Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES

Section 36

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Many times closed her eyes, but the woman could not sleep. "Living in a dilemma is hard" he said in his heart.

Unable to lie his mother's words imprinted in his mind and buzzed clearly in his ears, "He regretted giving birth to me and did not kill me while in the womb. Does he think I feel lucky to have been born?"

"Whatever anger you are, how could you say such a thing to your own child? at least have mercy on your child who must grow up without affection and live in trouble. You think I want a life like this? if I can turn back time not to change the path I've taken, I don't even want to be born at all."

"Dad why are you so willing to let me live like this? maybe if only my mother left me, it wouldn't be like this, would it? then why did you leave me too? you said I'd lose my way and purpose, that's right. But why did you let him? you said you'd come back and live with your son? why haven't you come back to this day? honestly, I'm still waiting for you to come back. The world is too hard, life is too painful. I should what?"

Not realizing that her tears were flowing through her ears. "Surprisingly for the last few years even I can't cry even though I want to but lately I'm always crying, is this the peak of my fatigue?" in mind.

"Hmmmhhh,,," let out a long sigh.

Taking off Ari's embrace but she tightened it even more. "Are you sleeping?" Ira asked but the man did not answer.

Then the woman closed her eyes slowly falling asleep.

**

"Mom? wake up in the shower." Ari whispered and rubbed Ira's head.

Ira opened her eyes looking at the phone already at 07:03 a.m.

Moving from her sleep mirror, "Beautiful even though her hair is rich in lions as well" said Ari who had bathed and put on her school uniform.

*Duut duut* Ira mobile vibrates.

"Yes Ki?"

"Where's lo? I was at school."

"A uniform was brought? have you checked?"

"Yes, there is nothing lacking."

"I just woke up haha."

"Well, where are you changing clothes?"

"Susan there's no."

"Well, do you want to talk?" Iki gave her phone to Susan.

"Yes Ra?"

"Can you please please? I'll change my clothes, will I?"

"Yes later, tell me if it's nyampe."

"Yes, thank you, my dear, you love you haha." Ira ended her call.

"Love you continue to be the same as Iki" said Ari.

"What the hell?" Ira came out of the room and went straight to the bathroom.

At the back of the school is a boarding room, Santi, Dewi and Susan are not there. At first they lived in one room. Now Susan sleeps alone because she thinks it's uncomfortable living in a room with Santi and Dewi. I don't know why because I haven't asked.

After finishing the shower Ira only wear jeans and T-shirt Ari then wear lipstick without making-up because it does not bring her. The woman came out wearing Ari's mask and hat.

"Udah?" asked Ari who was sitting in the living room chair while playing mobile phone.

"yok? where's auntie?"

"Now wear a jacket."

"You're wearing the uniform."

"Yes it is."

"It's noon ko? what kind of school is this?" said Ari's mother out of the room.

"Flying rarely in aunt's keys, leaving huh?" Ira shakes her mother.

"Don't eat first?"

"Don't have a aunt at school."

"Yes, he made a snack." gave 50 thousand dollars.

"No, I have."

"This is for the snack." gave and Ira took it.

"I've never been given pocket money" said Ari.

"Kan Ari works, this makes Ari." gave money 50 thousand.

"Haha no need, there ko." did not accept it he immediately went out of the house to turn on his motorbike.

"Yeah?"

"Aunty, thank you?" Ira sat on the bike and drove.

"heart!" said the woman then went into the house.

Ira saw her watch was 07:42.

"Still at 7, so I'll take a quick shower, right?"

"A little while from where?"

"Huh, straight anterin me to the boarding Susan huh?"

"Yes." Yeah."

The heat of the morning sun that shone on gave warmth to the body of Ira who felt cold because he did not wear a jacket or shirt.

**

Arriving at the school environment Ari turned through the back to Susan's boarding house.

Ira got off her bike and sent a message.

*Message contents*

"San I'm here."

"The entrance song to Ra? let me get permission to the wc first."

"Yes." Yeah."

"Himself Ra?"

"Yes, but and yes I used to wear nothing."

"Yes, I'm in the parking lot, wait."

Staring at Ari.

"You go first."

"I'll make it easy for you to go to school."

"No, Susan's got a motor."

"I am first, right?" the man left Ira for school first.

From the narrow alleyway, a woman riding a green beat motorbike stopped in front of a boarding house.

Get off the bike with Ira's bag of clothes and her shoes.

"When you wear shoes at school."

"Let's go." Unlock the room.

"Yuk Ra?"

Ira went into the room. Nothing changed, there was only 1 mattress, wardrobe, tv, dispenser, magic com and cutlery, as well as a bathroom in the corner. Like school children in general.

"Where's Rae?"

"Prefer to honesty what lies?" I take off my shirt and replace it with a uniform.

"Honest dong."

"In Ari's house."

"Seriously?"

"Really."

"Is there a mother?"

"There's."

"Sleep with you?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Waah haha, that's too honest Ra's house."

"Haha he said he preferred honesty."

"Yes, anyway."

"But what's wrong?"

"Buffhit."

"Gue if yes yes. If not, no."

"Yes I believe in you."

Ira sat on the bed wearing her make-up.

"Pake lipstick doang!"

"Hmmm, it's not wrong that many guys are crazy about you."

"Gue is beautiful?"

"Lo is beautiful Ra."

"Haha thanks, but you're also beautiful San."

"Yes I know, just not as pretty as you."

"But I think you're prettier than me."

"Why?"

"At least your body is not as damaged and as despicable as San" he said in his heart.

"You're beautiful anyway" said Ira wearing her veil.

"Directly wear Ra's shoes, your clothes are picked up later when you go home. Want to take it to school?"

"Yes, thank you."

They both went out of the room. Ira sat on the floor wearing her shoes while Susan washed her room.

"Where is my school bag?"

"Oh haha at school the same Iki was not in love, no papa is."

"Yes, but I haven't eaten."

"Would you eat first?"

"Yes, yes, yes."

"Yes, yuk?" turn on the motor and go to school.

Coming in during school hours seems lonely because all students are in their respective classes.

Walk from the parking lot directly to the canteen to eat.

"Rho? are you really the same as Ari?"

"Haha is that?"

"From the first time you guys were deket, he said dating but Ari had a girlfriend outside of school. So how's it going now?"

"It's really San."

"Seriously?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Yes, I'm going with the fun."

"Say you're as firm as you are?"

"Yes, you know where?"

"From Ari."

"Yes, how's Ra?"

"Yes if you feel comfortable with him."

"A lot of bad rumors about him."

"Emang, but even if it's not a rumor, it's clear that he's being nice to you. Even if he's playing a woman, as long as he wants to be serious, it doesn't matter what I think."

"Yes, other people just know he said yes Ra?"

Ira just nodded.

Arriving at the cafeteria, "Teh wants boiled noodles 2 yes."

"Gue don't have to Ra hasn't laper."

"Gue doesn't want to know, you have to keep me."

"Yes, yeah."

"Just like iced his orange."

In the cafeteria, there were only Ira and Susan.

"Lake in!" The stoic who suddenly sat next to Susan.

"Stay," Susan replied.

"Guh? you say you want to be with me? go to Susan?"

"Ahhh lo ex-Ari."

"What the hell is that?" Susan rubbed Teguh's face.

"First." said Teguh woke up from his seat to the school gate.

"Gak papa San, you'll also be fretting about how."

"meaning?"

"Nih Mienya neng." The tea canteen kept it on the table.

"Just like orange ice."

"Give me tea."

"What was Ra?"

"Resiko associated with a man who has a lot of bad rumors, you will definitely be considered a girl is not real."

"I didn't think of it?"

"Here you are, don't think too much about others. The important thing is to be happy." Enjoy the noodles.

"People don't know the story."

"Rubber."

*

After they finished eating, they went straight up to the top of their class.

"I'll be asked, 'permit to wcnya a long time Susan?' it's."

"Thank you, my dear, I understand." Ira hugged Susan.

When she arrived at the classroom, the teacher was no longer in the classroom.

"Ianggos? just entered you?" yell Anggi approaching.

" Guru where?" ask Susan.

"Pas lo came down earlier, he also went down there was a sudden business he said."

"Oh yes." Susan walked into class sitting in her chair playing a cell phone.

"What's the problem?" anggi asked Ira who was still in the doorway.

"Hmm,,,"

"On yu? anyway, it has to be a story." Anggi pulled Ira's hand up.

"Where's goddess? he said he wanted to tell me."

"Not under you?"

"Look at."

"In the UKS at most, he likes to be pinned there."

"What do you want Anggita?"

"Haha here's the story." Sitting under the banyan tree.

"We've known each other for a long time, not just me, surely you also feel that I'm your friend, right? soon PKL then does not feel we both graduated. Are you sure you will always hide your true identity? you're not cape?"

"Rully?"

"I don't know anything, but I know you're hiding deep wounds. People say time will heal wounds, are you sure you'll find that time? what if it doesn't? it'll hurt you."

Ira stared at Anggi.

"Is this the time? do I have to tell you everything? to express all the pain I'm feeling?" in mind.

"Nggi, give me one night to tell you everything."

"My face?"

"To them too, we have been friends for a long time and many grievances, except me. Maybe it's time for me"

"We'll talk about this later, but before that I'll tell you first. It's just you. Just you."

"Here you are telling."

"It's been a long time Ra, but until now I haven't found a time to heal this wound."

"What's wrong?"

Anggi hugged Ira tightly and cried as he pleased.

Ira hugged him while rubbing his shoulders letting him cry first to express all his pain.

In his mind he was very curious why? what was? and what wounds? so this cheerful woman cries?

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