Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES
Section 59
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No longer care about the name of stupidity based on love, and relationship without marriage which is called Zina. Maybe the woman will get karma from her sins, whether it is now or later.
Do not talk about sin with this woman, without contact with her lover she keeps in touch with others. Maybe even someday he will get worse karma, because he is in a relationship with a married man.
He doesn't care what will happen and what if it does? no matter how much he held back and avoided everything, the nightmare was bound to happen. "What's going to happen, happens!" the word that is always spoken by him, fed up with all the plans that always fail and expectations that are always destroyed by reality.
Resolve, the determination believed in by him. Enough to try to get out of this dark life, and stop believing himself to be able to get through all this. In the mind, the heart always believes that it is capable and effort will never betray results. The reality is, 4 years passed with the belief of being able to leave but the reality is still back.
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"What do you want to eat?" tanya Ari started a chat and slowly slowed down the speed of his bike.
"Eat you." Ira replied making the man laugh.
"Haha, if you want me to love you."
"Eat meatballs only, but I myself 2 servings may?" ask him without feeling embarrassed because of feelings that are no longer out of place with thoughts that go everywhere.
"Hahaha, why the hell? want up to 5 servings also as long as you are full please." he said deflecting the motor stop at the meatball place.
"When was there a meatball?" Ira asked, 'cause she didn't realize there was a meatball who was selling right before the alley to Ari's house.
"You are often daydreaming" he said pinching Ira's cheek walking in. Then true, the man ordered 3 servings of vegetable meatballs in packs.
"You're home?" Ira asked while sitting waiting, not believing that Ari actually bought 2 servings for her.
"Don't ask about mama, it's definitely not there" he replied.
"Certainly? ko pesen 3?"
"You want to eat it at home."
"Hahaha, my God, really." Ira laughed covering her reddened face.
"Everyone with orange ice, right?" pinta Ira and the man ordered it.
"Ghruddugg!" there was a thunder in the distance.
"Lately it always rains" said Ari sitting next to him.
"Can November, usually it ends up always raining haha" Ira replied.
"Emang yes? who said ma'am?"
"Do you believe? haha, I said." shuffling his hair.
"Basic!" take and pay for the order that is ready, then they go home.
As always, explore the narrow alley that is always quiet. Just a few minutes they arrived, get off the bike directly into the house.
Ari went to the room to change her clothes, "Honey? haha." call Ira to keep the bowl on the table.
Sitting on a chair, a lucky break because he was the first to see his cell phone. There was a message from the gentleman, who said he would pick up Ira at 8pm tonight. Stalling for time on the grounds of having to take his wife shopping first.
She quickly replies to IYA on the message, before Ari returns she must delete it.
"Gue doesn't work, tomorrow at most" Ari's voice was calling out of her room.
Ira opened the bag of meatballs and poured them into the bowl, without waiting for the man to eat first.
"Now I'm the same girl, I'll be there" she said, ending the call.
"Si Teguh ngajak drinking. Abis pay him, can you?" he said he was sitting in front of Ira.
Ira just nodded. In silence he thought, was it Susan who deliberately invited Ari to help Ira with a paycheck? if true, it would probably be better because it just so happened that today the man did not work.
"But I've eaten so I want a whip?" the question is now little by little managed to reduce the desire to smoke.
He just nodded preoccupied with his meatballs, as well as the woman who spent two servings of meatballs.
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Ashar adzan. After washing the dishes and cleaning the place to eat, Ira caught up with the man who had been in the room not accompanying her. Perhaps resting or sleeping, he rarely had this kind of free time.
Opening the door and right what she thought, Ari fell asleep. Lying in front of him, he stared silently at the man then pinched his nose and kissed his face.
"Are you still a jerk guy who's in a relationship with another woman behind my back?" the whisper woke Ari.
"I've said I'm not interested in anyone but you, and now I'm trying not to be a jerk" she replied, hugging the woman tightly.
"If I betray you how?" tanya Ira wanted to know what answer the man would say.
"I'll assume it's karma." he wakes up, drinks and starts a cigarette.
"Perset*n with that, if you know that I'm a prostitute*r who sleeps with a married man, maybe you'll leave me and even feel disgusted." Ira said in her heart.
He got up, stood in front of Ari and teased her by gently rubbing the man's neck.
"Are you the one who wants it now?" ari asked smilingly as she embraced her waist.
"Maybe, can you after this not be related unless I ask for it myself? don't fool yourself, I'll tease you if I want to." he said opening his hair and letting it unravel.
"I'm not sure I can, but for a while I might be able to hold it." Ira's answer was expected, "Hungry men like you can't be in a relationship like ordinary teenagers." Ira said pulling her ear.
Ari kissed the woman's lips gently. Without remembering this is a mistake or not, again and again they are washed away with a delicious lust that will not be enough if not to vent it.
Hypocritical. Maybe the right word for the woman now, before knowing love she felt disgusted with the woman who gave her body to the man without any reward. With the reason of enjoying the time before others have taken it upon themselves, she is now a foolish woman who gives up her body in exchange for love.
He had already forgotten his self who was trying to strengthen the defensive fortifications, if his identity were to be exposed later. Ears that must be tightly closed, and eyes that look without thinking of feelings.
Life is far beyond his control now. He didn't think about how painful it would be when all the things he didn't want happened. Who will complain to? what's he gonna say? and which man will calm him? others will only care about their mistakes, not their pain. They will judge and intimidate without the slightest bit of introspection.
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