I'm Not a Shit Carrier

POV Kak Ross's

I was so happy when I saw Alisa so surprised, when I saw me hugging Emil tightly.

Actually I don't want to do this. It's just that my mind and heart don't match. I was surprised by the man I liked.

Hope to meet the girl and solve the problem. I am the one who got hit.

Damnit damnit!!

It was very obvious the charm of the young girl. It was so easy to conquer Emil! While me? It is very difficult to conquer it!

I'm pissed! hick it! get mad! mix it up into one. I want to feel like I hit that girl! But it's not possible. There was even me who later got into trouble.

Not to mention now Emil hates me so much. What should I do to get Emil to come back to me??

Oh my God, this heartache is like being squeezed by a big hammer inside. What am I supposed to do now?

I'm still crying. Crying the fate of a broken romance before it starts. Where is my soul mate.

I wish that Emil was my soul mate. Turns out. I was wrong! Emil is not my soul mate. I'm so upset with that girl.

While I was still lamenting my fate, I suddenly heard the voice of someone I knew so well. He called me? Did I not hear wrong?

'' Wake up Ross ..''

A voice so sweet in my ears that it pierced my heart. It was like a hot desert drenched in ice water

Nyea..

So cold and so soothing!

My heart that was sick has now become happy. Finally...my wait is not in vain!

Emil's back! Welcome back Emil!

I got up and ran to embrace him. I hugged her so tightly. Until I felt, Emil was so hard to breathe. I don't give a shit! Now I'm happy! What matters to me is Emil!

He came back to me!!

I realized, Emil was uncomfortable with my embrace. But I don't mind him. For me, if it's in my hands, I won't let go.

I'll hold her hand so she doesn't come back to the girl. I don't like her very much.

I hate him!!

If he were here, I would show him that Emil would prefer me to him.

Unexpectedly, I saw a fellow shadow similar to her. And after I noticed, right! It was Alisa.

Pucuk dikin ulampun arrive.

It just so happens that the woman is here. I just showed him that Emil is mine! Not his!

I was so happy to see her suffer. For some reason, since Emil's arrival, the woman has always taken Emil's attention away from me.

I'm so sick of seeing his face. This is a good opportunity for me! Action time! Mumpung Emil was unaware of the presence of the woman.

I hugged Emil tightly. Until he had trouble breathing. I smiled at the girl. He looked at us with a flat face without expression.

I laughed in my heart. It was so nice to see that pajama face. I pointed my middle finger at him, a sign he was cemen! Can't do anything. Because Emil prefers me over him.

I looked, he turned around and left us both there. He must be crying right now! Haha.

Yup! He left with a wound in his heart! Rasain Lu's.. Ross fought! huh!

After the girl left, I took off my hug from Emil. She was still in shock with my treatment. His face is still visible. He was so surprised by my behavior.

Let him think I'm not ashamed. I don't give a shit! What matters now, I'm glad I've made a wound for another woman besides myself. Your choice!

I don't want my love to clap one hand. That's why I intentionally did this. Unexpectedly my struggle ended up not in vain !

Good job Ross.you're the best..!

I looked at Emil who was also looking at me. I was swept away by taste. The previous decapitation, now tightly back.

Slowly but surely I approached his face. His breath felt on my face. So fragrant is typical of a man.

That lip is very tempting. Can I taste a little? I was very curious about those thick lips. How enthralling!

I tiptoed a little, slowly but surely I wanted to kiss the lips that were so tempting to me. A little more almost arrived, until Emil just turned his face to the side. I just kissed her cheek.

I'm appalled. I thought he would be happy to give us our first kiss? Apparently he was avoiding! I'm disappointed.

The cheerful face changed instantly.

I saw Emil staring at me sharply. As sharp as a razor will scratch my heart. He took off my arms.

I jerked.

He rubbed his face rough. She also pulled her hair back violently. I was looking at him. Is something wrong? Did I misjudge if Emil likes me too?

Am I too sorry to call him my soul mate? It's weird! Why is his attitude inversely proportional to his words.

Am I forcing my will on him? Until he got away?

Well, if that's what he wants, I'll change even better. I clasped his big hand back, but he brushed me off. We were as silent, without a word.

I tried to persuade him with my actions, but still he refused.

What's my fault with her? Why was it as if I was so despicable in her eyes? Why did he change?

We just made up. She even hugged me and gently stroked my back. But now why does it feel different?

Is anyone missing?

I was pensive, silent without a sound. In the end, he said a word that hurt me.

'' You really are a shameless girl Ross! You intentionally want to kiss me? huh! You shameless girl!! Where is your pride huh??'' he rubbed his face rough.

I'm sculpting. Without feeling my tears melt, dripping down my cheeks. I can't believe Emil could say a word like that to me.

It really hurts. The wounds that have not dried are now watered again with salt water. Sick and sick at the same time.

Why was I so despicable in his eyes? Is it wrong if I want to kiss her? Am I too rushed to conclude that Emil chose me, not the girl?

If he had chosen that girl? Why did he come to me when I was falling? It was as if he had come back to heal my heart's wounds.

What exactly is on your mind??

What exactly do you want Emil??

Why do I feel, if you avoid me?

What do you want to tell me?

Why does it feel like I'm not willing if you prefer him over me??

What the hell is it??

POV END'S.

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