First Love of Ustadz

Chapter 3 Love does not arrive

"Kan Rhea was a child, Ma'am, still in 3rd grade Junior High. He was still in school, afraid that his school would be interrupted," Mr. Adrian defended himself, but he also looked so sorry.

"It wasn't exactly marriage. He's just asking permission. Maybe her marriage is waiting for Rhea to graduate school. Marriage is also very strict now. I should explain first so he doesn't misunderstand. Uh but maybe Ustad Fariz heard our conversation with the brothers at that time Well, the attitude of Ustad Fariz changed after the event. Ck, after all, what the heck is this nonsense to demean Ustad Fariz, but also not necessarily Rhea would if asked to be his wife," I really feel frustrated thinking about it.

"Here you are, ma'am, it may have been her destiny like this. And maybe Ustad Fariz's match was with that woman," Dad calmed Mom down by stroking Mom's hair.

Rhea's tears escaped just so wet her cheeks, even those tears were so swift. Rhea covered her mouth with her palm and she shook her head in disbelief at what she had just heard.

Earlier Rhea was about to go to the kitchen to take a drink, but her steps stopped when she heard Mom and Dad talking about Ustad Fariz's wedding.

Rhea listened to him because she wanted to know about Ustad's idol and because she also wanted to know what kind of woman he wanted to be his wife.

But Rhea was surprised to find the facts, he heard about the will of Ustad Fariz who wanted him to be his future wife but was rejected by his parents on the grounds that he was still a child and still in school, even though his marriage is not now, and also the condescending talk of his brothers.

Rhea understood the feelings of Ustad Fariz who might be insulted by everything.

Rhea was back in her room when Father and Mother's chat was done discussing Ustad Fariz. Rhea felt her feelings mixed up.

Hufft. Until finally he fell asleep accidentally on the floor of the room that was covered with fur carpet.

The days passed, Rhea through her day as usual just between home and school. Somehow his days lately there is no spirit, whereas at school many friends Rhea who is very funny to invite Rhea joking, especially some male friends who sit in a row of benches behind him.

They seemed to see sadness in the look on Rhea's face. They made so many jokes, jokes, even seduced Rhea that she would smile like she always did. Rhea smiled faintly, but that bitter smile was imprinted on her lips.

During the break, Rhea felt her chest so sore and so tight, she felt so uncomfortable that she repeatedly inhaled a deep breath and held her back, but even though it is done many times still all the taste is still there.

She felt something was wrong with her feelings, she was afraid that anything would happen to her family. He immediately contacted his mother and asked about the situation at home, but from the explanation of Mother Rhea could conclude that nothing happened at home.

Rhea breathed a sigh of relief after hearing the reply from her mother. But the pain and tightness in his chest was still so pronounced. Even the discomfort was felt and made him more agitated, so he decided to perform dhuha prayers in the school mosque.

The break was over, Rhea returned to the classroom without eating or snacking in her break time because her break time was used up in the mosque earlier.

But he still felt the same way, to the point that even when the teacher explained he was looking at the board, but his lips beristighfar constantly to eliminate anxiety, a feeling of tightness and pain in his chest.

But the feelings were getting stronger, his heart was getting sicker and more tight until his eyes glazed over, there were tears in the corner of his eyes, but as strong as possible Rhea held back the tears did not come out.

Astaghfirullah hal adzim... What is this? Why is my heart so painful and my chest so tight? It feels so sad. Oh God, what really happened? Rhea took a deep breath and let out a long sigh after asking all of that in her heart.

The afternoon sky greeted, Rhea walked down the road to her house. This time his father did not pick him up. And Rhea during High School was already used to going home he took an angkot and walked to his house. If leaving school sometimes take an angkot but sometimes he is also escorted by his father.

Rhea was walking with a tired feeling. Not tired because of physical fatigue, but tired because of the pain felt in his heart and tightness in his chest which is somehow the cause.

"Assalamu'alaikum's chat.... Mothers... Fathering... Rhea went home, "as usual Rhea went straight into the house and headed for the refrigerator to get her thirst-quenching drinking water.

"Wa' aleikummussalam's... Oh, my beautiful mother's son is home. How was it at school, all right?" Mother greeted Rhea by thrusting her hand. As usual Rhea kissed the back of her mother's hand.

"Alhamdulillah smoothly Ma'am. Eh, how empty is Mom? Where's dad?" Rhea was looking for her father's whereabouts. Masa' yes his father is not visible, his body wong is so big, Rhea can hide behind his father's body.

"Father was in the room, again resting, just came home from his wedding Ustad Fariz. It was just a simple wedding," Mother replied as she passed into the kitchen.

Jeduaaaaar, like being struck by lightning, Rhea remained silent. Some are charred but not impregnated, some are sick but not bleeding, like a needle pricked and slashed dagger it feels so painful, like pinching but there is no trace, he said, only pain so deep now felt.

Rhea immediately ran to her room, not wanting her house people to know if her tears were now falling freely without a hitch.

The sound of her crying on thick pillows and blankets. Fortunately, he locked his room when he came in. So safe, she's not afraid if anyone finds out she's crying.

God, why is my heart so painful and my chest so tight? Is it because of all this that's been making me feel tormented all day? Why does hearing her marry that woman make my heart so painful? O Allah, it hurts so much. Rhea said in her heart between her cries. He did not think that his heart could hurt this much, but he did not know that today Ustad Fariz is married, even more painful when he found out about the marriage.

What does this mean Oh Allah. Is he not sincerely married to that woman and what is it because he loves me that it feels so painful in my heart and my chest so tight and restless all day long, though I do not know if today he married, again the question is present in his mind.

Since Ustad Fariz married, his presence seems lost somewhere. Rhea had heard from Mom and Dad's chatter that the brothers from Ustad Fariz's mother disapproved of their marriage. Because they did not like the attitude and behavior of Ustad Fariz's wife.

And Ustad Fariz never again stopped by or just visited Rhea's house. Hufft.

Years passed, until Rhea had graduated from High School with satisfactory results. He was all his might to forget the pain and his feelings for Ustad his idol.

I don't know why his name is still in his heart. Never once could it be erased even though Rhea tried so hard to remove it.

Yes it is true that he has never filled his heart with other names, because all this time he has never been a courtship, he only focuses on his school lessons.

About five years passed, now Rhea was edited by a man who dared to ask his parents.

Indeed he did not love her, because after his heart ached because of Ustad Fariz, he seemed not to intend to establish a relationship with anyone, because the trauma of his heart ache so sick and long healed.

The man who liked Rhea's figure many times asked Rhea to be her boyfriend, but Rhea only replied if she needed time to answer him. So hard was the man's effort to get Rhea's heart.

Every day he would bring Rhea to work. Up to two of their parents each thought that they already had a serious relationship, so both of Rhea's parents told the man to come to propose to his son.

Andri Brahmana, the name listed as a husband who goes by the name of Rheina Az Zahra on the marriage certificate.

Rhea was worried about her decision to marry Andri because her heart was not sure and had not felt love for Andri, but he agreed to it because he saw the seriousness of Andri and also he did not have the heart to embarrass both his parents and both Andri's parents who put more hope in him. So distraught was his heart, that his friend advised him to perform the prayer of istikharah.

That night Rhea prayed istikharah to seek guidance for her decision. But after he woke up from his sleep the next day he suddenly became a dazed person.

He remembered the dreams that were present in his sleep. At his prayer he mentioned Andri's name, but not the face of Andri in his dream, but a gloved prince wearing a white cocoa shirt but his face was so faint that Rhea did not recognize him.

Rhea's thoughts led to Ustad Fariz, but she was soon dismissed as it was unlikely that she would be with Ustad Fariz, as Ustad Fariz was married several years ago, and now he doesn't know how he is.

Rhea exhaled violently, she did not understand who was present in her dream, but she thought it was too late now, because everything would be messed up if he canceled even though they were just newly engaged and their preparation for marriage was only 50%.

He did not want his parents to be disappointed, shocked and ashamed. And finally the wedding was done quite lively.

Ustad Fariz came at the time of the jabul pledge. Ustad Fariz came to meet the request of Mr. Andri and Mr. Ratih to study with Ustad Yadi.

As soon as Rhea appeared to walk up to Andri who was sitting in front of the ruler to marry them off, Rhea's eyes collided with Fariz's.

Rhea was glued and unconsciously she smiled at Ustad Fariz, so happy that she saw Ustad Fariz that she forgot her current goal of sitting next to Andri.

Rhea was disappointed when Ustad Fariz lowered her gaze after their eyes stared at each other. Rhea's smile faded when she saw Ustad Fariz lowering her gaze, and she came to a realization when a voice called out to her to immediately sit near Andri.

Rhea's thoughts were mixed when kabul sounded in her ears. She could not believe that she was now a wife and she was saddened by Ustad Fariz's attitude towards her. At night, Rhea sees Ustad Fariz coming back with his wife.

The eyes of Ustad Fariz and Rhea again met and stared at each other from a distance and in the midst of the crowds of guests who came. There was a strange sigh in Rhea's chest, even every eye they always felt his heart beating, even though for years they had not met, and Rhea had tried desperately to forget it.

Rhea and Andri were only at the entrance, because of the large number of invited guests who came so they could not go anywhere, even to eat they could not. Rhea was not aware that Ustad Fariz and his wife were not in her seat.