Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES

Section 38

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"Expectations do not correspond to reality!"

"Why Ra?"

"Let's be all right, right?"

"Gue's good, but I ask? if you don't daydream, talk to yourself."

"But I'm still sane!"

"Yes, what would you like to come to the house to Susan's boarding house?"

"I don't know, I met Ari the most. Haven't told you about it."

"Yes, yeah."

Pay attention to the teacher who is writing the formula on the board.

"Tokay?" someone knocked on the window. Ira saw that Ari was walking through the classroom.

"Where is he going?" ask in the heart.

"Where are you going Ari?" ask Anggi.

"Tok tok!!" Rendi knocked on the window glass.

"Where are the humans going? ask Ari dong Ra?"

"Behold," the woman played her phone on the bench and was covered by a book.

Sending a message to Ari.

"Where are you going?"

"Just in."

The woman opened her social media account and searched for the name of Mas Di, her stepfather (Satriadi) who was sailing and had not given news for 4 years.

*Message contents*

"Hey dad? how are you doing? you're okay aren't you? I hope so." the woman was daydreaming staring at the phone screen.

"Dad? you knew?..

"I've had a lot of trouble myself!"

"........."

"Rho? habit." chugging Anggi.

"You don't know what? daydreaming is the simplest healing."

"Yes, but your message goes back first, later on people read."

"Ira silence. Do I have to complain to dad before he comes back and finds out from mom? I'm a criminal if he hears from mom's side, but what am I supposed to say?" in his mind he never calmed down.

"Surprisingly I always think at all times but this self feels empty, the situation is not clearly dazed how it is."

"Not everything has to be alone Ra."

Ira was just speechless looking at the female teacher who was staring at Ira and Anggi.

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The 2nd hour of rest The teacher was out of class, followed by others scattering out.

"Maybe I'm the only one!"

"What Ra?"

"It feels like it's not finished yet?"

"It's just that we're both here, Ra." The person who was standing sat back down.

"Take as much time as you can, I'll actually tell you everything. Even stories I shouldn't have told. Can it be Nggi?"

"Gue will listen to the story, even though it will take days or maybe weeks. At least, this won't hurt you in the future just because you haven't finished it."

"Now,, I told you. After I was injured in the divorce of parents who at that time did not understand clearly, I got word if mom would marry again. Until some time there was a tall, handsome, and sweet black man coming to the house. Mom introduced him as a stepfather candidate and I just assented. About a week she sleeps at grandma's house along with me and ka Ayu, maybe she's trying to take the hearts of mom's children. Honestly since the first arrival I have been happy because he was present filling the feeling of loneliness in the midst of mother and father who left their children together. Eventually we got closer until I felt awkward talking became bolder when I asked for help."

"Hmm, then the moment was broken when he said he had to go back to his town to take care of all his papers. He said he would come back and give me a cell phone to exchange news... Letting her go back was painful, but she said they would come back. Yes, they keep their promises."

"No problem yet, Ra?"

"OK continue on Ra."

"Like children and fathers in general, he always calls to ask the news and show his affection. At first I was disappointed because they said they would be back in the near future and it turns out that one year they just returned with a new sister. Tia, my last sister from Di's father."

"The first time I saw a little one-year-old baby was suckling at mom. "Is he right my brother?" ask me in my heart. It was a happy moment to have a cute little sister. I felt lucky even when Tia grew up Di's father didn't distinguish his affection towards his children. He still treats me the same way I used to, I've been taught many things. Sports, teaching, even haha. I mean I'm taught to play rummy, both to good people and sneaky to people who are cunning Nggi."

"Mixed with the environment and society my stepfather came as a gambler. In fact he shifted the position of the bookies where I lived at the time. I really want to, once, have been in their most glorious time. My time does not have any burden, a period where finances are very sufficient even though it is the result of massaat. He's a good stepfather, and has many roles that I admire and am proud to have been his son. There's nothing he can't. He is good at playing football, when he started playing his position immediately became captain and coach for his team. He likes the sport of badminton, that's why I'm good at playing because he taught me. He is known for his perfection, everyone knows about him, which is why he has the nickname as the Father of All. Because indeed all the underage people he called him by calling Father, maybe only the bachelors called him Mas Di."

"This is his prime?"

"The jaya-jayanya Nggi."

"Again, so is my life easier because many appreciate me as his son. I never felt any trouble in anything. Not only that, he is good at teaching. Even what I miss most about her is the sound of her adat that makes my heart feel comfortable. I did lose my father figure but he succeeded."

"He managed to prove that not all broken homes hurt, my relationship and mother also when it was fine like a child and mother in general. Not open maybe because I was too young to know romance so there is not much to tell. If I have to say it clearly, my life is so much better that even I forget the same feeling of my real father. Mr. Sunandar haha,,,"

"Wahh, so your stepfather managed to treat the wound even though it wasn't completely healed?"

"Rubber, at least I've felt how warm the family is even though it's only an instant. Dining together, watching tv together, telling stories, going on holidays together even if only out of the area. And of course, even though the money is the result of the meal but I have eaten a lot of delicious snacks hahaha."

"Irraaay? I'm ruqyah lo!"

"Haha, until at the end there is a time that completely destroys everything. Family, happiness, finances, even sanity. At that time my father was falling, losing several times in gambling. His colleagues happened to be outside the city busy with their respective work. Which turns out, including all his comrades' work and the defeat of his judge it was a plan of his enemy to drop. A very smooth plan. It went well and the big event back then wasn't just bringing down my stepdad. But dragged my uncle and brother (uncle's son) because they were helping my father. If I had to say maybe even my brother has a trauma will be snapped because at that time he was a teenager who did not know anything just to help for the safety of my stepfather."

Anggi looked at Ira seriously listening to what she was telling me.

"The emergence of conflict?"

"Yes really. I really wanted, at that time when I came home from school I saw my father was painting the rim of the motorcycle tire from white to red. "Whose motor? ko in the paint?"my question at that time, because of the many motorcycles I just saw the bike. And I asked about the paint because it does not match the color of the blue motor. Even whether it's a hunch or not, from me after school it feels like the state of the house and the environment is different. It feels empty when people behave as usual."

"Maybe it's because, uh, I'm confused."

"What Nggi?"

"Keep the story!"

"Well, I went into my mom's house again cooking, I changed clothes and then fit out my dad's house went with his bike. because my youngest sister sleeps in front of the tv so at that time I sleep with her. Until in the end, I forgot the details should be in the sivet first but at that time I woke up already want magrib, magrib, in the same wake up my father told me to take a shower and I took a shower as usual there was no feeling. Then when I took a shower, my mother in the kitchen was eating someone called my father, at that time did not know who he was? what conversation? suddenly my mother screamed hysterically. Dad immediately rushed to change clothes so I hurried out of the bathroom wearing clothes and wriggling my father had gone through the back door wearing a blue jacket with the same black hat without saying goodbye because it's a precarious situation!"

"Critical?"

"Yes Nggi, I really still do not understand why and what is it? but for the first time I saw my mother cry hysterically seeing my father run to the highway through the forest without any lights because what I knew at that time he had to run, he had to run, run away from home. What I saw at that time was my father directly hitchhiking in a truck carrying sand. I was heard on the phone, mom said same uncle to tell him to take dad to a place far from home. Because my mother talked while crying and not clear uncle came mastiin, when my uncle worked in a wood factory. Not long did he come up with the shabby appearance of another working man? know how?"

"Yes, hold Ra?"

"Gue is not clear anyway my uncle went straight to ride the bike with the appearance is still like that,,, the,, likewise my brother came and then mom said and he also immediately went speeding on a motorcycle that I do not know where they are going. There were a few men who came to the house by force. Maybe 5 people, "Where's Mas Di?" tanyanya snapping mom. They entered the house without any courtesy checking the entire house while continuing to jerk at the father. My mother was crying, crying, and crying. I also lack understanding and lack of clear horror, honestly feel very scared at that time because I have never been snapped especially with a really chaotic situation can not be explained. The point is they're just a noisier storm!"

"Who are they Ra?"

"I don't know, but they admit that they're cops and dad has a problem. At first I was not suspicious at all because of fear, until in the end they left and I saw from the darkness they were not only 5 but many. There may be up to 20."

"Hmmmhh,, aren't you sure you still want to be horrified?" the woman took a long breath.

"Yes, yeah, uh, yeah?" Anggi running small out of class.

"Where is he?" ask her in heart while looking at Anggi.

Then he sees the phone but Ari does not reply to the message.

"Hmmh,," exhaled.

He sent a message to his father.

*Message contents*

"Hey dad? I'm recalling that most painful story. Hmmmh, I even felt that I was not okay when I accidentally met them. How do I forget that?"

He looked at the chronology of his father's Facebook account in which he shared a quoets of who the real owner was.

*quoets*

"If you can't be a good person, you don't have to be a bad person"

The woman kept her cell phone, looking straight out the window that looked nothing but the roofs of buildings and houses.

"I'm who?" anggi goes to class.

"Where from?" replied Ira who had been sitting in her chair.

"Hahaha." the two women laughed as they saw Anggi who had come bearing two black coffee stamps and some snacks.

"What intentions do I have to tell haha?"

"Let's not sleepy, same cry fit sad part haha."

"God the most could haha." rubbed his face feeling inexhaustible.

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