TRAPPED IN FORBIDDEN DESIRES

50. Returnees

"Honey. You back?" ask Sekar who immediately scattered Dios's insolence.

Sekar then kissed Dios' lips, but Dios did not return the kiss until Sekar released her.

"What's wrong? is something bothering you?" ask Sekar who is astonished.

"Dark. I want to have a serious conversation with you" said Dios.

Dios did not want to waste any more time.he sat down on the bed and and was followed by Sekar. Dios squeezed his fingers, to be honest he was very heavy saying that to Sekar. But he was determined to get everything done quickly. He did not want to be late, and let his son be born without a clear status.

"What's wrong?" ask Sekar.

"Dark. While in Bandung I met Caren again," said Dios who then stopped his words to see the expression on the woman's face.

As expected, the smile that had originally risen, suddenly disappeared on his lips.

"Dark. I can't let my son be born without a clear status. I'm...."

"Do you want us to get divorced?" ask Sekar who immediately cut Dios's words.

"Yes." Yeah." Answer Dios briefly.

"But I don't want to. I have no problem being combined, as long as you don't divorce me" Sekar said.

"But Caren doesn't want to be pitted. He doesn't want to share, especially I can't." Answer Dios.

"So you'll leave me alone again? are you willing to lose everything?" ask Sekar with tears.

"I'm sorry. Please don't cry for me. Don't make me feel guilty" Dios said, wiping away Sekar's tears.

"But I love you so much. I don't mind being pitted, why doesn't Caren give me a happy chance at my age?"

"Let me talk to Caren. I will make him understand" continued Sekar.

"The problem is that the status of our children will be questioned if we marry in series. We want our son to have a valid status."

"You can do that after I'm dead." Answer Sekar.

"What the hell are you talking about? why do you always talk about death? you must be cured, must be healthy?" ask Dios.

"I do not forbid you to unite with him, just wait until I die and you fulfill your duty as a husband." Answer Sekar.

"Dark. I'm sorry to you, maybe I've taken advantage of the situation, used you. Maybe in the future you can find another man who can take care of you until the end of life" said Dios.

Dios fell silent. Sekar's words reminded him when he asked for it from Caren. But still Caren left him, and they both live in regret. Dios did not want such circumstances to be repeated again, which would make him regret for wasting his loved ones and also his future children.

"Dark. Please understand my position. To be honest, I also find it difficult to make this decision. All this I did for my son" said Dios.

"I don't have a problem. Your son is also my son. We can raise it together. Anyway don't leave me. Please.hiks,"

Fledged on Dios's doldrums. Dios was confused. But he had already strengthened his resolve as hard as steel. Although he looks cruel, but he must do it for the sake of the child and his loved ones.

Dios kept Sekar away from her arms, and wiped the woman's tears.

"Dark. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I know I'm impressed like a jerk. But I really can't carry on with this marriage of ours. I'm sure you can be a good mother to my son, but what about Caren? you already know yourself? if the person I've loved all this time is her. Now that I have been given the chance to unite with him, I will not waste that opportunity" Dios said.

"Tomorrow I'll take care of our divorce papers. I'm not going to ask for a gono gini treasure or anything. I thank you so much, because you have helped me so much" said Dios.

The crying broke up. Dios, who was determined to leave the room. Without Dios knowing, Sekar was unconscious in bed.

*****

Three days later....

time showed at 11pm, I waited for Dios to arrive restlessly. I got more agitated, when Dios' cell phone number could not be reached at all.

"Dios. If you let me down this time, I will never come back to you again. I'd assume that you would prefer a precious woman, rather than me and our son. And I can assure you, that you will never see me again forever,"

Because the work today was quite tiring, I also involuntarily fell asleep. And I just woke up when the Adhan sounded reverberating. I glanced to the right and left, hoping that Dios would surprise me. All I get is disappointment. And the newsless state continued until a week later. I can only cry over my bad luck. I don't know what happened to him, because his cell phone number can't be reached at all. Even when I tried to contact Sekar, the woman's number was also equally inactive.

Because I was worried about Dios, I asked my boss for permission to go to Surabaya to confirm something. I use my heart one last time, so that the decisions I make will not be regretted.

I am currently on a plane. I want to get to Surabaya immediately so that everything is clear. After some time, I finally arrived at Juanda safely. I only carried the clothes of one small backpack, because I did not intend to stay in that city for long.

After arriving at the airport, I immediately ordered a taxi and asked to be delivered to my destination address. I arrived at 10 a.m., and I'm sure Dios must be home. When I arrived at the gate, the security guard I had written that day greeted me.

"Non Caren? how are you?"

"Good mang. Om Dios and Aunt Sekar are there?" my many.

"There was. Please enter Non. Madam must have been happy to see Miss coming here again,"

The security guard opened the gate for me. But my feelings are mixed right now. If Dios is home and all right, why didn't she see me? did he change his mind and not care about me anymore?

A servant opened the door and let me in. As the waiter was carelessly making me a drink, I quietly went upstairs to confirm something. But fateful for me, when I arrived at the door of a room, I heard melodious voices from that room. Sekar's voice was heard shrill even though I did not hear Dios's voice telling him, but I believe Sekar did that with Dios, especially Sekar shouted the man's name many times.