First Love of Ustadz

Chapter 102 Hope

Mirna felt the pain add up as she thought about her illness and fate. He was confused about what to do besides medication. Mirna thought of her fate far from happiness.

"Do I have to tell Mas Fariz? Wouldn't he be angry if I came there? Isss... This phone number can not be contacted again, why? What's the number change?" Mirna tried many times to dial Ustadz Fariz's phone number.

With everything in mind, he changed his clothes and pegged himself in front of the mirror. His face was a little pale because of the pain in his stomach that sometimes afflicted him. His face was polished using powder and his lips used red lipstick so as not to look pale.

After believing his performance was memorable, he immediately went to Pondok Pesantren Al-Mukmin to meet Ustadz Fariz, because usually at this hour Ustadz Fariz was at home, so he was sure he would be able to meet him.

Mirna saw that her surroundings were quiet, maybe Anita was in her room or was in the kitchen, maybe Anita was out of the house to buy something.

Mirna immediately stepped foot into the Pondok Pesantren Al-Mukmin area. What he aimed at was Umi Sarifah's house, because if he met Ustadz Fariz in his office room, it could be ascertained if many people knew and of course Mr. Ratmo would also know, and that meant he could be kicked out of his Uncle's house.

And it is true that as Mirna alleged, now Ustadz Fariz is on the porch with Rhea rubbing her stomach while receiving a bite of cake from Ustadz Fariz.

If I were in Rhea's position, I would be very happy... Why is it like this now? I should be the one there with you. If only I had not suffered from this disease, I would have given you a child and surely you would never have divorced me as now, Mirna sat down while looking at the intimacy and happiness that emanated from the face of the husband and wife who were in front of her.

Mirna fell silent and hid behind a tree to see Ustadz Fariz and Rhea who were envious of her, even more so when she received a diagnosis about her illness.

In another corner there Ustadzah Farida was walking with Ustadzah Indri about to exit the gate of Pondok Pesantren to buy something in the mini market located across the street.

Ustadzah Indri stopped his steps when he saw Ustadz Fariz and Rhea joking and laughing and the treatment of Ustadz Fariz who was very romantic and attentive to his wife.

"Ustadzah, come.. What's here? I'll think about them later. Shame to know, come.." Ustadzah Farida pulled the hand of Ustadzah Indri to walk back.

"I also want a kayak like Ustadzah. Can't I be treated like that?" ask Ustadzah Indri at Ustadzah Farida as they step foot.

"Could, but don't expect more from Kyai Fariz, because he loves his wife so much. It was clearly not his love from every view and treatment. Everyone envied their romance. So it is better for Ustadzah Indri to give up now, rather than heartache and shame later. Just admire the guy, but don't expect more than that. And it is better that Ustadzah Indri find another prospective husband, "Ustadzah Farida menuturi Ustadzah Indri while walking hand in hand with him.

"Ck, Ustadzah Farida is still struggling to get Ustadz Jaki's heart, I can't fight to get Kyai Fariz's heart?" the Ustadzah Indri Protest at Ustadzah Farida.

"Beda Ustadzah, Ustadz Jaki no one has, can still be cultivated. If anyone has, our fall will be an actor" replied Ustadzah Farida.

"So if Ustadz Jaki were married, Ustadzah Farida wouldn't try to get her heart again?" tanya Ustadzah Indri.

"Will not, maybe we are not a match or maybe if we are both partners, we can also be united pending, such as the two of them, Kyai Fariz and Mbak Rhea. So it's nice to see them both like that, make baper tau nak" said Ustadzah Farida while looking at Ustadz Fariz and Rhea.

"Ck, baper whatan, so envious of me tuh," Ustadzah Indri grumbled.

"Eh they are why Ustadzah? Did they have a relationship before?" continued Ustadzah Indri asked out of curiosity at the speech Ustadzah Farida just now.

"Loh, it's Miss Mirna, what is she doing there," Ustadzah told Farida in surprise when she saw Mirna walking towards Umi Sarifah's house.

"Mother Mirna? Wh who? Why was Ustadzah Farida so shocked?" tanya Ustadzah Indri was confused.

"That's Kyai Fariz's ex-wife who got divorced a while ago. Yuk ah, we are waiting for another Ustadzah," Ustadzah Farida immediately pulled the hand of Ustadzah Indri to walk even faster.

"Ustadzah, don't we have to get close to it?" tanya Ustadzah Indri who is still in a running position and was pulled by Ustadzah Farida.

"Well? Do not follow the problems of others," Ustadzah Farida more quickly walk with his hands still pull the hands of Ustadzah Indri to the mini market across the street.

Ck, Ustadzah Farida make a kepo. I want to know if his ex-wife is there. Is there a problem, huh? Or will there be trouble? Aduuuh. so want to know if this is the case, Ustadzah Indri said in his heart as his footsteps.

"Mas..," said Mirna when she was in front of Ustadz Fariz and Rhea who were completely unaware of her existence in front of them because Ustadz Fariz and Rhea were busy with their world of happiness.

"Myrna?!" ustadz Fariz said in disbelief and was shocked to see the voice calling out to him.

"What are you doing here, Mir? I told you, I don't want you to enter the Pondok Pesantren Al-Mukmin area if you only make trouble," said Ustadz Fariz with a cold face and his hand holding the hand of Rhea who was still sitting next to him.

"I want to talk Mas, important," said Mirna without looking at Rhea, her eyes only fixed on her ex-husband who was in front of her.

"Emmm... Ma'am please come in, we better go inside the house," Rhea stood up from his seat and followed Ustadz Fariz because he did not want to be alone with Mirna there.

Mirna followed Rhea and Ustadz Fariz into the house. Mirna sat in front of the seats of Ustadz Fariz and Rhea who were sitting next to each other.

An envious look was drawn on Mirna's face and the heartache was felt by Mirna when she saw the hands of Ustadz Fariz and Rhea who never left holding her.

"What do you need Mir?" asked Ustadz Fariz in a flat tone.

"Mas... can Mas Fariz accompany me to seek treatment? I'm sick, Mas" said Mirna with a sad face and groaning.

"Sorry Mirna I can't. We are not husband and wife anymore, so I can't do that" Ustadz Fariz replied firmly.

"I know Mas, it's just that I want to have people who can support me when I get treatment. It hurts me so much Mas.., "Mirna cuckled at Ustadz Fariz and shed her tears.

"Sorry Mir, my answer is still no. There is a heart I must take care of. And I have no obligation or right to take care of you anymore. You better ask for support from your family, and I'm sure Mr. Ratmo's family won't let you alone face this" Ustadz Fariz said, standing up and walking in and out of Mirna.

"Mas... Mas... I beg Mas.. once only..help me Mas..," cried Mirna as Ustadz Fariz walked away.

Rhea did not know how, she just kept quiet because her position was difficult. She felt pity and sadness to see Mirna like that, but she also did not want if her husband returned close to Mirna who was the ex-wife of her husband.

Mirna turned to Rhea and looked at her with great pity, knowing that if Rhea had the same heart as Ustadz Fariz, they felt unbearable to others.

"Rhea, I hope you can-"

"Honey, let's go in" said Ustadz Fariz making Mirna's words to Rhea cut off.

When Ustadz Fariz went inside after speaking to Rhea, he did not find Rhea behind him. Ustadz Fariz forgot that Rhea was not invited to enter because he wanted to immediately expel Mirna from his presence. But he forgets to take his wife inside, and it is certain that Rhea will leave Mirna in the living room alone to follow Ustadz Fariz.

Immediately Ustadz Fariz walked quickly to catch up with Rhea, as he was afraid that Mirna would say anything to him. And sure enough, Mirna spoke to Rhea, from the point of her speech can be guessed if she pleaded with Rhea to allow her husband to accompany Mirna to seek treatment even though Mirna's words were not finished.

"Mas.me-"

"I'm sorry Mirna, you better go home and never expect anything more from me because I'm no longer your husband" Ustadz Fariz said.

Ustadz Fariz pulled Rhea's hand slowly and invited her inside leaving Mirna still sitting there.

"Mas I beg you once," cried Mirna accompanying the departure of Ustadz Fariz and Rhea.

Unknowingly Mirna's tears were completely dripping, it seemed like she was truly sad from her deepest heart. Unlike the past when he acted to be sad.

Is it my fault that you look so hateful to me? Don't I have the slightest right to get your attention? Even though we have separated, but I have been part of your life Mas, Mirna's inner voice accompanies Mirna's pushy gaze on the door that connects the living room with the other room.

The door passed by her ex-husband. That door was the entrance for several years without asking anyone for permission. Now that the door was closed to him, he even had to ask permission to enter it.

Huuuff.... Mirna sighed and stood up, walking out of Umi Sarifah's house in a sad feeling as her hopes could not be fulfilled by her ex-husband. Mirna walked gontai towards the gate of Pondok Pesantren Al-Mukmin.

"Myrna!"