TRAPPED IN FORBIDDEN DESIRES

33. Overturned

Delano looked at papa's face, with a flat look. While my papa looked at him with a condescending look. Delano frowned, while I swallowed my own saliva for fear that Delano would reveal my secret quickly. I will tell my family, but not the day of my divorce. With me just getting divorced, getting them hurt. Especially until they find out, if I am currently pregnant with a child the result of an affair.

I don't think they'll just get hurt, they'll be embarrassed too.

"Pa. Let's go home,"

I'm trying to make papa not talk to Delano. I was afraid that papa would say something no-no, and then make Delano angry which would cause the man to embarrass my family.

But of course my efforts are not as easy as I think. It seems like Delano can read my thoughts at the moment.

"Let papa want to talk to me" Delano said.

"You've lost the right to call me papa since a few minutes ago. We are now strangers, especially I would not be called papa by a dirty man like you," hardik papa.

Delano seemed to be offended, as papa said it was a dirty man. It could be seen from the lightning of his reddened eyes. Delano then turned his eyes to me, but again I threw my face in another direction.

"What do you mean you say I'm a dirty man?" delano asked with great emphasis.

"So I have to say what human you are? holy ones? which holy man, who has a deviant orientation?" ask papa.

Delano turned to me again, but this time I was down. It seems I realized, that my history will also end this time. I glanced at Delano, and I saw the man grinning. A very horrible grin in my opinion. Now that I realize, I don't know this side of Delano at all.

"Then. Do you know what your daughter is?" ask Delano.

"What do you mean?" ask papa back.

"I admit that my sexual orientation is distorted, but at least I'm not having an affair with a woman." Reply Delano.

"Just the same. Cheating with women or men. Even better you are having an affair with a woman alone, than you are exposed to a sexually transmitted disease because of your habits, so you can infect your children and wife," said Papa.

"Oh yeah? does that mean you support your innocent-looking daughter's behavior?" ask Delano.

This time I saw the man who was frowning his forehead. Don't ask my heart right now, it's like I'm about to jump out of orbit. I'm really very worried.

"What do you mean?" ask papa.

"Carens. You will explain, or I will explain. You open my disgrace, of course I will not let your disgrace just like that. I want us to break even."

I'm speechless. My lips are cuddled to make a sound.

"It seems your daughter is afraid to tell the truth. Unlike me who proudly admits, while your daughter is busy hiding looking for her own justification," Delano said.

"Don't beat around. What do you mean exactly?" ask Papa.

"It's not just me who makes mistakes. But secretly your daughter cheated on me, too, to conceive a baby from another man." Reply Delano.

Jderrrrr

Delano's statement was like a lightning bolt to Papa. I could see Papa's face turning red, until he raised his hand towards Delano.

Tap

Delano fended off papa's hand, and put him away slowly.

"Before slapping me, you ask the truth to your daughter" Delano said.

"Hina or not, it's none of your business. You should take care of your daughter who has also committed adultery with other men. Didn't you teach him well? then according to the previous teachings, your daughter should be whipped only," said Delano who was no less fiery.

Papa looked at me, I was downcast and sobbing. And at that moment my father dragged me home. I imagined what would happen in the future. While before I went away, I had time to look at the man who had ruined my life. I saw him smiling with satisfaction, maybe he was satisfied because we were both destroyed.

Brakkkkkk

Papa closed the door of the house violently. He dragged me until I sat on the couch. I could see the faces of my mother and grandmother no less panicked, because they knew how to educate their children with hard and discipline. Moreover, he always emphasized to me, so that I never forget God no matter what my circumstances.

"Say! is what Delano said true?" ask me emotionally.

I'm speechless. I just answered with a sobbing.

"Java!" papa yelled at me so hard that I reflexively rubbed my stomach.

"But this is not entirely Caren pa's fault. Ano who gives tingling...."

Plaaakkkkkk

I haven't been able to continue my words, papa's palm is already lodged in my cheek. It was very painful and hot.

"Brazed kid! you embarrassed me by containing the seed of another man, while you were still the wife of another man. Can you still dare to make excuses, and seek your own justification?"

"Whatever your circumstances, your reasons, there is no justification for cheating. Listen no?" papa's hardik made me sob even more.

Mom and Grandma were sobbing. The grandmother who used to defend me when scolded, now just fell silent and shed tears.

"Now where is the man who impregnated you?" ask the father who I answer with a headband.

"You may give up your honor for such a man. Where is your brain, huh?" hardik papa's.

"It's not my fault, Pa. I asked him to forget me. I didn't know it was his son, and he was gone when I realized it." I answered while sobbing.

"Go! I'd better not have any children at all. I feel like I'd die if I lived to be ashamed like this,"

"Pa. Sorry Caren pa..hiks..don't drive Caren,"

I knelt down and grabbed papa's leg. Papa then shifted his legs, as if he didn't want me to touch.

"Go away far away. Don't ever come back" said Papa.

"Pa. Never mind, pity Caren she's pregnant right now. It's happened anyway" my mom tried to defend me.

"Don't defend him anymore. She's the one who left, or I'm the one who left this house" hard.

"Marta. Caren's...."

"No ma. Mama's been defending him all this time. This time no one can defend him. He dared to act, so he had to dare to take risks," papa even cut off the words of the grandmother who wanted to defend me.

"Hurry and pack your things! one more thing, no one can give him a dime. I don't care if he dies though,"

Papa's words were so harsh and hurt me. But I can understand, I was wrong and had humiliated him. I no longer beg you to stay. I immediately entered the room and packed my clothes. When I finished I dragged the suitcase and stepped away with tears in my eyes. I can see the helplessness of my mom and grandma, but that's okay. I don't want to get those two parents affected because of what I did.

For the last time I looked back. I don't know when I can go back to that house. For sure at this time I have to save the child I bear, by finding a job as I can. As I was dragging my suitcase, Delano's car suddenly walked beside me. The man smiled sinisterly at me, as if satisfied with what I was currently experiencing.