TRAPPED IN FORBIDDEN DESIRES

49. Marry me

Dios stepped towards me, and stopped right in front of me. She wanted to hug me, but I held her with my hands.

"I don't know what you mean by behaving like this. But I want to ask you one thing about what happened a week ago, and the flowers I received this past week," I asked with a fixed look in his eyes.

"Why? aren't you also not a problem with that? I want to see my son anyway." Answer Dios origin.

"What child are you talking about. Besides you can't do anything. Is it because you think I'm a cheap woman, a silly woman, not a good woman, so you just want to touch me?"

"Don't because I love you, you can do me the same. You're a married man. Live happily with Sekar, don't mind me anymore. Aren't you the one who asked me to go as far as possible? didn't you ask me to die? so why did you do that to me?"

Being too emotional, I shed my tears. It felt too crowded, because all this time I always kept a lot of uneg-uneg and sadness.

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Dios suddenly hugged me tightly. The man was crying too.

"I'm sorry that my mouth hurt your heart. All the suffering you have endured, is actually the result of my actions, and my lust. Honey, I love you so much even though I'm married to Sekar."

I immediately pushed down Dios' chest, as I could not accept her words as if she was playing a woman.

"Don't expect you to marry someone older than you, you become self-informed. Sit down what you get now, it's not purely from your hard work. You made the decision to marry her, so you have to learn to love her,"

"But I can't, even though I've tried it. No day without me thinking about you, my mouth says hate but in reality I've been hypocritical. I just love you Caren, I just love you,"

I know his words are sincerity. I knew in her eyes that it was a lot of love for me. But now the situation is different. She is no longer mine, and I cannot live happily on the suffering of another woman. Sekar once told me that their relationship is not like a married couple in general, but I can see the twinkle of love in the eyes of a woman in her decades with me.

"Then what do you want now? do you want us to repeat the same mistakes as before? you want me to be an actor in your household?" I asked who made Dios speechless.

"Try you tell me how you want it? Just a good man, don't hurt him. I don't want us to have another forbidden relationship like we used to. I want to live my life right this time,"

"But you also have to think about our child?"

"It is precisely because I think of our son that I want to be righteous. What do you want anyway? you want to marry me? didn't you?" ask me with fire.

Dios was silent again. I saw the man in a dilemma and rubbed his face many times.

"I've chalked you up to him. I've explained what's happened in my life. Let me be happy both with my son, and brother live happily alone with him. We just live each of our lives. I'm tired, brother,"

"I will find a solution" said Dios.

"There are only two good solutions, brother,"

"What?" ask Dios.

"First. Let us live each other's lives and not interfere with each other. One day I'll find a man who can accept my son and me with sincerity,"

I saw Dios shaking her head in a sign of unwillingness.

Dios sculpting. The two choices I gave her were nothing good for her. But honestly I really want him to be firm. I will test how much he loves me. But when I saw the worry on his face, I could only smile cynically because I already knew the answer.

"I already know the answer, brother. Please leave here, and never appear before me again" I hurried away leaving with tears.

"Darling wait!" Dios blocked my hand.

My steps stopped, but my face did not look at him. I was too busy wiping away my tears that I could no longer control.

"Please give me some time to finish everything. Please don't think things through. I'll try to talk to Sekar" Dios said.

"No brother. If you look at her kindness, she'll definitely have her brother divorce her and marry me" I said.

"And I don't want that to happen. She needs you so much, she has a pretty serious illness. So inevitably I'm the one who has to retreat here" I said.

"It's not. You should think about our children too. Do you want our son to be born without a father?"

"Well, what difference would it make if we married in series? it's the same, brother. Please you have to understand my position." My answer is no less fierce.

"Well, in essence I don't want to be combined. I don't want to share a husband. It doesn't matter to me not to marry you, the important thing is I don't want to be stamped as an actor,"

"Please patience. Tomorrow I will return to Surabaya. I'll find the middle ground. Here I'm opening a business while looking for you. I was so grateful to meet Vika, and she told me about your meeting with her. Caren, I'm really sorry for all my behavior towards you all along. Because of me you have to suffer a fate like this,"

"Already brother. I've cleared everything. I.hemmmppht"

Dios suddenly kissed my lips and grabs them gently. I tried to encourage Dios, but she deepened her kiss.

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The kiss is released after the oxygen supply has thinned.

"So don't be like this, I feel guilty with Sekar," I said softly. I know my body is more honest than my mouth.

"I miss you so much, love you. Please patience. It doesn't matter if you want to be selfish, because you want to give the best for our children. So will I, I won't let you and our son be abandoned."

"If I had to give up everything to live with you, I would. Caren, if that happens. Will you live from zero with me?" ask Dios.

I looked into Dios's eyes, the question I thought was very touching. Finally the words I wanted to hear from his mouth were spoken as well. I may sound selfish, but can't love be forced?

I hugged Dios while nodding. Dios again fondled me, but I firmly rejected her. I knew the end of the fondle would end up on the bed. Just once I fail, I will make me more valuable and will wait for him to solve the problems between us first.

Dios finally came home. And he promised to come back in three days to bring the results of his discussion with Sekar. And I really hope that Dios will return to me, bringing complete love only for me and leaving all her luxuries behind.