I'm also giving up

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"Udah, Nay. My mom is full."

"A little more, Ma."

The middle-aged woman's head shook her head. And I just smiled when I saw Mama Maya acting like a child. Inside the room, I laughed once in a while when I heard all the ramblings of Mama Maya telling me how she and Papa Adi met first, until they both decided to get married, until they finally had Tian.

I was so happy, it turned out that Mama Maya was a very nice person. It was like seeing my own mother inside that woman. Perhaps, if only my marriage with Tian was okay, then I was one of the luckiest girls to have such good in-laws and love me like her own daughter.

"Mama wishes, you and Tian could be a happy family forever."

The hand that was stomping her feet suddenly stopped when Mama Maya uttered a sentence that made me grimace a little. I look at the face that still looks beautiful even though she is no longer young, I observe deeply her sparkling face and the smile expands from her lips.

Oh my God .. am I capable?

My head lowered, I squeezed my fingers to hide the nervousness and guilt. Then, just as I was about to open my mouth, Tian suddenly came. The man approached me and his mother under different circumstances. Again, I've seen something different about that guy lately. The usually flat face, now not seen in the slightest. The lips that never once smiled, now I see them curling into a smile. And those eyes, those eyes that used to always be glaring at me sharply, are now looking at me with a gaze that is very difficult to understand.

"Tian ... What's up, son?"

"I want to get Naya ready, Ma." He answered while glancing at me. I looked at him questioningly. "Papa told the two of us to take his place for dinner with some of his colleagues."

"Yes, then now you two are leaving? you know Naya and her business friends Papa." Mama Maya said with a smile. "Come, baby. You're Tian?"

"But, Ma. I --" I wanted to refuse, but the man's voice had already ambushed.

"Come, Naya. We need to get ready now." And for the first time in almost two months after we were married, the man called my name. Yes, a name that seems very difficult to pronounce. I immediately turned my head, looking at him in disbelief who was in reply to a faint smile from Tian.

"Let's go, you two can be late."

"Alright, Ma. Then Naya get ready first."

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Twenty minutes passed, and,

I looked at my face and body in the mirror after a few minutes ago I just finished putting on clothes and applying some makeup tools on my face that Rania helped with, mama Maya's assistant works at her personal boutique. I'm not a good girl, I like to wear thick makeup like most people, but I'm always proud of myself for wanting to always look the way I am.

I am a girl who loves simplicity.

But not for tonight, I came back like I wasn't myself when I saw my face in the mirror. Especially with the bright red dress that I am wearing now makes me look very beautiful and also graceful.

I smiled, looking at myself tonight who was not like Nayara, a girl who always looked simple. But with my appearance like this, it would certainly not make Tian feel ashamed when the man introduced me to his Papa friends.

"Mrs ..." I turned my head, taking my eyes off the mirror as soon as Bik Idah's voice sounded. "Oh my goodness ... " The middle-aged woman exclaimed. "Neng Naya is so beautiful." Praise him as he walks closer to me. "Bibik sampe pangling see Neng Naya kayak gini."

"Bibik can do it." Reply with a smile.

"Not one of Den Tian married a beautiful Neng Naya like this. Than the same Non Dance." Her story continued to gaze in amazement at me.

"Dance?" My forehead. "Who's dance, Bik.?" I asked then with curiosity.

"That's a --"

Bik Idah's voice was stuck on my tongue as Mang Udin knocked on my bedroom door. The personal driver from Papa Adi asked me to immediately go downstairs on orders from Tian. Not wanting to upset Tian, then I decided to go down immediately, even though I was really curious about the woman named Dance.

Who's Dance?

Wait, I think I've heard that name.

Not wanting to guess, after saying goodbye to my two in-laws, then I immediately approached Tian who was waiting in the car. I walked a little faster when I heard the sound of car horns going off many times. I'm sure it was from that cold guy.

I opened the back door, then went in and sat down next to the man who was focusing on the screen of his phone. I cleared my throat slowly, hoping that the man would notice my presence in this car.

"Maos ..."

"Why so long. You think I--" His voice was stuck in the esophagus as he turned his head. Either out of surprise or feeling strange about my appearance, the man kept silent while looking at me with an uncharacteristic look.

Am I dressed up too tacky? or is my makeup too thick?

"Mas ... why?" It was only after I returned to ask, Tian was a little surprised, the man cleared his throat while justifying the position of his tie that might have made it a little difficult to breathe.

"Pantes was a long time ago, it turns out that you were grooming it?"

"Why? Is my makeup thickness huh?"

Tian simply glanced over without speaking anymore. "Yes, I deleted it first."

"Ngapain anyway?" Grunt annoyed. "It's late, you want us to be late?"

"Keep how?" Plain ask.

"Yes, it's just so new."

After that, there was no more conversation between the two of us after Mang Udin drove the four-wheeled vehicle on Tian's orders. We who sat next to each other were silent. Tian occasionally glanced at me. Even with me.

I felt uneasy when accidentally the eyes of the two of us met. Hurry me and Tian throw their faces to the side. Honestly, I admit the man's good looks. Tian was a man who approached the word perfect. Besides being handsome, alluring and charismatic, the man was also wealthy. So, who was the woman who would not fall in love with a male figure like Tian?

If the man was nice and not annoying, maybe I would be a little proud to be his wife. I would be proud to have such a handsome husband. But ...

Ih ... What do I think?

I shuddered, making the man turn his head for a moment.

"Why?"

"No papa." I answered without seeing it. I stroked my slightly open shoulder with a gentle gesture. It seemed like my fine feathers were standing up when the cold glint of the man's face suddenly flashed.

No. .. I shouldn't have weird thoughts about a shitty guy like him.

******

Arriving at the hotel ballroom that was our destination, I was so surprised when Tian took my hand, then introduced me to his Papa business colleagues. There are many young executives who are present there, chatting with each other for a business.

I could not escape the surprised face as I stood beside the man. I was trying to get my hand out of his grasp, but unfortunately, Tian was getting tighter and tighter until I had trouble taking it off.

"Shut up, and smile." The whisper was slow, "You don't act like a village here."

Whahuh? whats he say? The camp?

"Why are you besides me, Mas?"

"I said shut up.!"

"Please, Mas ..." My sentence was held back when an acquaintance of Tian came over. then chatted which forced me to smile.

We talked for a long time, until then there was a beautiful woman who walked so gracefully towards me and Tian as well. Along his feet stepped, the red lips that look sexy did not let out a smile. A smile that I think looks so sweet.

"Hi ..." Greet the woman as she stands before the two of us. Instantly Tian removed my hand from his grasp. "How are you, Bas?" He asked again as he reached out the hand that the man replied.

I, who was ignored by Tian, immediately broke away from those who were talking. I saw Tian and the woman who had no idea what her name was looking so close and seemed so familiar, there was even something I had not seen in two months of living with her.

Seeing the man laugh.

I chose to dodge and did not pay attention to the surroundings, so at that time there was a servant who came without seeing me, accidentally bumped to make me fall on the floor, and then there was a waiter who came without seeing me, and spilled the whole drink on my face and my dress. Not only that, even all the glasses on the tray all fell on the floor to make a very loud sound.

Everyone looked at me, looking at me with different eyes. Even with Tian, when I saw him, the man just kept quiet with a sharp look. I was the center of attention there because my face and the dress I was wearing was almost all wet. I thought Tian would help me. But actually ...

"Wake up, Ara."

The ara?

I turned my head, looked at a hand that was outstretched towards me before then I turned my eyes in disbelief as I knew who was standing before me at this moment.

"Ar-Arga?!"

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