I'm also giving up

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"Sir .. It looks like it's Nayara's mother."

Tian who was replying to a message with Tari immediately turned his head, he followed where Rama's eyes led. And sure enough, Tian saw Nayara. His wife was walking along with two other people

Who are the women and men who were with Naya?

Tian looked at the circular clock on his wrist, it was already nine at night and Nayara was still wandering outside like this.

Is this work just an excuse?

"Will Mr Tian take him home?" Ask Rama. The young man turned his head, looking at Tian who was sitting beside him.

"Not to." The subject is a little upset. "Leave him." Then, Tian stared at the direction where Nayara was laughing loosely at one of the cafes located on the edge of the road.

"Good, sir." Rama who saw Tian was upset finally chose to shut up. He resumed his journey after the red light in front of him turned green.

On the way home, Tian was more silent. The man closed his eyes tightly while leaning his head against the back of the chair. Since this afternoon, his head suddenly felt a little dizzy. Tian wanted to get home soon, so that he could rest there without anyone bothering. And he hopes that the pain in his head will soon disappear.

As soon as the car arrived in his yard, he immediately went into the house after Rama said goodbye to go home. Without answering questions from Mbok Iyam, the man immediately sat on the sofa while leaning his head on the back of the sofa. Tian massage his temple to reduce the dizziness that increasingly felt on his head.

"Sir ... why?" Mbok Iyam asked worried. The man looks very pale. "Sir Tian, sick?"

"Just dizzy, Mbok."

"Mr want me to get you some medicine?" Bargain the middle-aged woman.

Tian shook his head, he asked Mbok Iyam to go back to rest because it was already night. Tian just wanted to close his eyes for a while here.

Mbok Iyam who received orders immediately returned to his room after he offered a glass of warm water to his employer.

Tian drank the water a little, then leaned back his head while closing his eyes. After fifteen minutes had passed, Tian who felt that it was better decided to immediately enter his room.

Before opening the room door, Tian looked back at the clock wrapped around his hand. Almost ten in the night and Nayara hasn't returned.

Where did the girl go?

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Ten o'clock at night past twenty minutes I had just arrived at Tian's house. As soon as I got down from Raya's car, I saw Tian's car was already parked pretty there. I thought Tian wouldn't come home tonight like the night before, but it turned out that the man was already inside the house before me.

Once inside, the house looks deserted. Maybe Tian and Mbok Iyam have slept at this hour. I went upstairs, wanted to get into the room. I want to take a shower and then go to bed. But, just as I was about to open the door of the room, suddenly ...

"Where have you been?" I was a little surprised when I heard that man's roaring voice. Who else if not Tian.

I turned my head, looking at Tian who was standing behind my back while looking at me sharply. "Work." Then, the views of the two of us met.

"Work?" Ask while squinting. "What's the new clock coming home?" cynically.

"Mas, what the hell are you doing?" I asked to feel strange, because there was no way the man cared about me.

"I saw you on the street, is that part of your job?"

Dawdle? did Tian see me?

"I was walking with my friend, really." My reply won't take.

"Just a day's work already have a lot of friends apparently?" Ask me not to like me.

I saw the man take a deep breath while rubbing his face in a huff. But something caught my attention at the moment, the man's face was sweaty and looked a little pale. I don't know why I got the urge to get close, even though I knew Tian wouldn't like it. And sure enough, before I actually got close to him, Tian first threw something that made me close my eyes. I felt hurt because of her hurtful words.

"Don't wait for you my wife, can do anything in this house. You need to know who you are, who are you here?"

Know yourself?

Oh my God .. What is my fault? why else and again did the man incise a wound?

Getting angry? of course I was angry, because my own husband said I didn't know myself. I did often receive scathing words from him, but for times I could not accept when the man said something that made me feel like the lowest human being in the world.

I close my eyes again to neutralize the heat that is infiltrating the chest. Without Tian saying anything I know and I realize who I am here with.

"I'm sorry .. If I haven't known myself all this time, ma'am." I realized my lips were shaking. "I also know who I am. I am your wife, Mas. But I'm nobody to you. I'm just someone else hitchhiking live in your house." In the end, the clear circle that I had been holding back from earlier fell as well. "You---" I didn't keep saying my words because my heart hurt too much.

Tian speechless. Sculpting a face I can't guess. The look that had originally looked at me sharply had now turned into a wistful one.

"Naya, I ...!"

My tears were rough, not hearing what the man was going to say. I left her first, ran to the room, and cried all over there.

It's too painful, it hurts so much.

******

"I'm sorry."

I who was still crying while hugging my knees on the floor immediately turned my head. I hurriedly wiped the clear liquid from my eyes as Tian sat down beside me.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say that." Said again. Whether this was a dream or not, a cold man like Tian was willing to apologize.

I looked away as Tian looked at me, for now I don't want to see the face of the man who often gave me the wound. Not just once, but many times the man always made me cry.

"Mrs ..." Lirih.

I dodged when Tian wanted to touch me. His presence at this time actually made me hide my face even more between my knees. My body shook, and I cried again.

I'm Nayara, I'm Nayara,

For the first time in three months of our marriage, this time I felt something hard to guess myself. My body, which was shaking violently from crying, now felt a sense of comfort as my face sank into his chest.

Tian pulled my body, then hugged me very tightly. I refused, I rebelled, but my strength was not worth the strength of this annoying man.

"I'm sorry."

I don't know how many times the man said his apology. I, who was hesitant, was touched when Tian said it sincerely again.

For now I let my face hide in his chest, I don't care even though the clear liquid that comes out of my eyes makes the shirt he wears wet or dirty. I just wanted to cry, vent all my frustration to her in this way of crying.

After feeling better, the me who was still at home in Tian's embrace instantly realized something. I touched my own forehead, then moved around my neck, but I'm fine. Then ...

"Mas .. You---?" I just found out that Tian's body is very hot. "You sick?" I asked back while breaking his embrace.

"No." The answer. "I'm just a little dizzy."

"But your body is hot, Mas. And your face is pale too." I stood up, even with Tian standing up after a long time we both sat on the floor.

For a few seconds, the two of us just kept quiet with our eyes looking at each other. I looked at that handsome face that now looked pale, even with Tian who seemed to be watching my face, a face that now looked messy from crying for too long.

"I'm sorry.!"

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