TRAPPED IN FORBIDDEN DESIRES

41.Shock

Sekar frowned when he saw Dios' reaction which he thought was a little excessive.

"What's wrong? why are you so surprised?" ask Sekar.

"Eh? n-no. Did he really say nothing to you?" ask Dios.

"No. Hah.remember him, I'm so not having a taste for eating." Answer Sekar while pushing the plate forward.

Dios swallowed her food even though it was hard. And for some reason his body felt weak, because of the shock of hearing Caren's departure.

"Carens. Twice, you've made me this way twice. Why do you have to come back and make my life fucked up. Now you're leaving just because I told you to leave? don't you understand that I'm just mad at you, "inner Dios.

"I wish I could carry my child after the child was born. I can feel like a mother too. I don't know, what exactly triggers him to suddenly leave," Sekar massaged his forehead.

"What-What son?" Dios Shock.

"When I promised to keep her pregnancy a secret." Answer Sekar.

"Ha-Pregnant?" dios asked with trembling lips.

"Yes. She's 5 months pregnant. Yes, even though she was pregnant from a mistake, even though it was her son from the results of her affair, but she loved the child very much. He said it was the fruit of his love with the man he loved so much. She was even willing to sacrifice her household, even though her ex-husband wanted to acknowledge the child as his son."

Dios' body stiffened as well as trembled. He remembered that night he had pushed Caren, until the woman's body hit the table. He didn't even care about Caren grimacing in pain, because he thought Caren was just pretending.

"The day he found out that it was the result of his affair, he immediately rushed to meet his lover. She was very happy, and very excited to meet her lover and tell him they were going to have a child."

"But Caren was very disappointed, when he arrived there his lover's house was sold to someone else. But Caren doesn't blame her lover for leaving her, because she realizes she's the one who told her to forget her. Although in reality, she suffered greatly while away from her lover,"

"Did you know? for the sake of maintaining the child, even he was expelled from the house and not recognized by his parents. Even when I met him on the train, he was crying bitterly because he didn't know where to go."

"Where is he now. I don't know what will happen to him, when he has to take care of the boy alone without any experience."

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Dios' tears poked as hard as a waterfall from a height. Wanting it to feel as loud as possible, wanting it to feel like he hollowed his own head out of regretting all his stupidity.

"What have I done? I-I almost killed my own son. I even hurt the woman I love so much. Now how should I? where should I look for him?"

"Honey. You why? why are you crying? you're moved to hear Caren's life story, aren't you?" ask Sekar.

"Eh? huh.iya." Dios hurried to wipe away her tears.

"You anyway. There's her turn You're very fierce with her. Don't-Don't he leave because he is afraid of you," Sekar said chuckling.

"You are right Sekar. He's gone because of me. Because of my selfishness. I ruined her life, I hurt her, I insulted her. Oh my god, I feel like I'm not human anymore,"

"You sick? we're going to the hospital, right?"

"No need. I'm just gonna go to bed. Maybe this is the effect of staying up late," said Dios.

"Yes, take a break. Then I will make you meat soup for lunch" said Sekar.

"Emm." Dios nodded.

Dios then climbed the stairs and went to her room. His mood was really bad at the moment. Even when he arrived at Dios' room, he cried again. He really regretted what he had done.

"Your bastard Dios. You're the one who got him stuck in a difficult situation. You even push her when she wants to hug you for missing you. Caren..please return, dear.return.hiks," Dios' body slumped on the door leaf.

Dios really regretted wasting the opportunity to be with Caren.

"Where should I look for him now? letter yeah...Sekar said he left the letter, who knows there's a clue in the letter, right?"

Dios immediately got up and looked for the whereabouts of the letter from Caren. And finally he found the letter in the closet drawer. Dios read the letter Caren wrote to Sekar. Dios' tears returned after reading the letter.

"Basic fool. You pray for me to be happy with Sekar. You don't know what kind of marriage we had. Sekar only wants someone to take care of him, while for matters of the heart he can not fill the emptiness that I feel so far,"

"You said this town doesn't suit you, it means you're not in this town anymore. Where am I supposed to find you?"

Dios lay on the bed. Dios closed her eyes and recalled the good times with Caren. Her last moments were cuddling with Caren. Without Caren knowing, she enjoyed the hug that night. Without Caren knowing, she misses her, and without Caren knowing she cries sobbing as Caren leaves the room.

"Why does one of us always end up with regret. How foolish I was to waste the chance of meeting God gave me. I have suffered so much from being away from him all this time. But why should you listen to my angry words? why don't you just be patient for a minute. Why hiks ...."

Dios again sobbed with a trembling body. The man even wrapped himself in a thick blanket, until he fell asleep.

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Sekar pushed open the door and found Dios wrapped herself in a blanket. The time has shown at almost 1 pm. Sekar wanted to wake Dios up to take her to lunch.

"Honey. Wake up! let's have lunch together" said Sekar.

But there was no movement from Dios. Sekar was forced to remove the blanket that covered Dios' body. Sekar was very surprised, when he found Dios' body shaking. He stared at Dios' forehead which turned out to be experiencing a high fever.

He rushed Dios to the hospital. She didn't want anything to happen with her husband.

"How's my husband doing, Doc?" ask Sekar.

"His temperature is quite high. Mr. Dios needs to be unlocked, so that his health will improve quickly." Answer doctor.

"Do your best. I want my husband to heal quickly" said Sekar.

Sekar stared at Dios' slightly pale face. She was very worried about her husband.