First Love of Ustadz

Chapter 84 The process to be passed

Mirna felt her heart ache, but it did not make her tears. His chest was tight and very painful, it felt like crying but his tears did not come out at all.

Mirna sat in front of the mirror and stared at her reflection. He stared and watched her for a long time, not knowing what she was thinking until he finally let out a long and heavy sigh.

"Hufft... am I hurt by their words? Why am I hurt because of them? I've never felt this way. Then why don't I just fight them? What the hell, they used to think of me, now they talk about me. Mothers of bounty. But strangely why my heart ached so much to hear their words, it felt so anxious to cry, but why didn't my tears come out?" Mirna questioned herself in front of the mirror by looking at her reflection in front of the mirror.

Mirna was still unaware of what she was feeling herself. His heart responded to every word he heard, and therefore he felt heartache and sorrow, but his stubbornness made his heart hard, hard, so that the words of the neighbors who sneered and blasphemed him that night and the words of the mothers in the vegetable stall Bu Dian earlier could not make his tears melt.

His stubbornness still justifies his actions that others think are not right.

"Huffft..," Mirna let out a long sigh before she finally walked out of her room.

Mirna headed towards the kitchen as a sound came from the direction of the kitchen. He forgot something, the groceries he had just left on the kitchen table.

"Nit, is this the groceries?" asked Mirna while sitting on the chair that was in the kitchen.

"Yes Ma'am. It's just that which has not been cut," Anita replied while washing the vegetables she had cut earlier.

Mirna took a knife and peeled and cut the vegetables. Anita looked astonished and confused at Mirna who was now back like this morning, just like before they went shopping.

Anita asks Mirna about herself, about her change of attitude and about her feelings, but she is afraid that Mirna is back nagging her as usual. Finally Anita did not ask him, he just kept his own questions and he continued his cooking activities.

"Assalamu'alaikum..," Mr. Ratmo hastily entered the house.

"Wa'alaikumussalam..," Anita and Mirna answered Mr. Ratmo's greeting.

"Kok tumben Pak came home at this hour, what's wrong?" asked Anita astonished at her Father whose face seemed to be emotional.

"Mirna, here you are?" Mr. Ratmo exclaimed to call Mirna to come closer to him.

"What's wrong, Mommy?" anita asked Mirna.

"I don't know Nit" Mirna answered, shrugging her shoulders.

"Yes, I've been there, let me cook it," Anita told Mirna to meet her Father.

Mirna put the vegetables she cut and walked to the living room to meet Mr. Ratmo. Mr. Ratmo is now sitting in the middle room chair that is usually used to watch TV waiting for the arrival of Mirna.

"What the hell is Uncle?" Mirna was annoyed to see her Uncle calling out to her by shouting.

"Do you know what the neighbors around here are saying?" Mr. Ratmo regained the emotion of seeing Mirna who asked him in annoyance.

"Here's just Uncle, they have no job other than talking to people" replied Mirna with her upset face.

"It's not so Mir, you should know that your actions can harm others" replied Mr. Ratmo who was also upset with his insensitivity.

"You humiliated Uncle Mir. On the way back Uncle was blasphemed and said to be a no-no by them, and it was all because of your actions all along, especially you who always hurt the wife of your ex-husband," Mr. Ratmo emotionally heard Mirna who raised her voice when speaking to him.

"You know Mir, how ashamed is Uncle of the Al-Mukmin Pondok Pesantren family? They've been good at giving Uncle a job all this time and also they never minded your actions. You should be able to realize your mistakes and change your attitude so as not to do as before. Uncle tired Mir nasehatin you, Uncle shy Mir... shy..," now Mr. Ratmo has begun to downplay the tone of his speech.

Really look tired Mr. Ratmo's face this time. His heavy breath makes the person who sees it know that many burdens and thoughts are now felt.

Mr. Ratmo left Mirna alone in the room. Mirna fell silent, it felt her heart ached again to get a knock from her Uncle and the words thrown by her Uncle were not far from the people's talk about her, about her mistakes.

Mirna was pensive, and this time her tears were dripping. Soon he wiped away the tears so that no one would know the sadness of his heart.

The next day Mirna took Anita early in the morning to the market using a motorcycle owned by Mr. Ratmo before being used for work. Mirna did not shop around Mr. Ratmo's house anymore because it was banned by Mr. Ratmo.

It turns out that in the unexpected Mr. Ratmo, in the market Mirna was the lips of people who saw it.

The scorn and blasphemy returned. No doubt they said Mirna with a harsh name so that now Mirna felt really embarrassed and hurt.

So Mirna and Anita do not go shopping, they prefer to go home because of embarrassment.

Arriving at home, Mirna immediately entered her room, and she involuntarily cried sobbing on her bed.

He felt as if everyone was blaming him, everyone was blaspheming him, and everyone was judging him.

"Why is everyone blaming me? Why is everyone scolding me? Am I that bad? I want to be happy too. Why is no one supporting me!" Mirna cried while shouting banging pillows as an impingement of her frustration.

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Unlike the atmosphere in Pondok Pesantren Al-Mukmin who is preparing for the graduation event of the students who have graduated this year.

Many students were busy preparing for the event. Also the Ustad and Ustadzah were very busy taking care of the preparations for the event.

"Assalamu'alaikum.," Ustad Jaki's voice turned to Umi Sarifah and Rhea who were in the living room watching a television show.

"Wa'alaikumussalam..," replied Umi Sarifah and Rhea simultaneously without welcoming the arrival of Ustad Jaki to the door.

"Umi.. kok stay here anyway, not welcome to go there," protested Ustad Jaki when he was in the middle room.

"Why use opened the door, you usually gawk yourself into the house," replied Umi Sarifah astonished.

"Umi.. see who dong Jaki came with," Ustad Jaki led Umi Sarifah's body to walk towards the living room.

"Who the hell Ustad, so excited," asked Rhea astonished.

And Rhea's question was only answered by the grin by Ustad Jaki which made Rhea more astonished.