Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES
Section 42
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"There are people who never complain about all the problems in his life, never vent, story here and there, but suddenly commit suicide" said Anggi attracted the attention of the three friends.
"Indeed, not all personal problems should be discussed with others, but every human being has their own limits of patience. If cape is cape, we are ordinary humans and can occasionally complain of the same situation. Don't always try to be strong. It could be crazy!" continued.
Ira, Susan and the Goddess looked at each other. They were surprised by Anggi who was usually always cheerful and did not care about all the problems, now the woman acted as if she was berating the situation.
"What's really going on?" ask Ira.
"Ra, I told you."
"Yes. But isn't that all he's got? what's the problem, Nggi?"
"What's the Anggi problem?" ask Susan.
"The clear gue!" Ira looked at Anggi who was going to talk."Straight to the point, Anggi ngalam harassment from his guidance teacher."
"Did you?!!" the Goddess and Susan both gasped in shock.
"He's kissed sampe in squeeze tits*nya. Crazy right?" connect Ira.
"Anji*g vows inimah Nggi. When's that?"
"It's a long time ago, but...?" Anggi started to glaze over.
"Can't there be any tears please?!" said Ira.
Anggi looked at him and laughed, "Haha yes. It's gonna be all crying, right?"
Ira just nodded with a smile.
"How do you feel?" ask Goddess.
"I don't forget this to this day. Maybe because there's no solution and my parents don't know."
"We have to finish this Nggi." said Ira.
"Where? dad was always rude Ra, he slapped me often just because of a problem that was spele." said Anggi trying to hold back his tears.
"Haha?!!" they all felt very surprised to not expect.
"The fact, from since Junior High, my father has often been rude, especially not much" said Anggi covering his smiling face with teary eyes.
"Not to?" ask Goddess.
"You may know besides my school also sell online. Well at that time I abis studying and eating in the kitchen alone, because of the responsibility there are tanya² I balesin while eating. Keep dad say 'do not play cell phone while eating', naah I replied 'iya already ko' he meant bertar again because nanggung. Ehh suddenly she nyamperin keeps slapping me. It was the first time I ate while playing on my phone at home."
Susan, Dewi and Ira stared at each other in disbelief because they knew that Anggi's mother and father were both well-known and pious teachers.
"What about your mother?" ask Goddess.
"Mother just broke up, because if you behave like that towards me there is no guarantee if he is also not rude to you. Sometimes I get confused too? either the mother who tried to be a wife of solleh by being a obedient to the father, either because she was also afraid of the father. It's like he doesn't have the right to argue about the situation."
"Related? violence is intolerable, even if it is my own father. Now that he's just slapping, what if one day he can't control his emotions and then do more? if mom and dad can't help you even they're no better, tell your dad's grandma or grandpa. Your family is known as a good and honorable person, but if it is rude like that to his son this has really crossed the line" Ira explained.
"Tell Ira Nggi, although trying to be strong, women will still be weak when compared to men. Complaining about this to your grandparents is natural." Susan continued.
"Every parent wants the best for his or her child, but educating by force is not good. Mental health is primary, until when will it be like this? it is true that no parent wants to hurt their child, they will feel guilty and very sorry when they have done so. But if they keep repeating it, is that true?" Ira looked at Anggi seriously.
"We need to finish this, can't we, Ra?" ask Susan.
"I'll find a way." Ira smiled looking at Anggi.
Anggi just smiled.
"What about you?" ask Goddess.
"It's my personal problem that doesn't exist. My relationship is also good. But, my problem is now in the family. I recently found out that my father was cheating on me with a woman the same age as me, anj*ng High School boy."
"Well?!! haha really San?" Ira laughed.
"Seriously Ra, that day I went with Teguh and accidentally saw the father of the same young woman going to an inn. At first I thought maybe he was just having fun with buying it, but right I asked him directly it turns out dad said they had a long relationship. She loved that woman from her 2nd grade High School till now. Crazy no?"
"He only made a stash of San times?"
"No Ra! my own father said he was not a mistress, but indeed he and he loved each other. If it's clearly said this is an affair."
"Waaahh it turns out dadlo refused old yes hahaha" said Ira made all his friends laugh.
"Am I confused as well? angry but funny too. Why should a high school girl the same age as her child? is there no other woman?"
"How serious? you know what mom already?" ask Anggi.
"Heumm, already. That's me not coming home, the house situation is really chaotic. They're fussing and I hate it."
"Where are you?, Ira hasn't finished talking Susan cut it off. "Udah Ra! it's a household issue, don't think about it. I also try to make myself feel like nothing happened."
"Really San?" added Dewi.
"Yes! okay, so now Ira's the story." Susan looked at him.
Ira looked at her three friends. His heart was pounding, he started to break out in cold sweat. In his mind he was worried between silence or actual speaking.
"Heummmhhhh,,,," let out a long sigh, "Gue won't tell, but will open up. So it'll be long, my true self, my original self."
"I don't feel good, listen to Ra! not everything has to be talked about. You think about this?" ask Anggi.
"Udah, I believe you guys are ko."
"Don't know what he's going to tell you?" ask Goddess.
"Oh yeah, I just don't feel good."
"I'm sorry that what you're hearing is not what you expected. I didn't expect that either, I always tried to cover up and clung to not tell anyone. But the longer the principles I hold the more fragile they become. Not to heal wounds, but to add to wounds. And honestly I'm tired of always pretending to be strong but actually there are a lot of complaints in me." said Ira seriously.
"Father Ra, tell me a story" Susan said convincingly.
The woman's body began to lethargy and her heart beat faster.
"Gue a prostitute*r....Not in a short time, but long enough. 4 years I served the role of a prostitute*r." said Ira immediately silenced the three friends.
About 2 minutes they were all frozen, "Feeling I'm not wrong, that's the thing I fear most from the many problems teenagers." said Anggi break the silence.
Ira just looked at them with a smile as well as they looked at Ira with a difficult look to explain. Unbelieving, shocked, sad, but their mouths were smiling.
Ira turned her eyes out the window. Seen some motorbikes and then passing through the alley in front of the boarding house.
The woman repeatedly let out a long sigh, she herself felt disbelief in having said that. But now it had already happened and he couldn't possibly retract his words. Inevitably he will tell everything, hoping to heal the wounds that he had been alone and in his little heart he prayed that they could be trusted.
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