I'm Not a Shit Carrier

Remembrance

''But son, how can we live? You will be insulted because you do not have a father.'' said Alisa again with a hiccup.

''It's better that you don't have a father! Rather than having a father but not admitting that we are his son! Blood meat! And so is the old grandma! He denied the truth in front of his eyes! There is no need to beg the person whose heart is closed, Mak!. My brother is sure. After this, Mak will be more successful than now! and Mak will get a very good man who accepts the advantages and disadvantages that exist in Mak! And when that happens, then it is Brother who will come to these two people to give the wedding invitation to Mak later! Comeing! Adek from earlier thirsty, want nyusu same Mak! You don't remember any more?''

''Astaghfirullah! Annisa.'' lirih Alisa.

He looked at Emil who was also looking at him. ''Thank you for accepting a woman like me, Bang Milham Syahputra! I'll point it out to you two. I'M NOT THE DAMN CARRIER you've always accused of! I'm a respectable woman! I'll prove it to you both! No human being is born a bastard! No one wants to be born and be called an unlucky carrier. Man when born is fitrah.''

''Thank you for giving me so much experience during my stay with you. Thank you for giving me such a great gift in my life! My children, they are the pearls of my heart. Where many people can not get it but I was given a mandate like this. Thanks again! Goodbye Bang Milham Syahputra The biological father of my three children! Come on, kid, let's go home! Tomorrow we have to get out of that house! Let them use the house. Mak doesn't need treasure. What you want is the children of Mak coming with Mak. That's enough for Mak. Come on. I'm saying goodbye! Assalamualaikum. ex husband!''

The deg!

It felt like Emil's heart was squeezed when Alisa said that softly but firmly in each of her sayings.

Alisa got up and turned around leaving Emil and Grandma Rima who were staring at their departure.

Lana looked up while walking. He looked at Emil and Grandma Rima with his flat face. While Ira did not look at all as well as Alisa.

Maya and Alvian follow them. They continued walking until at the end of the road they disappeared.

Only Emil and Grandma Rima looked at their departure.

Arriving at their home, Maya and Alvian also come in. ''Ma'am.... Come with us, huh? Don't get out of here! I'd be lonely without Ma'am.'' Maya's pinta with tears in her eyes.

''Stay at our house Lis. while you have not found a new place to live. Or do you want to go back to Aceh?'' ask Alvian.

Alisa looked over and smiled but was sad. ''No need to May..Mbak will go where there is a place to accept Mbak without seeing Mbak as the unlucky carrier woman again. Enough has been all this time Mbak always accused of being a woman of Shit Carrier by them. Ma'am will leave here tomorrow. If you want to sleep here with Mom, you can! You can also bang! Make this all a memory for all of us.'' Seloroh Alisa's.

Another response from Maya. The woman with two children cried roaring at Alisa's words.

Alisa chuckled, but those tears were rushing down her cheeks. And so did Alvian. Alisa looked at Alvian.

''Bang.. I'm holding the keys to this house with you guys, right? How do you know my ex-husband will come to this house to take his things. I'm leaving but I'm not taking anything from this house. Because the contents of this house are not my right. But his right. I'm not going back to Aceh for something. Let the four of us be here. The important thing is I always get the news if both my parents are in good health.''

''I gave my brother the key before I left. Come on, kid, get the suitcases of both of you.''

Ira and Lana nodded obediently. Immediately the two of them arranged their clothes into a suitcase.

When Ira finished, Ira now switched to Alisa and Annisa's clothes. He helps Lana put her clothes in Alisa's suitcase.

Mini suitcase that he deliberately bought to go home next year. His plan.

All of that will be delayed again. I don't know when all that could happen. Only God knows.

Finished with their clothes, now the eight people sleep in the living room of Alisa.

With all the kids sleeping together. While Alvian sleeps with Maya next to Alisa.

Because Maya doesn't want to sleep away from Alisa. They sleep in a state of mind that bares buana somewhere.

Think about each other's fate after this.

Her morning.

At eight in the morning Alisa came out of the house with her three children. Followed by Maya and Alvian behind Alisa.

Ira and Lana followed him from behind. Immediately Ira locked the door and handed it to Alisa the key.

''It's Mak!''

''Yes, Bang.. I have the keys to this house with my brother? If my ex-husband comes here to pick up his stuff, give me the key. May... don't be sad or. sometime we can meet again? If there is an age, then.'' Seloroh Alisa's.

Alvian smiled while Maya frowned. Her eyes became more and more puffy because she did not stop crying.

As for Alisa from last night, those tears had dried up and were no more. Because for him, if it's finished there's no need to cry anymore.

''Yes, we are gone now. We'll stop by Ira's school to confirm that Ira's out of school and will move out later somewhere else. My brother's cell phone number is already saved! So is your mobile number May! I'm leaving! Assalamualaikum..''

''Salam waalaikum.. Ma'am...''

''Waalaikum salam.'' said Alvian and Maya together.

He cried when he saw Alisa leaving the house. Before he moved away, he looked back again.

''Goodbye, Bang Milham, thank you for everything, and I will always remember our story. I made it a memory in my memory. May you always be happy with your new life. I'm leaving.Goodbye my ex-husband.. The biological father of my three children murmured while looking back at the house that for twelve years he lived with his husband.

All of these are memories. All that remains is the pain and hurt caused by the work of the husband whom he has always called in his prayers.

TB