First Love of Ustadz

Chapter 124 Selfishness that ends in shame

Ustadzah Farida ran towards his room. He bore shame for his selfishness over his feelings for Ustadz Jaki. His selfishness and his mother's selfishness led him to the scorn and blasphemy of others on him.

Many times Ustadzah Anisa knocked on her door, but Ustadzah Farida did not open the door for her. Even to meet Ustadzah Anisa alone she was embarrassed. Because all this time it was Ustadzah Anisa who always reminded him to express his feelings so that later he would not hurt anyone. And now the speech of Ustadzah Anisa was proved.

Ustadzah Farida still ignored Ustadzah Anisa who tried to calm him with his speeches. Even Ustadzah Anisa called the phone number Ustadzah Farida, but still Ustadzah Farida ignored it.

Finally, Anisa Ustadzah gave up, because the teaching hours have re-sounding. Anisa Ustadzah left Farida's room in anxiety. And Ustadzah Farida did not return to teaching, preferring to calm himself in the room to think about what he should do next.

Oh my God, I am so ashamed.... What am I supposed to do? Do I have to just disappear from here? Or should I go to the Ustadz Jaki family to apologize? But I'm really embarrassed.... Ustadzah Farida said in her heart interrupted her sobbing.

Ustadzah Anisa no longer contact Ustadzah Farida because he believes that Ustadzah Farida wants to be alone for now. Until the afternoon, Ustadzah Anisa who intends to go to his room tries to knock on the door of Ustadzah Farida only to find out the condition of Ustadzah Farida.

Many times Ustadzah Anisa knocked on the door of Ustadzah Farida's room, but similarly, Ustadzah Farida did not reply. Anisa Ustadzah became very anxious, she was afraid of anything happening with Farida Ustadzah, because according to the assessment of Anisa Ustadzah, Farida Ustadzah did not think long if he would do something.

Anisa Ustadzah tried to open the door of Farida Ustadzah, but the door of the room just opened when the door handle was held by Anisa Ustadzah. Surprised and delighted, Ustadzah Anisa soon entered Farida's room.

Ustadzah Farida's room was empty, and very tidy. Anisa's Ustadzah doesn't find her anywhere even though Anisa's Ustadzah is already looking for her in every corner of the room. Until finally Ustadzah Anisa stopped the search and called the name Ustadzah Farida when the eyes of Ustadzah Anisa were fixed on two envelopes on the table next to the bed Ustadzah Farida.

Anisa's Ustadzah opened an envelope that read her name. In the envelope Ustadzah Farida thanked them for their friendship so far, and Ustadzah Farida apologized for not listening to the advice of Ustadzah Anisa about her feelings for Ustadz Jaki. And Ustadzah Farida asked for help to deliver the letter in the other envelope to Umi Sarifah.

"Huff.... Ustadzah Farida why do you have to go? You should apologize in person. But yes it is a shame anyway, but how else, by going like this is the same as you become a coward and not necessarily later you will not meet on another occasion. Yes, now I have to give the envelope to Umi Sarifah" Ustadzah Anisa said alone in Farida's room.

Anisa's Ustadzah stuffed the envelope with her name in her pocket. While the envelope for Umi Sarifah he brought and immediately delivered it to the house of Umi Sarifah.

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"Assalamu'alaikum..," Ustadzah Anisa said a greeting by knocking on the door of Umi Sarifah's house.

"Wa'alaikumussalam..," answered the greeting from inside the house.

"Anisa's Ustadzah? What's the matter Ustadzah kok tumben here at a clock like this?" Umi Sarifah was astonished to find that Ustadzah Anisa suddenly came without being asked by Umi Sarifah.

Indeed, usually Ustadz or Ustadzah come to the house of Umi Sarifah because told Umi Sarifah to meet him. And now suddenly Ustadzah Anisa came to the house of Umi Sarifah without being known by Umi Sarifah.

"Sorry Umi, I just want to convey this," Ustadzah Anisa gave an envelope to Umi Sarifah.

"What is this Ustadzah? Eh to forget, please enter first Ustadzah," said Umi Sarifah while inviting Ustadzah Anisa into his house.

"No need Umi, I just want to convey this from Ustadzah Farida," said Ustadzah Anisa who still holds the envelope from earlier that had not been taken by Umi Sarifah from his hand.

"I didn't know Umi, I went into Farida's room and found two envelopes, the other had my name on the envelope, and in the letter Ustadzah Farida asked me to help hand over the other envelope to Umi Sarifah. I'm sorry if you'll excuse me, there's still a moment's activity" Ustadzah explained what happened in Farida's Ustadzah room to Umi Sarifah.

Umi Sarifah nodded her head as a sign that she understood what Ustadzah Anisa had explained to her.

"Alright, thank you, Ustadzah Anisa" said Umi Sarifah.

"Tama-sama Umi. Assalamu'alaikum.," Ustadzah Anisa said a greeting before leaving the house of Umi Sarifah.

"Wa'alaikumussalam..," Umi Sarifah answered the greeting Ustadzah Anisa who had walked a few steps away from him.

Umi Sarifah opened the letter and read it. Umi Sarifah regrets the actions of Ustadzah Farida who only left a letter to apologize. Umi Sarifah knew that Ustadzah Farida was ashamed of his actions and his mother at that time in accordance with what Ustadzah Farida explained in his letter, but it would be better if Ustadzah Farida still remains in Pondok Pesantren Al-Mukmin if he really has regretted and apologized directly to Ustadz Jaki and his wife, he said, and Ustadz Fariz and his wife.

Umi Sarifah kept the letter in her pocket, she would give it to Ustadz Jaki and Ustadz Fariz later because in Farida's Ustadzah letter, their names were all mentioned for her apology.

After giving Ustadzah Farida's letter to Umi Sarifah, Ustadzah Anisa returned to the teaching room to prepare his teaching materials.

"Assalamu'alaikum..," Ustadzah Anisa said a greeting as he entered the teaching room.

"Wa'alaikumussalam..," replied the Ustadz and Ustadzah who were in the room.

Ustadz Jaki did not come to the teaching room after that night, the night where Ustadzah Farida came with her mother to Umi Sarifah's house to ask Ustadz Jaki to make her his wife.

"Ustadzah Anisa, I want to borrow the keys to the storage warehouse, want to store these books," Ustadzah Ami approached Ustadzah Anisa with the books in his hands and followed Ustadzah Santi behind him.

Anisa Ustadzah smiled and nodded, then she took the key in her pocket. But when Ustadzah Anisa took the key from his pocket, accidentally a letter from Ustadzah Farida that he put in his pocket fell out of his pocket.

"This is the key of Ustadzah" said Ustadzah Anisa without knowing a letter from Ustadzah Farida fell to the floor.

"What is this Ustadzah?" Santi's Ustadzah took the envelope from the floor.

Anisa Ustadzah who was opening his book to prepare his teaching materials did not turn to Ustadzah Ami and Ustadzah Santi.

"Huh, Ustadzah Farida left here in shame?" ceplos Ustadzah Santi who had opened the letter and read it.

Ustadzah Anisa turned to Ustadzah Santi who was still near his desk. And everyone in the room looked at Ustadzah Santi to hear the continuation of his speech. Indeed, with the voice of Ustadzah Santi who was loud because of his shock and his slips it made everyone believe in him.