First Love of Ustadz

Chapter 4 The tormenting feeling

Already a year after Rhea's wedding, their household was going well. They live in Rhea's parents' house because her mother still can't separate from Rhea, and I'm afraid that Rhea is lonely while her husband is at work.

Rhea had not worked since her marriage, because her husband forbade her to work. Because she felt her struggle to get Rhea was so difficult because she had to compete with so many guys who also chased after her to expect Rhea's love.

But her husband was often assigned to work out of town. Rhea's husband works as a Manager at one of the famous Hotels. So Rhea was alone in the house if she had her own house, so Mom did not allow her to move into their own house, even though they could afford to buy a house, but Mom stopped her from buying a house.

Now the problems began to come to test the Rhea household. Lately many messages and phone calls came in to ask the whereabouts of Rhea's husband, they claimed that they were her coworkers, using the voice of their woman claiming that they already had an appointment tonight.

Almost every day calls and messages come in with the same language. At first Rhea was silent because she strongly believed in her husband, considering how to get Rhea who was so full of sacrifice, Rhea did not think that her husband could betray her.

For days Rhea was shrouded in grief over a phone call and a prank message from a woman who claimed to be her husband's friend.

Although she strongly believed in her husband, there was a sense of uneasiness and uneasiness inside

her heart. Especially her husband who often works out of town and sometimes receives messages and calls that he always takes away from Rhea.

I don't know if what the woman said was true or not. Rhea was just waiting for her husband to come home and explain. I don't know what will happen, all he wants is for their problems to be resolved quickly and they can live a quiet life again.

That afternoon, Rhea's husband still had not come home from out of town, but Rhea was unnatural, she just kept quiet, her eyes blank and sometimes laughed, she said, but if he was asked by Father and Mother, the answer would not be the usual Rhea.

Dad called Ustad Yadi asking for help to Ustad Yadi see the situation Rhea, because he thought Rhea was possessed by seeing his attitude and behavior is not as usual. Maybe because he was thinking too much because of his problem and daydreaming so that he could easily be plastered with subtle creatures.

Ustad Yadi is currently attending an invitation at the home of someone who happens to be assisted by Ustad Fariz and other students. After receiving a call from Mr. Adrian, Ustad Yadi

ask permission for Ustad Fariz to go out for a while to the house of Mr. Adrian who

it's in the village next door.

“Ustad I'm sorry for a moment to go to the house of Mr. Adrian, please in the handle first yes the show.”

“What's Ustad? Is anything important? Kok looks like Ustad Yadi is in a hurry,” Ustad Fariz instead of giving permission instead asked to look at Ustad Yadi.

“Pak Adrian asked help me to see the state of Rhea because she behaved like never before. Mr. Adrian was afraid that if Rhea was attached to a delicate creature,” Ustad Yadi moved from his seat about to walk, but Ustad Fariz stopped him.

“Wait for Ustad, can I go there? Coincidentally I have not been sowan to the house of Mr. Adrian,” Ustad Fariz

looking for a reason to be able to meet Rhea at this time, because she was very worried about hearing the state of Rhea.

Ustad Yadi seemed to think for a while, then he nodded in agreement because he felt Ustad Fariz was indeed close to Mr. Adrian's family, so let him who came there replace him, let him, ustad Fariz's science is much higher.

Ustad Fariz came to Adrian's house. Mr. Ratih and Mr. Adrian welcome the arrival of Ustad Fariz with pleasure and they

recounting Rhea's current situation and the problems Rhea now faces together

her husband's.

Then Mrs Ratih drove Ustad Fariz to Rhea's room. In her living room

looking at the wedding photos of Rhea clearly displayed there lined with

a family photo of Mr. Adrian with Ustad Fariz is also in the photo.

I don't know what Ustad Fariz was thinking, Mrs Ratih stroked Ustad Fariz's shoulders, and Ustad Fariz smiled bitterly as he turned to Ms Ratih. It is very clear according to Bu Ratih the attitude of Ustad Fariz who still loves Rhea, either as the opposite sex or as an bloodless sister.

Mrs Ratih opened Rhea's room. Seen there was Rhea who was sitting with a blank look. Ustad Fariz approached her and asked her, but Rhea just smiled sweetly as usual, but afterwards she was groping.

Ustad Fariz shed tears when he saw Rhea's current state. She did not expect that Rhea would experience something like this and also at a time like this her husband was nowhere near her.

How hurt Ustad Fariz saw it. It was eager for him to protect this woman in front of him and embrace her giving her affection and protection as a husband.

The deep heart still remained the same as it used to be in the hearts of Rhea and Ustad Fariz when they were close together, but Rhea felt a pain in her heart, her heart also beating so fast when Ustad Fariz

approached him.

Until he complained with his screams and anger because of his chest

very sick and his heart was pounding so hard not because it was close together

the Ustad Fariz.

But Ustad Fariz ignored him, he remained in

near Rhea, until Rhea spoke, saying,

”Do we love each other? Why is this sick

if it's close to you?” Rhea said it with a tone of anger, glaring and moaning holding her chest. Mother who witnessed it was so devastated and cried to see the state of her beloved daughter like that.

What could they love each other so that even the subtle creatures who stopped in Rhea's body could feel it. Mrs Ratih began to blame her selfishness on her husband who had not allowed Ustad Fariz to get to know Rhea better.

Tears of Ustad Fariz came back to hear questions from Rhea. He could not bear to see such a Rhea.

As soon as Rhea's head was reached and she recited the prayers, Rhea roared and rebelled, but the hold of Ustad Fariz was very strong, and finally Rhea fell unconscious when the subtle creature was successfully removed Ustad Fariz from Rhea's body.

Mrs Ratih cried to see her son like that and she laid Rhea's body on her bed. Ustad Fariz told Mrs Ratih to give her a drink she had recited prayers later after Rhea came to her senses.

Actually Ustad Fariz would wait there until Rhea regained consciousness, but she could not see Rhea like that, it felt her tears forced out, she felt a deep sadness in Rhea's heart.

He immediately resigned to return to his lecture with Ustad Yadi, because he did not want to look weak by always letting out tears if he saw Rhea.

Mr. Adrian hoped that Ustad Fariz could wait until Rhea regained consciousness, but Ustad Fariz rejected him on the grounds that he had to come immediately because he was in charge of helping Ustad Yadi in the event.

Ah they blame their decision to separate two people who love each other, and maybe they are a true partner who has been set by God and has written their destiny to be together.

An hour later Ustad Fariz called Mr. Adrian to ask Rhea. It just so happened that Rhea had just regained consciousness from her stupor.

He had indeed drunk the water given by Ustad Fariz, but his body and head were still so heavy and he was still like a confused person.

Ustad Fariz came to Pak Adrian's house with Ustad Yadi because it happened that their event was over. Ustad Fariz and Ustad Yadi entered Rhea's room to see how she was doing. Of course they were followed by Mr. Adrian and Mr. Ratih.

Rhea smiled sweetly as she looked at the figure of Ustad Fariz inside her room. Ustad Fariz took her breath and exhaled, seemingly claustrophobic just from getting the same sweet smile from Rhea that she used to be.

Ustad Yadi asked Rhea about what she was feeling now, but Rhea just shook her head.

Then I asked Rhea ,

”Rhea, dear does anyone still feel pain?”

“Not”,Rhea replied weakly.

Father and Mother Rhea understood the circumstances, maybe Rhea and Ustad Fariz wanted to have time together to ask because Mother and Father saw Rhea's happy smile when they saw Ustad Fariz. And also from earlier Ustad Fariz just silently looked down not to ask anything to Rhea.

Father invited Ustad Yadi to chat in the living room, and Mother also followed them to the living room to give Rhea and Ustad Fariz a moment.

Not that they gave Ustad Fariz and Rhea a chance, but they wanted to give Ustad Fariz and Rhea a little time to chat as their guilt-redeemer, but they are not sure it can be enough to make up for it, it's just that things have changed and they both have taken their own paths, they already have their own partners.

Rhea stared fixedly at the face of Ustad Fariz who was still lowered, she sat in the front seat of Rhea. A few minutes passed but the room was still quiet. Rhea was still looking at Ustad Fariz who was still looking down.

“Ustad, there's money falling huh there?” Rhea tried her guyon like their start

meet.

Ustad Fariz looked up at Rhea who was looking at him with her trademark smile that was so sweet and able to make the heart of Ustad Fariz race fast.

Rhea's smile was contagious to Ustad Fariz because now Ustad Fariz was unconsciously smiling when she saw Rhea smiling at her.

“That dong face the future, masa’ yes there are beautiful people in front even in cuekin?” Rhea tried her jokes like they used to before Ustad Fariz got married.

Ustad Fariz smiled again,

”Where are there still sick?” Ustad Fariz did not dare to return Rhea's usual jokes because she was afraid that she would not be able to get rid of her feelings for Rhea.

“Ya like this. What the hell was it that everyone asked like that? Am I sick?” ask Rhea wonder.

“No. You were just exhausted. Now no one hurts, right?” Ustad Fariz asked worriedly.

“There is no Ustad. Just a lot more thoughts

aja. Hehehehe....,” always Rhea can make people calm with her smile

as if he had no problems.

“Thank God then. I go home first yes. You are well and take care of your health, do not think much, not good it, sincerely all, surely God will give the best for his people,” Ustad Fariz prepared to stand, he said, however, Rhea's question succeeded in making Ustad Fariz sit back accidentally.

“Ustad why my heart is here, in here tuh sakiiiiiit really, whereas before Ustad came there was no pain. And also like my heart was pounding very fast, time’ yes because I mostly drink coffee? I don't drink coffee today, and

rarely do I drink coffee,” Rhea asked in a confused and pointed tone

her chest, because it was true that Rhea had never felt this kind of pain.

Ustad Fariz was just silent. She could not answer what Rhea was asking because what she felt was the same as what Rhea felt.

“Ustad just shut up? Ustad doesn't know what I'm sick of? Do I need to go to the doctor and the lab to find out what's in here?” Rhea pointed back at her chest .

The mother who had eavesdropped on Rhea and Ustad Fariz's conversation again shed her tears and shut her mouth. He was not strong to hear his son's complaints.

I wanted to give Ustad Fariz the drink he had made. But he accidentally listened to their chat from the beginning Rhea opened her voice earlier.

“No, gapapa, maybe because you fret a lot of thoughts so you feel like that,” then Ustad Fariz stood up and came out of Rhea's room. He was no longer strong enough to hear all the complaints of Rhea and he was also not strong if he looked at Rhea's face and smile. He was afraid that his feelings would strengthen as before.

Out of Rhea Ustad's room Fariz was shocked to find Mrs Ratih standing on the outside wall of Rhea's room. Ratih gave Ustad Fariz a drink, but Ustad Fariz refused because he wanted to go home.

And again Mrs Ratih can persuade Ustad Fariz. Finally Ustad Fariz drank a drink in a glass brought by Mrs Ratih and after that she said goodbye to go home. Ustad Yadi went home.

After Ustad Fariz and Ustad Yadi, Mother told him what she had heard

in Rhea's room. They are saddened and guilty, but they don't know what to do now.

Arriving at Ustad Fariz's house was awaited by his wife, Mirna. Surprisingly Ustad Fariz did not feel happy or pounding to meet his wife.

Actually, he had not felt that when he was with his wife, different from what he felt when he was with Rhea.

But he is still sweet like a husband to his wife and of course he also carries out his rights and obligations as a husband because he knows very well the teachings of Islam about marriage.

At night Ustad Fariz could not sleep because every time he closed his eyes he always imagined the face of Rhea who was smiling sweetly at him.

He took ablution water and he prayed qiyamul lail. He wanted to complain to God about everything he felt. But still his feelings were not relieved, and still crossed the face of Rhea who smiled sweetly at him.

He took the mushaf and read it, but still Rhea's face flashed when he was teaching. No matter how much he dhikr to remove Rhea's face and smile from his mind. Until he fell asleep on his tongue.