TRAPPED IN FORBIDDEN DESIRES

81. Last Message

Dios was seen pacing back and forth waiting for the results of the operation that was underway at this time. My current feelings were mixed, between wanting to get angry, sad and jealous at Dios's overreaction. After waiting for almost 2 hours, the operating room was finally open as well.

"How is Sekar's condition?" ask Dios.

I don't know why I don't like Dios's kind of questions..He seemed to just focus on Sekar, without asking about my mother's situation.

"For corneal surgery his eye went well. But I'm sorry, Mr. Dios, Mrs Sekar breathed her last in the middle of surgery." Answer doctor.

Dios bowed sadly and sobbed. Honestly I was also very sad about the departure of Aunt Sekar, but somehow I was more sad when I saw the attitude of Dios.

"Then what about my mom doc?" I asked without caring about Dios.

"He's fine. You don't have to worry, the operation went a success." Answer doctor.

Again without asking for my approval. Dios takes care of aunt Sekar's funeral. But when he wanted to bring Aunt Sekar's body to a final rest, a doctor gave something to Dios.

"What's this?" ask Dios.

"This is the last message Mrs Sekar gave us, before we carried out the operation against her. He wants you to read that message in front of your whole family." Answer doctor.

Dios grabbed the brown map that the doctor had thrust out, and I hanua stared at Dios from a distance. Because the ambulance was waiting for him, Dios left the envelope to me, for fear of being scattered.

I received the envelope to the exclusion of my disappointment in Dios. Dios then went to take care of Aunt Sekar's funeral.

The time showed at 5pm, when Dios returned from the burial place. I saw the man's eyes a little puffy, I'm sure he was crying too much about the departure of Aunt Sekar there.

"I'm going home first, right?" said Dios.

"I'm coming," I said.

"You just go home, let papa take care of mom," said papa.

"Yes. Tomorrow I come back here with a change of clothes for papa," I said.

"Yes." Yeah." Answer papa.

Dios and I went home. There was no conversation on the way home. And I feel hurt because of that.

When he got home the first thing Dios did was to enter the bathroom to clean up. While I was contemplating while nursing Marta who had just woken up from her sleep.

After finishing the bath, Dios hurried to put on clothes and then lay on the bed without even talking to me. And in the end the man snored from exhaustion.

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The next day I left without telling Dios first. Even when I left, he was still with his eyes closed with a pretty loud snoring. I went with Marta, carrying a bag of papa's clothes and a bushel of food that I made myself with my hands.

"Later if you wake up and ask you, just answer me to go to the hospital," I said to leave a message to the waiter.

"Good mistress." Answer waiter.

As I suspected, Dios contacted me using a landline. Maybe that guy just woke up from his sleep and was looking for my unseen existence.

"Where are you?" ask Dios.

"In the hospital." Answer's short.

"Cok not wake me up? we can go together" asked Dios.

"no need. Looks like you're really tired from taking care of Aunt Sekar." My answer.

"You're angry again? the man had died, and he too died in a state of abandonment" asked Dios.

I smiled wryly at Dios' narrow mindset.

"What do you mean?" ask Dios.

"Dios. I think you overreacted to her kindness, until you forgot who you should remember. You don't even get to kiss your child, because you're too busy taking care of other people."

"That's the result because you never involved me in anything" I said.

"Well, you muters keep talking there? you don't like me so much to help a dying person?" ask Dios.

"I don't like it. But at least you know my position. Your attitude is like I'm the most evil woman. Your attitude seems to indicate that I am the cause of death of Aunt Sekar. Your attitude...."

"You're the only one who knows the answer" Dios interrupted me and then ended our conversation.

I was stunned to hear the answer from Dios. The man seemed to justify what I was saying and I was very hurt because of it. For a week me and my dad took turns waiting for my mom. Not once did Dios appear again in the hospital. He seemed busy taking care of his business which he had not satronized for a long time.

Even when Mama opened her eye bandage, Dios was not present. I don't know why I feel like a beggar to my own husband. Today, my mother was allowed to go home by the doctor.

"Mama's home? congratulations to his new eyes" said Dios.

Maybe for him his words are normal, but for me, this is very sensitive it is very offensive. He seemed to dislike mama got a corneal donor eye from Aunt Sekar.

"Because you've gathered, I think it's a good opportunity for us to open the last relic from Sekar. Because until now I had opened it. I deliberately waited until my mother came home first" said Dios.

Dios then took the brown envelope that I had handed to her a few days ago. It turns out that in the brown envelope it only contains several ATM cards, several keys, and also one disk that is currently being inserted into the DVD that has been connected to the television.

Aunty Sekar's voice began to sound, when Dios pressed the play button on the remote.

"When you see this video, it means I'm no longer in this world,"

There looks aunty Sekar still looks healthy and not thin dry as the last time. In the video, it also appears that Aunt Sekar is talking while enjoying a pea skin.

"This video was specially made for Dios. But I hope when you watch this, you're already united with Caren and your son Di?"

Dios' tears had already flowed down her cheeks when she heard Aunt Sekar's words. Not only Dios, my feelings became erratic as well when I heard Aunt Sekar's words. I feel like something has been missed.

"A. I showed you that special locker just like you, right? locker containing a safe. There are many certificates in it. Certificate of ownership of clubs, houses, some acres of rubber plantation, and also some land."

"In that also there are many jewels that I have collected into one. Later if you've met Caren, you give it all the same to her. For all the assets and certificates I've changed in your name. ATM pins are also your birthday."

"I wish you happiness. I love you so much Di.very,"

The video ends with a kiss of Aunt Sekar's hand on camera. While Dios' cries had already broken uncontrollably. Not only Dios, I also sobbed. I don't understand how to behave. I don't blame Aunt Sekar at all, which I blame on Dios' immature attitude.

Dios wiped her tears and climbed up without saying anything. I sat on the couch and was still confused by Dios' attitude towards me and my family lately.

"What do you think I should do? you've seen Dios' attitude towards us lately. Maybe he thinks I'm happy to hear Aunt Sekar's words on the video," I asked.

"Propsy. Do not easily provoke emotions. Dios was currently grieving, and it was very natural. Maybe he there is a little regret for the departure of Sekar who left a treasure for him. While the time before death, Dios even said not to take care of it at all," said papa.

"Yes Ren. You also need to understand how he feels right now. However, Sekar had lived with him. And now the source of your problems no longer exists. So why do you have to bring that up again?" say Mama.

I'm speechless. Although the words of mama and papa have a point, but somehow my conscience seems to refuse. And I have to talk to Dios a lot. But maybe the time is not right now, Dios seems to be very mourning for the departure of Sekar.

Kriekkk

I pressed the door handle, and saw Dios lying on the bed and hiding in the blanket. Am I wrong to say that this guy is too cute? sometimes I think, when I split with me he also behaved like this?

"I want to talk to you" I said.

"sorry. I'm not in the mood to talk right now. I beg your understanding" said Dios.

I was speechless, Dios's refusal slightly pinched the corner of my heart that was already trying to budge.