think. But hard!" he said silently then slowly closed his eyes and fell asleep.
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A noisy morning, an unruly voice sounded from outside. The motor passed by and several people passed by while chatting.
The woman opened her eyes, with a body that was not fully conscious she was astonished that there was no one there.
"Where are you going?" looking for his phone looking at the time clock already showed at 08:14.
"Huh? why is no one waking up? intentionally what?" he said while calling Anggi.
"Temple, bitch!!"
"Yes Ra? up yet?" sounds no noise.
"Why doesn't anyone wake me up? ko on jahil sih?"
"Hahaha is not ignorant, but I just saw at 3 am you just want to sleep. Not learning now, there's a meeting."
"Heumm, yes, thank you for understanding."
"Haha don't get angry pretty, now also in the cafeteria."
"Later on, I just woke up. Shocked no one, so dizzy with the head." said Ira while rubbing his face.
"It's easy not to learn either." Anggi ended his call.
The woman went back to sleep while looking at her phone. There have been some messages from Ka Ayu.
*Message contents*
"Where? I went to a meeting school"
"Meet huh? someone wants to ask"
"Yes later" Ira replied briefly.
"Tumben," he said, saw no messages or calls from Ari.
Putting the phone back on, the woman took a shower.
*
After the bath, the woman immediately dressed and tidied up the bed. Sweep and mop the floor, then dress up.
"Derrrnnn klek!" the sound of a motorbike stopping in front of the car.
Ira got up while combing her hair, looking out the window turned out to be Ari.
"Huh? ko?" while opening the room door, "Morning?" he said smiling with Ari who was sitting on the bike.
"Wake up?" the question is approaching Ira.
"Shock, there's nobody!"
"Well, but why did 3 am just go to bed?" ari asked following Ira who entered the room wearing her hood.
"Who said?" Ira asked back.
"I asked you, honey?" he said intentionally flirting.
"Haha, you can't sleep." Shuffling Ari's hair.
"It's a real pleasure" tidying her hair in front of the mirror. While Ira sat on the porch wearing her shoes.
"Udah? going to school now?"
"Yes yuk?" Ira closed the door and locked it.
"Mum's leg?" tanyanya sees Ira walking first without waiting for her.
"Simpen his bike here, it has Teguh as well."
Ari locks the neck of his bike, then walks beside Ira. A pair of young teenagers in a relationship walk down a small alley to school. Talking and laughing, painting memories that are reluctant to forget.
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