First Love of Ustadz

Chapter 122 Between want and shame

Shinta was still at home looking at the face of her husband who had seemed worried about her. Slowly Shinta's tears trickled down her cheeks as the thought of polygamous words flashed through her mind.

"Are you going to get married again?" suddenly the question came out of Shinta's mouth.

Ustadz Jaki was surprised by the question posed by his wife. A question that made him very angry and upset because he remembered the incident earlier. It is remembered by Ustadzah Farida and his mother and the wishes of his father Ustadzah Farida.

"Astaghfirullahaladzim.. What are you saying, dear? I won't, I won't do that. And you don't have to think about useless things like that. All you think about is your health, so that we can recover quickly and..," Ustadz Jaki's words hang, not resolved.

"And what?" Shinta wondered what her husband would say.

"And we can quickly make more dedek," replied Ustadz Jaki with a big smile.

"Well, I thought you wanted to marry again, I had a miscarriage" said Shinta sewot.

"It's just the same you love, don't think of a macem" said Ustadz Jaki, pinching his wife's nose.

Then Ustadz Jaki stood up and it made Shinta mind all sorts, she was afraid her husband would leave her out of anger at her.

But a few seconds later he felt strange, his body felt light and flying. But she smelled the scent of her husband's body, and sure enough, when she regained her senses and turned to the side, her husband's field chest was still wrapped in clothes. She was already in her husband's arms.

Shinta looked at her husband's face from his current position. She seemed to be fascinated by her own husband.

It turns out that my husband is handsome too even though viewed from below, it is appropriate that Ustadzah Farida really wants to be his wife. Should I take extra care of my husband? Shinta said in her heart that was still in a position looking at her husband's face without blinking.

Ustadz Jaki feels his wife is looking at him, he lyrics at a glance and he smiles looking at his wife who sees him without blinking. His wife's body was placed on their bed after reaching the room. He was immediately taken into his arms by his wife's body. Ustadz Jaki hugged him tightly and occasionally kissed his wife's lips and cheeks to make Shinta laugh happily.

In contrast to the state of Ustadz Jaki's room full of love and affection, the room in this hospital feels tense. Ustadzah Farida was arguing with her mother. His father Ustadzah Farida wanted the same thing as his wife. But seeing his son who was ashamed of being rejected directly in front of the crowd for reasons that hurt his son, then he also forbade his wife to return to meet Ustadz Jaki and Umi Sarifah.

"It's possible that if they knew you were seriously ill, they would agree to it sir" the mother of Ustadzah Farida was still with her thoughts.

"Mother!" exclaim Ustadzah Farida while beristighfar in his heart.

"Astaghfirullahaladhim... You pray you die?" said Mr. Ustadzah Farida who is still in the hospital bed.

"Yes ma'am, and I heard it for myself, didn't I know they were divorced? And as far as I know it seems that her husband is not happy just because he was forced to marry someone he does not love. I've been sincere about my feelings, Mom since Ustadz Jaki got married at the time, it's just that it's very difficult, but I'm still trying to forget it. Well this is even Mother dragged me so that again deket same him. It's even harder for you to forget, '" Ustadzah Farida blames her mother.

"Hes, wong you yourself were also willing to do so, even the pleasure of fitting know we intend to marry you to Ustadz Jaki," Ustadzah's mother Farida corner her child.

"Yes, but that was before I was rejected in such a way, in the presence of the crowd ma'am. Not to mention if there are outsiders who know how Mom? Surely I will be very embarrassed to be there, ma'am" said Ustadzah Farida who was confused about him.

"Already, Mom, we just cancel our intentions. I just find another man for our son's soul mate," now Mr. Ustadzah Farida voiced his opinion.

"Who else, sir? When else can we be part of the Pondok Pesantren Al-Mukmin family? Surely our son will be respected by many people," the answer from Ustadzah's mother Farida made father Ustadzah Farida beristighfar while holding his chest.

Actually from the first time Ustadzah Farida put his heart on Ustadz Jaki, and other reasons Ustadzah Farida established himself to like Ustadz Jaki is the same as the reason of his mother. But all that was just his imagination, his desire was buried since Ustadz Jaki decided to marry Shinta, the woman who became his first love.

"Udah Ma'am, don't fight Farida. Later also Farida met his soul mate Farida himself," said Farida who then came out of his father's room.

In the hospital garden, Ustadzah Farida contemplates the fate of her romance. He blames himself for not saying his feelings to Ustadz Jaki. But the other side of him said that they were not a match and told him to forget Ustadz Jaki.

Ustadzah Farida sorted every incident where he and Ustadz Jaki were together in an activity, he felt happy to remember it, he said, but he was sad again when his memory refers to the time he expressed his feelings for Ustadz Jaki as he helped wrap the Ustadz Jaki's offerings and denials before their families. It hurt her heart and was embarrassing to her.

It occurred for a moment the words of Ustadzah Anisa who often advised him to forget and mengikhlaskan Ustadz Jaki. It made Ustadzah Farida a little aware that he had to accept everything sincerely.

"You didn't go back to Pondok Pesantren? Tomorrow you have to teach. You've permission, masa' you permit again tomorrow?" asked Mr. Ustadzah Farida when he saw Ustadzah Farida enter and sit in the chair in the room.

"Farida wants to be here, sir. Farida would like permission again tomorrow not to fret first," replied Ustadzah Farida while closing her eyes.

"Why do I have permission? Here your mother is taking care of you. You don't have to worry" Ustadzah Farida disagreed with what Ustadzah Farida said.

"It's not a problem, sir. I'm ashamed of Ustadz Jaki's family and what if I meet Ustadz Jaki tomorrow?" finally Ustadzah Farida said what she felt.

"You should still be taught, who knows Ustadz Jaki tomorrow change his mind and want to accept you as his wife," suddenly Ustadzah Farida's mother who had closed her eyes now let out her voice.