I'm Not a Shit Carrier

Everything feels different

''Where's my mistake Pa?? Where's Ma?? Tega y'all accuse me without asking me first..?? It hurts like there are thousands of knives piercing my heart! I was suspicious without asking first.. And it was done by both my parents.'' he said with a hunting breath. The tightness in his chest seemed to hit his heart. Alisa hit her chest slowly so that the tightness was out of her heart. His lips shook with the cry.

Dddduuuaaarrrr

Like being struck by lightning in a hole. Both of Alisa's parents gasped with her words. Their faces pias. Their behavior towards Alisa.

They're hung.

Alisa continued her words.

''Does mom know..? The pain in my body is not worth the wound of my heart.You are so willing to accuse me without asking first. Want me to talk but soon papa called our family there.

Likewise with Mama. Mama did not even look at me at all as if I was the suspect there! But I don't know about that problem.

I didn't conspire with bang Emil to make all this happen! I don't know anything, pa..?

I don't know how to ma..? What should I do for you two to trust me..??

Everything felt different after that night. You can isolate me when I know nothing.

Grandma. Pick up Alisa Grandma.. Alisa can't stand this.. Alisa can't take Alisa away..''

Alisa is calling her grandmother who is gone. She shed her tears, she couldn't hold it anymore. Alisa sobbed, making both her parents sob. They didn't think that they were hurting Alisa's feelings.

To speak one word is not to be able to. Pak yoga shed his tears hearing Alisa's words.

Pak Yoga felt guilty, with a face full of tears, Pak Yoga approached Alisa who was sobbing. Pak Yoga hugged him tightly as if he did not want to escape.

Pak Yoga rubbed Alisa's black mane covered in hijab. His lips shook with the cry.

''Forgive us son. We are wrong. forgive us. papa thought you did cooperate with son Emil to surprise us. forgive papa son. papa wrong thought to you.. forgive papa.' said pak yoga with a tear.

''Forgive Mama son. mama did not mean.''' mama Alina could not continue her saying freckle.

Her heart was so sick seeing Alisa cry like that. She's a mother, who might judge her child. He's just disappointed.

''Hiks...if I had not been born. surely you would not bear this kind of shame..if I were not in this world I would not have hurt you both..I'm sorry...?? said sniffling.

Pak Yoga gasped at Alisa's words. He shook.

''Don't talk like that, son. You're the jewel of our hearts.. You're our hearts.. Our sun.. we don't regret having given birth to you.. So don't talk like that...??'' she hugged Alisa tightly.

''If only I refused it, you would not hate me.

''No son. You are not guilty at all. We just misunderstood this situation..''

''Forgive me. I do not deserve to be your daughter. But why did God send me to you both..??'' the noise again makes Mama Alina more sobbing.

''No son. You are innocent we are wrong. forgive us son. forgive us..'' said mama Alina sobbing.

''Everything has happened. We cannot refuse her. All we can do now is Alisa should be able to rise again. Even though you are engaged papa hope your school still runs and also after graduation you have to go to new college after marriage. Do you want to..??''

Alisa was silent, she would not answer. Because no one knows what the future will be like.

Alisa closed her eyes for a moment to neutralize the pain in her heart.

Huuufffttt

''I never know what will happen in the future, let it flow like water. I'm not going against the current .. I'm going to go where it takes me. If I defy her just as much as I defy fate!'' said cold.

Pak Yoga took a breath. Apparently Alisa is very difficult to be persuaded if her heart has been injured. Just like her. Yoga understands that. Alisa is a part of him.

''Well if that's what you want.still as usual.you are still our daughter who distinguishes is your status is now tied to a young man.''

'Still a fiancee, right? Not married!' whispered heart Pak Yoga.

Alisa was silent and did not argue. For free now they say this to him. Everything has felt different since her engagement to Emil.

But let it be. This is already a risk that likes Emil without the knowledge of his parents.

****

Next day.

After the incident that morning, Alisa now turned into more silent. Talking is just as necessary. When asked, he replied, not like before.

Mama Alina looked at Alisa with a look that was not like anything. It's hard to pin down right now how she feels about Alisa's behavior.

Mama Alina remains as usual as well as Pak Yoga. He was more concerned about Alisa's situation now. Because he was afraid that Alisa would turn into reckless at times.

Alisa who was ready to go to school as usual, she had breakfast and then said goodbye to her parents. Although in a state of an injured heart but he did not forget if they were his parents. He respected them as always.

Today Alisa already bears the status of a girl who has been betrothed. He is tied to Emil. Like whatever his parents reject this relationship for him his relationship with the holy Emil.

As she was leaving, Alina's mother called Alisa.

'' Wait son. It's your pocket money..''

Alisa just shut up. Mama Alina handed over two pieces of yellow money to Alisa who greeted Alisa with silence.

After that there were no more conversations either from Alisa or from Mama Alina.

Alisa left her mother standing there.

Alisa pedals her bike through the usual road. When he arrived at the middle of the road, Alisa was surprised to see Emil was waiting for him there.

Emil smile.

''Assalamualaikum..''

'' Waalaikum greetings bang... '' Alisa approached Emil who was smiling looking at her.

Alisa blushed in embarrassment being stared at like that by Emil. Alisa lowered her head. She was embarrassed to look at Emil.

'' Kok looked down anyway.see Abang dong.. ''

Alisa smiled but remained down. His face was hot to his ears.

'' Deck ... Do not want to see Brother ??''

Emil approaches Alisa. Alisa gets nervous near Emil. Heart dag dig dug serrrr .. as if to fall. Alisa I held her bike handlebar tightly.

Aduuhhh my heart .. condition dong .. shame oruh .. same bang Emil .. where looked at all again .. need to look at Napa! shame ....

'' Deck ... do not be ashamed oruh .. usually adek not like this if every time you meet with brother ...''

Alisa blushed again .. she lowered her face.

For the umpteenth time Emil called Alisa. I was so excited to see Alisa's behavior like that. Shy shy but want uhuyyyy...

'' Deck ... ''

Feeling that she had been looking down for too long, Alisa raised her head to look at Emil who was also looking at her with a gentle smile.

Alisa cleared her throat making Emil chuckle.

''I-iya bang .. sorry ... don't be stared at! '' he said embarrassed

Emil chuckles again.

'' Adek is beautiful if you blush like that! Brother likes! ''

Blushhh

The look on Alisa's face. It was wrong to be praised like that. Emil was very fond of seeing Alisa who was being embarrassed by him.

Not like the girls he's been approaching. They were so nimble and flirtatious approaching her.

Emil looked at Alisa again. Again and again Alisa lowered her face unwilling to look at Emil back.

'' Yes already if you do not want to see Brother .. My brother went to .. ''

Alisa who heard Emil was about to go looked up at Emil with a sullen face.

Emil chuckled to see Alisa pouting.

'' Woah .. adek This brother yes .. just got bullied already scared ? What if you really go .. ??''

Alisa was still pouting making Emil anxious to see her, accidentally Emil scrambling Alisa's black mane covered with hijab made the owner freeze.

'' Yes it is ... Brother just wants to make this adek ..'' he said while giving a sheet of blue paper to Alisa.

Alisa was surprised to see it. Alisa looked at Emil and also looked at the paper that Emil was thrusting at her.

Alisa looked at Emil in wonder why did you give this to Alisa ?? Is there anything to buy ??''

Emil smile. He really liked the innocent and innocent face of Alisa.

'' This is for adek to buy snacks at school .. right old adek back home so Brother deliberately nginya for adek . adek objection kah ??''

'' Ho hehehe .. Kirain Abang anyone wants to buy .. really for Alisa bang .. ?? But ... I don't think it's necessary to bang .. has Alisa already brought supplies from home so it doesn't need to bang .. ??''

Emil is disappointed that Alisa refused his gift. Alisa who saw the look on Emil's face turned all wrong.

Alisa breathed.

'' Yes Alisa has accepted yes . but this money will be saved Alisa, where you know one day you need the money there is the same Alisa. You don't mind if it's like that ??''

Emil who heard her smiled. This girl is so sweet and so kind. Though Emil only showed a disappointed face but he accepted it because he could not bear to see Emil's face tangled.

'' Alright .. if it wants to be adek .. Brother follow aja .. anyway later brother's money will also be money adekkan ??''

Alisa smiled shyly.

'' Yes, Alisa lives yes bang .. It is almost too late .. ''

'' Okay .. heart heart is on the way yes .. if there is anything immediately kabari Abang ..''

'' Yes bang .. Alisa go first yes . assalamualaikum ..''

'' Wa'alaikum greetings dear ...''

Blushhh

Again and again Alisa's face blushed. Emil likes Alisa that way. Shameful but willing ...

After the death of Alisa, Emil returned to the mess project. Without being realized by him there was someone who was staring at him with nanar. Seeing Emil so happy with another woman made him hurt.

But what is the power of destiny is not on his side. He shrank the clear feathers that flowed down his cheeks.

It hurts! but not seen.

This is what is called love clapping one hand. Hopefully he will get the best match. Hope so!

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