TRAPPED IN FORBIDDEN DESIRES

34. Impasse

"Because of expulsion?" delano asked after opening the car glass door.

I swear by anything, I just found out that Delano has a personal side that sucks like this. I could have been fooled and lulled by the tenderness he gave all this time. He is now like a fox animal in my opinion, and I hate him so much right now.

Bukkkkkkkk

Delano threw 5 mops of money, which I estimated at 50 million rupiahs. I stared hard at him, he insulted me so much.

"Don't I guess I won't compensate for our divorce. If you give the house maybe you will not want, because that's the result of selling the hole of feces as you say. But it's halal money, you can enjoy it and for the cost of giving birth to your child" Delano said.

"Carens. Even though you hurt me by cheating behind my back, even though you have opened my disgrace, but I try not to hold a grudge against you. However we have been together for a long time, sleeping in the same bed, but I try not to hold a grudge, and share the same sweat."

"Although I am also aware, I am also guilty of you. Use you to cover up my disgrace. Again I'm sorry for that."

"Have you finished talking? when you're done, you better get out of here and take your money. You've ruined Delano's life, so don't expect me to forgive you so easily" I thrust Delano's money after picking him off the asphalt road.

But Delano pushed the money towards me. He was not angry with me, and smiled.

"Don't think about yourself, but you think about the child you're carrying. He needs nutritional intake, and I know you don't have any money right now" Delano said.

Delano's right. I am poor now. Right now I have no money and no idea where to go. Because I don't work, I don't have any savings. And now Delano is giving away 50 million in cash. I think I've got a responsibility, I'll squeeze him.

"Didn't it work, you think I'm stupid and don't understand the outside world? you certainly know, it is not like this division of gono gini treasure. You only gave me 50 million dollars, it hurt my self-esteem so much that you've been using it all this time. Do you think my virginity price is that cheap?" I asked with no idea of the embarrassment.

I saw Delano take a deep breath.

"Later I'll transfer another 50 million to your account. I hope you can live well after we part. Because even though I don't like women, but I love you Caren," Delano said.

I was silent to Delano's words. I admit that even though Delano was wrong, but he was never rude to me. He always obeyed whatever I asked. It's just that maybe at this time I can still accept the reality, if now I have the status of a widow.

"thank you. May you be happy with your life choices" I said.

"Then what's your plan? emm...I mean where are you going? if there is no place to live, stay in our home. The house will be rarely awaited, because I have a private apartment" said Delano.

Now I know why Delano is so comfortable living in an apartment. Because it was his private apartment.

"No thank you. However we have separated. I can't go back to that house anymore" I told Delano I didn't want to stay.

"alright. Take good care of yourself then. Don't forget the M-banking check. Later 50 million money will be transferred after coming home," said Delano.

"Yes." Yeah."

Delano left in his luxury car. Now between me and Delano there's nothing left. He and I are now the past, which you could say is the dark past.

I dragged my suitcase back along the way I thought, where do I go. Not far from where I was walking, I saw an orange ice salesman and I sat there to quench my thirst.

While drinking iced oranges, I was thinking. It seems like I have to leave this city, so that I can forget all the bitter memories in my life. I was kind of desperate, because Dios could no longer be contacted.

But what I have to regret again. It's all my fault that I got it first. And after a long time of thinking, I decided to go to the train station. I don't know why one city became the destination this time. I want to travel to the city of Surabaya, a city that I have never explored at all.

After a long wait, I finally set off on the night train. For some reason, as soon as the train started to speed, my tears shot out profusely. I sobbed with my mouth shut, so that other passengers did not know that I was crying right now.

"Why deck?" ask a blonde haired woman.

"It's okay aunt. I'm just sad, 'cause I just wandered for the first time." Reply potluck.

"It must be desperate if you want to succeed. Are you pregnant?" ask the aunt.

It turns out my pregnancy was already prominent, buktiknya even though I was wearing a little loose clothes, it turns out my stomach still looks distended.

"Yes aunty." My answer.

"That's weird. Are you alone in pregnancy? where's husband?" ask the aunt.

"We're divorced." My answer.

"Then how do you take care of your child later, when you go to work?" ask the aunt.

"I don't know aunt. Frankly, I'm confused as to where I'm going." My tears are back.

I don't know why I told you all about my problems, with nothing to cover. Higga I also told my own disgrace. But the effect was so amazing, I really felt relieved afterwards.

"How is it? actually, I was looking for a waitress in one of my businesses. Frankly, I'm not as good a person as you think I am. But seeing you who is pregnant, you will definitely have trouble working. Because this job is unpredictable,"

"What do you mean, auntie?" manya curious.

Frankly, I was happy when I heard he was a businessman.

"I see you can potentially be a prima donna in my business. You are very beautiful and your body is also good. But yes it is, because you are pregnant of course you can not,"

"What kind of business does aunt have?" ask me who is more curious.

"Night club. I just got married, I had no children before. Now I'm married again. I'm almost 5-headed now. I also have no relatives, you could say I live a kara."

"really? I think aunty is still about 35 years old," said I who do not believe because the woman still looks young and beautiful.

"Thank you for the compliment." Answer aunt Sekar who I already know his name after he mentioned his own name.

"Aunty can I work at your place? I don't care if I just work as a drink handler. At least I've got a job for a while,"

"How is it? I'm afraid this is too risky for your pregnancy. But I'll discuss it with my husband, okay?"

"Emm." I'm nodding.

"Then you come with me. Near my nightclub there are many cheap contracts," said aunt Sekar.

"really?" my many.

"Yes. My private house is also not far from there, so I can monitor your situation later," said Aunt Sekar.

"Auntie thank you very much in advance. Maybe our meeting this time is fate. Right now I'm just following the flowing water, the rest I'm dealing with the almighty."

"Don't give up, you're still very young. Still can work for the future," said Auntie Sekar.

After much talking, we did not feel we were asleep. Accompanied by the sound of the train engine as our sleep-conducting song.