Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES
Section 17
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About an hour later they finally arrived. Ari turns her bike and stops in front of Ira's grandmother's house.
"Heummm," Ira muttered as she got off her bike.
"Go home, will you?"
"Yes be careful because it's cloudy. Thank you" Ira returned her jacket.
"Yes." Yeah." Ari smiled wearing a jacket.
"Can you ask for something?"
"What?"
"Not being." Ari smiled.
"Muachi!" Ira kissed Ari's lips.
"Haha, that's not really it." Ari laughed
"Times?"
"Other times. It's in there!"
"Here go home!"
"Yes, come home?" go with his bike.
Ira smiled to see the man leave her.
After being lost at the turn Ira walked towards the house.
"Maybe they're asleep" Ira said, seeing Grandma's house with the lights off, and Ira's house.
"In the key is not yes" said Ira
He stood at the door worried between knocking and calling his mother.
"Drawn!!" try opening the door.
"Well not in the key? tumben." he muttered into the house and locked it.
Opening the door of the room replacing her jeans with shorts. Sitting in front of a mirror combing her hair, going to the bathroom to urinate and cleaning her face.
Rubbed his face with a towel. Back sitting in front of the mirror wearing a night cream and handbody then clean the mattress and turn off the room lights.
"Brugg!!" the woman lay on the bed.
Seeing his phone there have been no messages or calls from Ari.
"Maybe he hasn't arrived yet" Ira said, putting his phone on and looking straight at the dark sky.
There was a wind blowing outside and suddenly,
"Dherr ghrudug!!!" lightning sounds.
"Well rain?" Ira wakes up from her sleep looking at the window.
Outside the light drizzle and the boiling wind swayed the trees and plants outside.
The longer the rain falls into a tightness.
"Derrrr!!" heavy rain is pouring down the earth.
Ira who was standing in front of the window noticed the atmosphere outside the house was jolted by the sound of lightning.
"Ghrudug!!!" lightning sounds.
He closes his curtains and sees the cell phone thinking of Ari who has not contacted him wondering if he is rained or has it arrived before it rains?
"Hopefully the lightning doesn't get any harder" Ira said back to sleep and covered her entire body with a blanket.
The young woman from childhood was very afraid of the sound of lightning let alone that boomed loudly. When she sleeps there should be someone hugging her just since her mother left, she is trying to fight that fear and she can handle it a little bit now
"How come he hasn't called?" Ira wakes up from her sleep and sits down
"Ri's here? it's raining" Ira sent a message.
Putting down his phone took a deep breath.
"Heummm yaalloh if it rains, just rain just don't be the same lightning I'm afraid."
"It's the same lightning, the lightning is already this way just don't add in the loudness of his voice."
"Ghrudug!!"
The woman went back to sleep and covered her body with a blanket
Her phone lit up she immediately saw and it was a message from Ari.
"Rain ma'am, it's just here!"
"Keep that rain?"
"Yes dikit. Shit but wait a little longer take responsibility."
"Hmmm take a shower!"
"Udah ko, this again coffee first let the angel."
"Call yes? spitty."
"Yes a little."
"Here I am sleeping!"
"There's no lightning, is there?"
"There are, but not hard can ko sleepmah."
"Ohh yeah. Good night to sleep."
"Hmmm yes."
The woman activated airplane mode and put down her phone.
"Now you have to sleep and not think about anything else!"Ira said listening to the sound of rain and thunder as a sleep song.
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Ira snapped straight out of her sleep.
"Yes," Ira shouted.
Wake up taking 10 thousand in the wallet and then come out with closed eyes and lives that have not been fully collected.
"Teh want some jajan?" tanya Tia who was already sitting in front chose the food.
"There's an onde?" said bi Ita a fried seller who has been a subscription to Ira since he was a child.
"Yes bi." Ira picked some onde, lontong, bakwan and knew the contents.
"Tea bought a lot?" ask Tia
"Yes, because Tia bought love to Sindi!" reply Ira separated the food for his sister.
"Thank you" said bi Ita go.
"Please anterine yes!" Ira went back into the room.
The woman ate the lontong and bakwan before taking a bath. View your phone and disable airplane mode. Waiting for messages and calls who is coming in.
"Waahh, it turns out that I am beautiful even when I wake up and eat before washing my face haha" Ira said looking at the mirror praising herself.
"Oh my hair is rich lionaaaa hahaha!!" said Sindi who turned out to be on the doorstep of Ira's room.
"Hihh surprised Sin!" Ira jerks.
"The one who bought this?" bakwan is bought.
"Yes, buy it."
"Thank you, but grandfather also bought and kept telling nganterin for teteh haha."
"Huh? haha no need, take it back there. There is also more eating.
"Here it is!" Sindi went out of the room.
"Newly praising oneself is even ashamed of haarrghhh." said Ira looking at himself in the mirror.
After finishing eating 2 pairs of lontong and bakwan come out to the kitchen. Drinking and washing hands.
"Be a moment!" see the new watch at 05:52.
Logging back into the room saw there were several incoming messages and missed calls.
See the message that comes in most of the clutter. But there was one reply from Ari last night.
At first Ira thought it was just a normal message. But when he opened the message, his feelings were not because he was either happy or sad.
"Hey, it's a little bit more than maybe even embarrassing but I don't care. Have a good night and thank you for the time you have spent. If I may be honest, this time I really intend to have you give me a chance. Bad you I will try to accept what is. Lean on me, my shoulders are strong enough to share all your grievances." message from Ari.
"Huh? haha are you kidding me?" Ira read the message again as if in disbelief.
"This is just an ordinary fight. Ira come on!"
"It's still morning and I could have haha." Ira who from earlier laughed for a moment she immediately fell silent when she looked at herself in the mirror.
"Well am I bad you'll accept me? are you kidding me? I not only hate myself but all the things I've done."
"I'm trying to forget everything but I haven't even been able to get out of this dark circle. Can you say you want to accept me? haha not only is my body contemptible but part of my body is also damaged." said Ira while stroking his right thigh where there are a lot of razor incision wounds that he has done when he felt he could not bear all the burden.
"This is crazy!" laughing but her eyes shed tears looking like a mad woman in depression.
Ira took off her shirt, saw and rubbed the incision wound on her upper left arm (Humerus).
Smiles and tears fall down her cheeks.
Retrieved cellphone.
"You know? not that I don't want to love or be loved. I want to even desperately want. I want to share my grievances. I want to ease the burden of my problems. I want to achieve my happiness but I don't want to wish more on you. Wh why? because I know that wishing on humans is the simplest art of suffering." Ira replied to Ari's message.
"Thank you for everything. For now it should be enough with friendship without the need to involve feelings."
"Can we love each other like this? I know this is wrong because there is no clarity.
But, for now I don't want to hope and hurt anyone whether it's you or me. Sorry if I'm selfish." she continued.
Ira put her phone in front of the mirror. The only thing he was afraid of was, when Ari knew what he had been doing. Because Ira also does not want to lose a man as good as Ari and Ira does not want to have it because she realizes that she is what kind of woman.
"What school is it not? what if I meet Ari? why be awkward like this?"
The woman got up from her seat. Pick up a towel hanging behind the door and go straight to the bathroom.
After a few minutes of taking a bath she immediately rushed into her school uniform and dressed up trying not to look at her phone even though she was curious what Ari would answer.
"A minute, was I really crying? haha is so funny when I want to cry tears as if dry no one came out. Gini cake turn is very easy to get out. It involves a painful feeling!"
"Tiettt tiett Raaa ayooo!!" iki.
"Yes jerk off," Ira finished dressing up wearing a veil and a mask did not forget her jacket and sprayed perfume before leaving the room.
"Now" Ira sat in her shoes.
"The problem is I'm just afraid the rain is so, because today's cuca does not support a bit cloudy!" Iki looked at the sky.
"Yes, anyway." Ira finished standing in the mirror at the window.
Step out of the house.
"Ehhh bentar bentar vows. No phone!!" Ira ran back to her room.
Picked up his cell phone lying on the room table. He immediately carried and kept it on his pocket without even looking at it.
"Yes yuk?" Ira was riding the motorbike.
Iki turned on the motor and drove straight away.
"Nekkk departs!!" Ira passed by her grandmother's house.
"Aahh I feel most comfortable with this situation." said Ira.
"What Ra?"
"A windy morning with a broad white sky filled with clumpy clouds (cumolunimbus) can not be explained but this is convenient."
Iki just fell silent without retaliating anything, he focused on riding his bike.
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