I'm Not a Shit Carrier

Unaltered

After Alisa came home from where Emil worked, she was cleaning the whole house. Starting from sweeping, mopping, wiping dust on the window glass, washing his dirty clothes and also cooking for himself.

Alisa deliberately busies herself with work so as not to drag on in grief.

This is the risk of marrying an ex-Playboy. One thousand people can change better.

Like Emil. Although he said it changed, he said yes, but he still did it too. Don't remember the wife, don't remember coming home.

While Alisa was washing there was a sound of the door on the knock and greeting. Alisa knows whose voice it is.

With heavy steps, he opened the door. Emil was looking at her in the deep.

Alisa who understands, took Emil's hand for her Salami. After his passing, he began to concern himself with his work.

Emil who saw Alisa was silent, exhaled his breath. It is very difficult to speak even a word.

Unable to stand it, Emil comes to Alisa and helps her to rinse Alisa's dirty laundry.

''Dek... This is all dirty brother's clothes. in the wash??'' he said still staring at Alisa.

Alisa turns a glance, and takes Emil's dirty laundry and soaks her. Without caring about Emil who stood pecking next to him.

Unable to bear it, Emil hugged Alisa from behind.

Grep.

Alisa flinched, and stopped from rinsing her laundry.

''Forgive Brother dek.. Brother is wrong. Please forgive brother.. Abang khilaf whispered Emil in Alisa's ear.

Alisa who heard it was silent. Not disarming at all.

''Forgive Brother Dek.'' said Emil again still with his head on Alisa's neck.

''There is nothing to forgive! Here I am the guilty one! because I can't make my husband stay home with me. So if you leave, it's because of me! Watch out! I'm holy! Rest, you must be tired, right? Sorry if I caught up with you there. I'm just worried, nothing more. I'm sorry if I came, bothered you with your boyfriend! Sorry.. Should you rest, should you not Abang later tonight will go with him?? Rest up! It's time to wake up!'' I did not see Emil at all.

Hearing Alisa's words, her heart was pinched. Emil got up and went out of his house.

He went to a place where his heart could be calm, even if only for a moment.

After seeing Emil leave, the defense that had been guarded by Alisa now collapsed. She was crying alone in the bathroom.

His hands continued to move to rinse the laundry, while the tears were endless to flow.

Long Alisa cried, unknowingly if Emil was already behind her. He stood there.

Alisa does not know about Emil's whereabouts. He just kept sobbing. Occasionally shrinking his snot. Emil who saw it chuckled.

But after realizing, if he was the one who made Alisa so cry, he stopped to chuckle.

''Sir...''

''Astaghfirullah!!'' Alisa is shocked.

Presumably there was no one there, it turned out that Emil had been standing behind him for a long time. Alisa keeps busy with drying her laundry.

Emil who saw it came to her and helped her. When she finished, Emil pulled Alisa's hand to carry her into his arms.

Alisa was silent, yet still sobbing. Emil was getting stronger hugging her. After feeling quite satisfied, Alisa released Emil's embrace.

''I want to talk!'' he said while looking at Emil.

''Yes, let's talk. There's a lot to say here. Come on. let's go to the room.'' he said.

Alisa passes while Emil follows her from behind. Arriving in a room with only a barum mat, Alisa sat down by leaning herself against the wall.

''What do you want to talk about? You are ready to listen!'' emil said he looked at the woman he had hurt.

''If you are not satisfied with your past, then go! untie me. Let me live alone here. You can be free without being tied to me. You can do whatever you like. But please take me off the string paper that's strangling me. Sick bang, if you have to face your rivals head-on! Who me? I'm just an ordinary girl, who can't do anything like your girls. So I beg you. Please let me go!'' the door very.

Emil who heard it hardened his jaw.

Alisa gasped at Emil's words. Unexpectedly, it turns out that this Emil is stubborn as well as he thought.

''Why??''

''Because you are my responsibility!'' saith.

''If I am your responsibility, why did you neglect your responsibility for the past week?? Where is my brother when I need him? Did you think that I was being monitored by people myself?? What if I get raped by someone I don't know? Will you be able to accept my situation later that has been tainted by another man?? Really am! you're a selfish bang!'' alisa said, with tears already broken on her tapered cheeks.

''Yes, I am selfish! For the sake of getting you, I would bet with my friend! because what? because I want you!''

Alisa chuckles discordantly making Emil upset.

''For the sake of a bet, you are willing to throw away your wife so?! After you get what you want, now you are free to go anywhere without anyone forbidding you so?! Do you know what responsibility means??'' alisa said, with a trembling voice.

Emil hush.

''Now what do you want? If you want me to return you, I won't let you! Isn't your papa rejecting our relationship??''

Deg.

Alisa looked at Emil with a surprised look. Emil chuckles.

''Don't be surprised.I know everything about you! that you can't go home either, because of your promise to your papa, right??''

Alisa was surprised again and again. But after that he chuckled with Emil. Emil who saw Alisa chuckled speechlessly.

''Yes. I cannot go back to my village. What can I do other than accept your treatment of me?? I must accept you with a chest. What are you like, and how bad are you doing behind my back, shouldn't I accept it??''

Emil hush. He looked at Alisa whose face turned into a sad.

''I should what? if both my parents don't accept me because of you?? I should what?? And. yeah! now it's up to you, if you still want to wear me, please! if it doesn't matter either! Hasn't it become a tradition, if it's sweet enough to throw away?? I can't change your behavior, I can't force you to accept me for who I am, because I'm not an angel out there who can make you happy.. if you prefer another woman, please! i'm sincere! Whatever you want to do now. Who am I in your eyes??'' lirih Alisa with bowed.

Emil is impressed by Alisa's words. Right he said, who's Alisa Dimata?? After finishing with her talk, Alisa got up and headed for the bathroom to take a shower.

Now Emil and Alisa are like a cold war. Emil with his life, Alisa with her solitude.

After their serious talk, Alisa now feels that Emil has completely changed.

Little by little Emil showed the other side to her. Alisa's always getting angry at her, at her snaps.

Even when he wanted to ask for his rights, Emil always insisted. What he could do other than just be quiet and cry lamenting his life.

Emil was so agonizing about his mind. He was able to leave on Sunday night with another woman while Alisa was alone at home.

When someone said that Emil was walking alone with another woman out there, Alisa could do nothing. Besides covering up her husband's disgrace.

For months, Emil never changed. Even worse.

Today Alisa was so limp, her head was dizzy from waking up. His stomach felt in the stirring until he wanted to vomit.

Upon seeing Alisa so pale, Emil came up to her and asked.

''What's wrong with you?? If the pain is treated, do not be silent! There go!'' his words kept Alisa quiet.

Not knowing the words of Emil who had passed away went to work.

''Even when I was sick, you didn't care about me. What a shame my life.I think I can live comfortably with you, it turns out...''

His head was dizzy, his vision was twitching, dark and getting darker and darker..

Bruukkkc..

Alisa fell on the cold floor. Her husband's cold heart to himself now.

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TB