Don't Want to Be Pathetic: NIGHT BUTTERFLIES
Section 67
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Behind his anger, again and again he remembered about himself. What if Ari finds out what he's doing? just like it seems, last night he was in contact with another man, who maybe even tonight or tomorrow night he will go back to sleep with another man.
Not only Ari, he was guilty, just did not die a trace so there was no quarrel between the two. If now he does not try to forgive the man he loves, what if he knows and does not forgive. It hurts more than anything.
The woman bowed down in tears, her tears flowing down her neck. Now the pain is no longer about the man she loves sleeping with another woman, but about her pain later when Ari finds out that she often sleeps with 2 men at different times. What words would he say? angry and sick what will he be? and can he strengthen himself?
The man bowed before him, "Sorry, sorry, sorry" he said, rubbing Ira's hair.
He looked at Ari, Plak! slap her cheek. "Damn it, asshole, demon, anji*ng lo," he said getting up and sitting on the sofa wiping away his tears.
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"Look! you can be angry, you can be rude, for now you can hate but don't leave and I don't want our relationship to end" he said, sitting next to Ira.
He was silent for a moment, "This heart is really sick, but you don't be selfish Ra. You have to be able to forgive him, what you currently feel will one day be felt by Ari, do not be selfish," he said in thought while staring at Ari who had been staring at Ira.
"We're going to end this" Ira said, making the man look at her seriously.
"meaning? I don't want you to leave and I don't want to leave you either"
"You know? I managed to make all men envious of you for getting me, but you made me jealous of the woman you still call" Ira said, slowly subsiding her emotions.
"I swear by anything, this is the first time I've met him. He called me crying"
"Because he called you crying, you keep picking him up? okay, why after her anterin you didn't go straight home? why did you come in and you finally had a relationship?"
"I was drunk, he was Rani but I swear when he hit me it felt like it was you"
"Naj*s, don't equate me with him. You're the one who doesn't think I'm Ri, as drunk as you are if you think about my feelings you can't possibly do me that. The point is whether you really don't love me or love me but it feels like it has faded," said Ira averted his eyes.
"Do you think that? because I made a mistake doesn't mean I don't love you, I'm not a good guy, maybe you should stay away from a guy like me, but I really love you"
"Remember what did I ever say? don't let me say: we're no longer attractive once we get it"
The man was silent for a moment, "I remember, but don't think like that" he replied as he ignited a roko.
"May I ask?" he looked into Ari's eyes.
He just nodded, in fact the man actually felt very guilty for the mistake he had made. However, his feelings could not be lied to that he did love the woman.
"Ri, is just being with me not enough for you?"
The lowered Ari immediately looked at him, "Again? what the hell is mom?"
The woman fell silent, she leaned back on the chair thinking how to solve this problem. One side he still loves and does not want to lose Ari even though the man has made a mistake, but on the other hand, he feels that maybe now is the right time to end his relationship and be alone so as not to hurt anyone when his identity is revealed.
"I'm sorry" Ari said in silence.
"You know? you hurt me asshole"
"I know, sorry. I've never been this humble to anyone, I want you," he said, staring at Ira but the woman moved from her seat as she looked from Thunder's window to Ari's house.
"I want to go home" he said coldly.
"Can I ask you not to go home? I'll drop you off later when our talks are over"
Ira was silent for a while, actually she hated and wanted so much to get away from the man. But their problem is not finished, if he comes home maybe he will not contact Ari and slowly move away and finally the man really went away from him.
He was sitting on the bed, Ari came out of the house to meet Thunder and did not know what the two of them were talking about. Perhaps he asked Thunder to leave, as it was seen from the corner of the man's window curtain deflecting his bike back.
Brug!
The woman lay down, her gaze straight up staring at the ceiling of the room which was white and a little dull.
"What is this problem? will one problem come now? I was even still thinking and feeling afraid that the old man would manage to contact or even he suddenly came to meet? shit!" Ira murmured about the man she left behind, it was impossible for the teacher not to try to get back to Ira after an accidental meeting last night.
Kreek the sound of the room door opening, Ari sitting next to him, he just stared without moving, "Heumhhhh," let out a long sigh and then closed his eyes.
"Mom?"
Ira opened her eyes and sat down, "Listen! I'm a woman who sometimes gets tough, and now that I'm trying to improve, don't do something that brings me back"
"Other times if you want to cheat it's choosy, you sure you want to bandingin' me with him? can't you pick a woman who's more than me? at least as level as it is," he said with a slightly insulting evil smile.
"The affair was done with the relationship running behind you, while I did not contact each other at all" Ari replied in defense of her.
"I said it or did you explain it?" his tanyanya made the man speechless feel astonished.
"What the hell do you mean, ma'am? you don't believe me?"
"Trust me, but do you think I don't know if you're at work and I don't call you, you always reply to all the messages or calls from those who try to tease you?"
"Did Thunder tell you?"
"Thunder is your friend, just like Teguh you will protect each other. Hmmm, my feeling is that it's all true, isn't it?" Ira smiled at him.
"They're just my toys," Ira cut out the talk, "Oww they're all your toys? on the sidelines of busyness you can contact them and even meet him. You tau? I was very kind to not reply to all messages or answer calls from those who tried to get close, because I realized that my man was a hard man, I don't want any quarrel between you and them. But ye? do you want to see me say rude things to all the women who tease you? ahh, I won't do that," he said making Ari sigh long.
"You know everything? why just shut up?"
"We're all grown up and I think you remember what you said, and you're tired of romance and want to have a serious relationship with me. Youforgetit? haha that's for sure!"
"Look! I was wrong and I admit all my mistakes, can we go back to being okay?"
"It's easy, isn't it? ahh, are you acting like this towards all your women? am I the only one who feels like being treated differently but actually getting the same treatment? maybe I should be in a relationship with Thunder compared to you"
"He's even more of a jerk than I am"
"But at least he didn't cover up the fuck!"
"Mom enough! it's hard for me to get you and I won't let you go"
"Agoist right?"
"Sorry! it's my wish and I won't let you go" he said, leaving Ira speechless.
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