TRAPPED IN FORBIDDEN DESIRES

18. Suppose that

"He avoided me again. Strange, why don't I feel sad again when Vika doesn't come home. On the contrary, I felt lost when Caren walked away from me. Dios, don't bring anyone else into your already weird relationship. Poor Caren," Inner Dios.

Dios peeking at Caren. In case the neighbor gets out of the house. But it's been two days that Caren hasn't left the house and she feels like she's lost the woman.

"huffftt bored at home continues. Did I go to your mom's house?"

I started to close the magazine books I read. I went back and forth to read the magazine until it was over. Then I switched to a cell phone, watching all kinds of videos on YT social media. But somehow my mind was always on the neighbor I wanted to avoid.

"Delano, what are you really busy with? we haven't communicated for a week. What during the break time does not have time to chat too? I don't need abundant material, if our relationship is getting further and further away" said Caren.

"I'd better refresh it to the mall,"

I then rushed to change my clothes in a slightly neat outfit. I also carry a handbag as a complement to my appearance.

"Caren wait!"

Hah I guessed. This man must have been deliberately waiting for me to get out of the house. Does he know? right now and forever I don't want to see him again.

"What's up, brother?" I asked while putting on an unusually flat face.

"Where are you going?" ask Dios.

"You're going to the mall."

"You want to walk with me?" ask again.

"No need brother. I want to walk alone. It's not worth it if we look our way together." My answer.

I saw Dios take a long breath. I also saw him put on a sad face. What was?

"Didn't you miss me at all?" ask Dios.

What kind of crazy question is this? what does he want anyway?

I'm sitting on the terrace seat. He sits in another chair. I want to clarify his words and also I want to know, what he thinks of me as.

"What does my sister actually want? sometimes I feel like my sister is harboring unnatural feelings for me. Sometimes I feel like my sister doesn't think of me. I feel like brother only makes me medicine when you're lonely."

"Sister please huh? I've realized that our behavior the other day was very unjustified. So please help me be a good wife again like I used to be. I've realized all my mistakes over the years" continued Caren.

"Caren seems to be in love with you."

Dios' answer was like a flash of lightning to me. On the other hand I had already realized my mistake with Delano, but on the other hand I was happy when I heard his unexpected confession. What's wrong with me?

I swallowed my saliva, to neutralize the pounding in my heart.

"Don't you ever think? our feelings are equally present when we both feel lonely?"

"Sorry brother. If you say, I should cut it first. I just want to get straight. This means how does it feel? can't brother also think of it as a form of loss for both of us?"

Dios fell silent. He realized it was too crazy to express feelings to the wife of such a person. But he was sure that his feelings were not wrong.

"What do you feel when you're away from me?" ask Dios.

"Again nonsense" I said

"I'm really-sugguh. Because when I'm away from you I always remember you, miss you, and...."

"Sister," again I cut off his words. I want him to know the limits when talking.

"I beg you that we should both stop. Let's both be at zero again, like when we first met," I said.

"I dare to express my feelings because there is a strong reason" said Dios.

"What reason?" my many.

"I can't say it. Because someday you'll know for yourself." Answer Dios.

"If you don't want to say it, then there's no way your feelings will be reciprocated." My answer.

"What if I told you that Delano's been cheating on you this whole time?" ask Dios.

Dios' words made me angry for a moment. Although Delano has been paying less attention to me lately, but I'm sure my husband is unlikely to cheat. I also got up from sitting down with emotion.

"Don't just want to smooth the wishes of my brother, brother so as to slander my husband. Should have before revealing your feelings to me, brother also glanced at himself. Does your brother deserve me?"

I realized I insulted him. Until the handsome man's face suddenly sad for a moment. But because I was sorry, I finally decided to go from there to continue my plan to go to the mall.

But all the way to that place, my mind became uneasy. I don't know why my guilt is bigger than my anger. Arriving at the mall, suddenly my mood became damaged. But I still went to look around, because I hoped my mood would return.

I decided to go to one of the restaurants in the mall. I ordered my favorite avocado juice, and a heavy meal to cover my evening.

Deg

I accidentally saw Delano sitting on only three tables from me. I cannot go wrong with my husband. Didn't he say he was going out of town? but why is he here? a city with me?.

I don't want to think negatively. Maybe Delano just came from out of town and immediately there is an office job. Because right now I'm seeing Delano with two grown men, and one pulmonary woman.

I smile from the ignorance. So seriously my husband makes a living for me. But by not knowing himself I even play hoarse behind him. Finally, convinced Delano would be home tonight, I decided to go to one of the clothing stores that sold various kinds of lingerie. I want to surprise her tonight. Because I honestly wanted that touch.

After what I was looking for, I rushed home. I want to cook good food to welcome my beloved husband home.

Time has shown at 9 p.m. Right now I am wearing the red lingerie I bought during the walk. The red Iipstik has been attached to my tiny lips. But the person I was waiting for didn't come either. Until I waited until 12pm, Delano didn't come either.

Three days since the last time I met Delanopun have passed. Now I'm not waiting for him like 3 nights ago. But my heart always wonders. What happened to Delano? why is his phone number still not available? and suddenly I remembered Dios' words about Delano's affair. I also knocked on the door of my neighbor's house even though time had shown at 11 pm.