TRAPPED IN FORBIDDEN DESIRES

78. Great Quarrel

"Why are you talking so recklessly anyway?" ask Dios.

"Say me talk carelessly, then what about you? do you make decisions without asking my opinion? you don't think I'm your wife, do you?" I was really emotional.

"You know for yourself he's dying. Why don't we try to accompany him in his last moments" Dios said.

"Sorry Dios. It may sound like I am cruel or cruel. But I'm sorry, I don't think that's your duty or mine at all. You are just an ex-husband, now you have a family that must also be considered. But if you think he's more important, go ahead. My intention is to come here only to celebrate and vacation, not to stay here and watch your affection" I said.

"God...are you jealous of dying people? you don't make sense know that?" ask Dios.

"I? doesn't make sense? you're the one that doesn't make sense. Huh.had it, there seems to be no way out for this problem. You don't need my permission, do you?"

"No yank.oke I'm sorry if I failed you, because I made a unilateral decision. But you think he lives alone. I have no children, husband and relatives. Then who wants to take care of him?" ask Dios.

"But your status is already someone else sis. She's a rich lady. There's no shortage of money to hire a nurse until she dies. You want us to stay here for 2 months, and your parents and business are there anyway? why do you think it's so short?" I have an acute emotion.

"You're the one who thinks short yank. Papa's pretty healthy, he can take care of mama. There's a waiter at home, too."

"Ngapain I asked someone else to take care of my parents while I was there. Why also I take care of others, even though the parents I need to take care of are also there. You crazy, huh?"

"Whatever you are!" Dios wanted to leave, but my words stopped her steps.

"I want to go to Yogya tomorrow. It's up to you if you choose to stay here. But Dios, if you keep choosing here, then our relationship is over here!"

Dios turned her body and approached me. I also stared at him no less sharply. I don't want Dios to oppress me again like she did.

"Now I don't know my good-natured Caren anymore. The one in front of me is a selfish woman who wants to win by herself" Dios said.

I chuckled when I heard Dios's silly words. This laugh mixed with my tears that began to spread.

"I feel like your words want to say, if you've been wrong to love a woman, wrong to choose a wife. So Dios, do you regret marrying me? then just divorce me, and come back with Sekar. You can not only accompany him for 2 months, even to the burrow you can come inside,"

"Enough!"

For the first time Dios yelled at me. My tears are getting bigger. Even I could see no regrets in his eyes after he did that.

I turned around immediately. I looked at the clock on my wrist, and the time showed at 3 p.m. I immediately carried Marta and dragged one suitcase in my hand.

"What are you doing? where are you going?" ask Dios.

"I want to go home. You stay here, don't care about me and Marta" I said with tears.

Dios pulled my suitcase rough, and I held it as I could.

"Can't you think a little grown-up? don't be a little fuzzy. Little-little stop. Habits know?"

"I am also because of you. All because of you. You say I'm not an adult? you're the old one but the childish one."

My breath went up and down, probably because my voice was too loud, Marta was shocked and cried.

"Please understand this once. He really needs me right now" Dios said.

"Yes. Since I understand, then I will release you completely for him. Sorry, consider me an evil man on earth. Because only Sekar needs you, while we can still live without you." Answer me firmly.

"Why so talk carelessly keep yank. We are not easy to get to this stage.You even want to say separate. You don't love me anymore?" dios asked who made me smile cynically.

"That question seems more suitable to you. I feel like you are still heavy with the past. You quickly marry Sekar again gih, so that if he dies you can get his inheritance."

Dios' face flushed with anger. His hands clenched tightly. But I will not back down at all. Wherever he wants to argue with me, I'm going to fight him. I also do not care anymore how the fate of my household in the end.

"Just know? niesel? that's why I'm just gonna go home." My answer.

"Go home, go home, just go home in your mind. Whatever!"

Dios came out of the room, and slammed the door very hard.

Brakkkkkk

Maybe Dios thinks I'm gonna budge and stay put. But Dios was so wrong, maybe he was right that I wasn't grown up. So all of you, I can say that. I got out of that house and went back to the airport. Do not ask how my tears, maybe if held a bucket has spilled.

When I arrived at the airport, I booked a ticket. But I was quite upset, because my plane was flying at 5 p.m. While the current clock on my wrist only shows at 4 pm. My phone turned off on purpose, I don't want Dios to affect my current resolve.

After waiting for quite a while, my plane finally left as well. Along the way my tears would not stop flowing, lucky Marta did not cry. My son is so understanding right now.

After a long journey, I finally arrived at the airport. Not wanting to waste any time, I immediately ordered a taxi and went home.

"Caren's? you guys aren't going?" I asked him when he opened the door for me.

"So, but go home again." Reply potluck.

"Cock coming home again? Where's dios?" ask Papa.

"Live there." I answered while sitting in the guest room.

Papa looked at me, maybe he knew my eyes were swollen from crying.

"You guys got into a fight?" ask Papa.

"Pa. I need papa's opinion on this. Whatever your opinion I will follow," I said.

"What's wrong?" ask Papa.

I also told him about his sitting. Papa was quite surprised to hear the fact that I never told him, that Dios never married again in addition to his first wife. I told him everything in detail matter after matter that was present between me and Dios, until we were reunited.

I heard papa sighing heavily. I know that anyone confused should behave how.

"Carens. You should first talk about this problem with a cold head," said Papa.

"It could be that he still remembers the way home. What if he'd rather take care of that woman than his wife's child?" my many.

Papa was silent again. He was so confused as to what solution to my household.

"Frankly papa so follow confused. Papa knew Dios's intentions well, but he forgot there were still wives and children who needed his role more. Caren, just like this. Talk to him just once. If there is no way out, the final decision is still you decide,"

"Right now you have to get rid of your jealousy. Your phone needs to be active. Don't make your husband panic, for not knowing where you are."

"Yes." Yeah." Answer's short.

I then told papa to rest. I feel really tired today. For papa's advice on my phone, of course I didn't agree to it right away. I want him to feel what I feel right now. That's if he still remembers, or realizes that his wife's child has gone somewhere.

*****

I scrunched my forehead, as I felt a hand curling around my body. I also felt a breath on my back. I immediately opened my eyes, for I was afraid it was just a dream. I made sure the owner of the heavy hand was, and I immediately turned around because I thought it was impossible for Dios' hand.

I was quite surprised because it was really him. I looked at the clock on the wall of the room, the time has shown at 8 am. Now my mind wondered. When did he come home?

I heard Dios snoring. It seems like he's really tired. And then I thought, what about now there? I got out of bed and washed my face. I rushed downstairs, to see the breakfast preparations made by the waiter. But when I was in the kitchen, I let myself hear my mother talking to people whose voices I knew so well. I also peeked out the side window of the house. And how surprised I was, when I found out my mom was chatting with aunt Sekar who was sitting leaning on a wheelchair.