Double-role

CHAPTER 33

Memories will always be there and stored in the memory base of the memory. As hard as it is to forget, there will be something left and there. Love does not always keep the word "happy", sometimes contains bile toxins that for a second can spread bitterness.

Life will go on and every person who owns the story will continue to struggle no matter what the circumstances, good and bad have become dependents. But behind it all lies the good that God has planned. Goodness after the pain goes much sweeter to make forget what the pain of the wound looks like.

There is nothing wrong with His destiny, though it sometimes harbors sorrow and deep wounds that are not expected. Allah has said it himself in Surah Al-Inshirah verses 5-6 which means :

..."Then indeed with difficulty there is ease. Waiting with difficulty there is ease."...

God wants to make it clear that behind pain there will always be a smile of happiness. It will not be forever that God will allow a servant to fall into pain.

Allah gives a trial, because Allah knows His servants can go through it all.

That was what Alina was thinking. Many events are not expected to come in turn. Alina never expected to be a second wife and harassed the household of the man she loved. No matter how much feeling Alina had, when she found out Azam was married, she tried to eliminate it all. Because he did not want to disturb the tranquility of their household.

That feeling he would bury deeply, but in reality fate says otherwise. She had to marry and build a household with Azam and become a regular mother for Aqeela.

Far from hope and imagination. A dual role must be carried at one time.

Tears have fallen many times when you remember the days of yesterday. There are no more fun episodes that she has been through and shared with her husband. All of that is defeated by pain and misunderstanding. Azam's treatment had blindfolded Alina's heart for everything. He does not have the confidence to explain, because disappointment already precedes the mind of the husband. He went to calm his heart and mind.

"Assalamu'alaikum, baby. How are you in the stomach, Mom? May it always be good. We'll always be strong together, Dad. Although there is no father, Mamah will fight with all her might for our happiness." Babe Alina while stroking her stomach slowly.

The two brownish irises stared forward where the large window before him displayed the front garden of the house. There overgrown with various types of plants make his view feel cool instantly.

Alina sat there alone and thought back to what had happened a few months back. A smile fluttered on her beautiful face when she felt the little angel kick in her stomach.

He was already determined to close the dark book and open a new leaf with a thrilling note instead. She was just an ordinary woman who could feel pain and hurt.

Already a month had passed, time was spinning so quickly eroding day after day that was constantly changing. It does not feel the content of Alina stepped on seven months. Not an easy thing when he was two-bodied events for the sake of painful events keep coming. During that time he continued to struggle alone to improve his physical and mental for the good of the prospective baby.

She thought if she became pregnant Azam's attitude would continue to change for the better. However, in reality the sweet thing only happens at the beginning and ends instead of the opposite. Azam was getting cruel and heartless.

Giving up was not Alina's choice at the moment, she just went to save her heart and baby. As a new mom, she should do her best. There was another life in him that he had to pay more attention to. The heart of life, the soul of a mother are priceless by anything. He would close his eyes as if nothing had happened and hide the cries behind a smile just fine.

"I believe behind this all God is preparing the best. I never regretted this marriage. There will be unexpected surprises in it. One of them is you, baby." Oceh Alina smiled broadly as she looked down at her big belly. "You are strong, because you are, son," continued Alina.

"What are you doing? Looking at the cloud?"

A question from someone surprised me. Alina looked back to find the crescent moon arch present on the handsome face there.

"Mas Angga? You coming again?"

Angga, the young doctor and best friend of the husband came and stood a little away from the existence of Alina.

Silent greeting, just detikan wall clock flow into mediator. In silence Angga continued to pay attention to Alina who was still comfortable silencing her ripe mouth. He sighed softly and followed him looking forward with both hands in his pants pocket.

"It's been a month, what are you going to do?"

Long Alina did not answer the words Angga made her anxious.

"Your shop is running right now, and then what about your husband, Azam. I see him like depressed when you're per-"

"Can we not talk about it now? I hope from today you don't have to say his name again." Reply Alina quickly and then move on from sitting down, "because I don't want to know anything about her."

After saying that Alina stepped into the room, before reaching the door she turned her head to the side with a downward gaze.

"I thank you so much for helping. If there is nothing to say anymore, please leave. I don't want any slander."

Alina completely disappeared in the sight of Angga. Instantly he fell silent, sculpting a lump of ice when he did not expect Alina's reaction when the name Azam called changed drastically.

"How much pain are you hurting, Zam? Until it makes Alina reluctant to know your situation now. What would you do if you knew your second wife like this? Hopefully Alina can find her happiness too." Gumam Angga while continuing to pay attention to the teak door not far from its existence. After that, he lifted his foot from there and let Alina go back alone.

While in the room, Alina looked at her wedding ring on the dresser in a tight manner. His eyes were talking about the deepest feeling.

There had been many moments that he passed with Azam, but better still the tears that were shed. Alina thought that if she was in an uncertain relationship enough, she gave up her husband again to continue with her first wife.

"Because from the beginning my existence was not among them. I wouldn't call this a mistake either." Lirih Alina then put the ring into the drawer.

At least he wants to be happy, even if not with the man he loves.