I'm also giving up

After Marriage

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Marriage happens, too,

Today, a few hours ago, I was officially the wife of Sebastian Aydan. A handsome man with his terrifying cold aura. The marriage was quite magnificent it made me feel a little exhausted. With Mas Tian. The man looked very tired as he was standing all day on the lap while receiving some congratulations from the invited guests present.

"Mas ... want to take a shower now?" I asked when I saw Mas Tian sitting by leaning his head against the back of the sofa. His closed eyes immediately turned to look at me. "I'm getting some warm water, right?"

"Not to." Tukasnya, "I can be alone."

I just silently watched Mas Tian just walk into the bathroom. My intention was only to help, but it seemed that Mas Tian did not like it.

Just a few hours into his wife, it made me shudder in horror like this. How am I supposed to get through the next days with a guy like him?

Ah .. to just imagine it looks like I won't be able.

While waiting for Mas Tian who was still inside the bathroom, I decided to take off all the accessories that were still attached to my body as well as my head. One by one I let go of everything, until all that was left was only my wedding dress that had made my body feel all sticky.

I looked at my face in the mirror, I smiled as I realized I was very different today. I can't believe it, if a face that usually only wears a thin powder and a little dye on the lips can make me turn into this. It is fitting that everyone who came to our wedding party praised me, saying that I look so beautiful. And it turns out that's true.

"Geez, I'm pretty.!" I murmured slowly, without me knowing that there was someone standing behind my body.

"Generic ..."

A little surprised, I looked back. "dm ... Mas. Are you done with the bath?" I asked with a bit of a stiff grin.

It seemed like my question sounded so stupid in his ears that he did not answer. The man just kept quiet, looking at me flat while hissing.

"Why, Mas?" Again, I don't want to lose. I've been his wife, I should have served him, right?

"Mas Tian needs something?" I thought he wouldn't answer, but ...

"I'm going to sleep.!"

"Huh?" I bite my lower lip, why am I acting like a fool again?

"Yes, if you want to sleep please."

The man frowned more and more, looking at me with an ah view ... Cold as usual.

"Why Mas?" I asked when I saw the man just shut up. "Mas want----?" Then I followed where the man was going. I looked at Mas Tian, carrying a pillow and a blanket from my bed, then he laid his body on the sofa. "Mas ... Why are you sleeping there?" I know this is the first night for me and Mas Tian. But that's not what I want. Really, because I know Mas Tian doesn't want this wedding, let alone to touch me.

It feels very impossible.

It's just that I was a little surprised when the guy wouldn't sleep in the bed. Was the man really afraid that I would sleep in the same bed as him?

"Maos ..."

"Hit ..."

"Why did Mas Tian sleep on the sofa? Mas can sleep on the mattress---" My voice choked as Mas Tian interrupted quickly.

"I'm tired, I'm going to sleep. So .... don't talk too much!"

I sighed, the man seemed really very tired. "Mas can sleep in bed, let me sleep on the couch ..."

"Can you shut up!"

His instantaneous touch made me cry in shock. I closed my eyes tightly as the man who had just officially become my husband looked very upset. Then I kept silent as I looked at his body that was turned back to me now, Mas Tian pulled the blanket and covered his entire body until he was not seen again.

What kind of life will I go through after marriage?

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In the morning, the,

During the journey, neither I nor Mas Tian spoke. We were both silent and focused on the streets. Being in a situation like this certainly makes me feel a little uncomfortable. I wanted to ask, I wanted to talk to him, but all that I pared back for fear that Mas Tian would not like it.

Sometimes I just glanced at him, and unfortunately I was found out.

"Why do you see me?"

"Huh?" I look like a fool in front of him. "Si - who saw you?"

The cold man snorted and said, "We are married and will live in one house, but ..."

"But what, Mas?" I asked when the man was silent.

"We will not sleep in the same room." It was clearly what made me cringe with a confused look.

"You mean, we're different rooms?"

"Yes ..." The man's head nodded. "And I'll rarely be home, so you don't have to do anything."

There was no more conversation between the two of us. Mas Tian went back to silence, the man's mouth seemed to wear adhesive so it was very difficult for him to speak.

And during that journey, I chose to be quiet, staring at the street from the side through the car window. There are so many things I think about right now, and one of them is our marriage. What kind of marriage will she and I have? How can I live with a cold man like him? how can I live in one house if there is no love between us? then, how can I be a dutiful wife if that man alone seems to object and dislike this marriage?

Why is my fate always like this?

"Do you want to stay in the car?" Truly, I was stunned when I heard that man's heavy and hoarse voice.

Without answering, I went down and followed Mas Tian behind his back. For a moment I was so amazed to see a modern European-style house from the outside. The real house is big enough for Mas Tian and I to live in both. The magnificent house I know belonged to the man looked very clean and also neat. My admiration grew more and more when I saw the contents of the room, besides luxury items, it seemed like Mas Tian was also a man who liked cleanliness.

"This is your room."

I looked around, unaware that I and the man were already on the second floor. Standing in front of the door of the room that Mas Tian said was the room I was going to occupy.

So Mas Tian really doesn't want to be in a room with me?

"And this room is my room." I followed where the man's eyes were staring. Turns out, his room is next to mine. "Remember, I don't like it when someone walks into my room without my permission."

"Include me?"

Suddenly the cold face turned, then nodded. "Yes." Yeah."

"Am I not your wife?"

Instead of answering, the man kept silent while looking at me with a very cold look.

I sighed softly, shouldn't I ask like that right? it is clear what this marriage is like.

"Why? you mind? or ... Do you want to sleep in one room with me?"

"Eh ..." I'm in a hurry, aren't I. Really, that's not what I meant. I just still think what kind of marriage I'm going to have. How long will Mas Tian and I be like this?

Love is not between us. But ... Can Mas Tian and I start over?

I want to live this marriage like everyone else. Moreover, we are both legally married, both in the eyes of religion and law. Not only to God, we have both promised in front of the ruler, our parents and witnesses.

Isn't marriage not for the game?

So, is it now that Mas Tian and I are playing with marriage?

What if God was angry, what if my parents knew I was having an unhealthy marriage like this. What should I tell them?

And there's a lot more I think about besides that. I don't know .. It's nothing like my head is almost about to explode.

What am I supposed to do?

Oh my God .. What should I do?

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