I'm also giving up

Confession, Surprising

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One week after my father's departure and my mother's return home after three days of hospital treatment, I decided to return to Jakarta today. Other than because Mom's condition is starting to improve, there's something I need to get done right away. And again, there's a responsibility waiting for me there.

The job responsibilities that I had left for almost ten days. Although two days ago, Arga directly came to the house to express his condolences for Dad's departure, as well as to visit Mom. The man who just returned from abroad apologized for being able to visit home. In fact, Arga actually does not need to do that. Arga also asked me to take time off for as long as I needed, but I refused.

I don't want to use and involve Arga in my life right now. In the past, Arga was once part of my heart, but now I think of him as a superior. No more than that.

I could not believe it when Arga openly re-expressed his desire to come back with me. In fact, the man was willing to wait until I was completely freed from Tian. But again, I refused. I don't want to give Arga empty hope, even though the breakup will happen, I choose to continue my life away from people who have been close to me.

Including Arga Devano.

Arriving in Jakarta at six in the morning, I set foot here again. I decided to return to the Tian house for a while until I got a new residence. Because all night I've been thinking, if I decide to get out of the house I've been in for three months. In fact, I also decided to resign the company Arga.

As soon as the door in front of me was wide open, the first thing I saw was Mbok Iyam's face. The middle-aged woman's face was slightly surprised. Although smiling, but I saw his face slightly stiffened. Moreover, the middle-aged woman was now like a misbehavior.

"Mom, Naya?"

"How are you, Mbok?"

"Ba - well, Mom." Answer with a head that nodded. Then the face looked back. I also saw Mbok Iyam a little nervous.

"What's up, Mbok?" I don't know why I'm so curious. "Eh .. anu, Ms ..." The woman hung up her sentence while biting her lips. "Let's go in, Mom!" Mbok Iyam grabbed my hand and the bag I was carrying.

I went into the house, I swept every corner of the room that still remained the same as the last few. While Mbok Iyam, the woman had first climbed up to store the bag of clothes I brought.

I who was about to enter the room followed Mbok Iyam, suddenly stopped when I heard the faint voice of someone arguing from inside Tian's room whose door was slightly open. I thought Tian wasn't in this house, but in fact the man existed, even Tian was in his room together with a woman.

And it didn't take long for me to know who the woman inside Tian's room was right now.

I didn't want to care about them, but somehow my legs stopped again when I heard something that made me gape in disbelief with what I hear now.

"Mas ... Try to accept Naya, Mas?"

"... I can't."

"... I don't love her."

"... Honey, I've been telling you to be nice to her, but I can't if I have to love her too."

"... I love you, you are the only woman in my heart. Not Naya."

"... I'll try to be fair, but I don't promise if I have to love her either."

I covered my lips with my palms, my body was hollow and almost fell if only Mbok Iyam did not hold me from behind. So all this time Tian was good to me because Dance asked? I think the man changed all this time and wanted to accept me as his wife, in fact, Tari still plays a role in it.

Wicked! you fucking man!

"Bus ... Miss Naya, is it okay?" Ask worried.

I shook my head with tears piling up on the crackers. Apparently, my decision to get out of this house was very appropriate.

"Mrs ...?"

I turned my head as Tian's raucous voice rang out, and Tian looked at me in surprise.

"Nayara?"

He said my name. Tian said my name back.

"May ..."

"Mas ... you?" I shook my head as I rubbed the clear liquid that came out of my eyes, "I've shaken everything, Mom."

"Naya, I--" Tian immediately choked, making me feel even more pain.

"I've been through everything. And I'm gonna get out of this house right now, Mom."

"Naya, I--" The man looked back, then looked at Mbok Iyam who was still behind my body. Tian asked the middle-aged woman to leave, and Mbok Iyam nodded.

"I can clear-up--"

"Mas, who?"

I heard that soft voice echoing from Tian's back. Then the eyes of the two of us met, Mentari suddenly closed her lips with her palm.

"Mrs?"

I wasn't surprised, but the woman had a different reaction.

"Naya ... you?." I see him nervous, "When are you back?" Dance stepped closer towards me.

"I'm sorry, I can explain everything."

I didn't answer, all I was in the limelight right now was to look at the hair of the two of them who both looked wet in the morning like this. I also know what they've been doing all night in this house.

Disgust!

For three months as his wife, Tian never wanted to touch or ask me for his rights as a husband. I understand why he didn't ask for that right because Tian never wanted me. But when I saw the two of them in this state, it made my heart slightly pinch.

"Mas .. I'm waiting for you at home, Papa and Mama."

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"You're rude, Tian.!"

One slap managed to land smoothly next to Tian's cheek. Makes me, my mother-in-law, and her - surprised.

"The outrageous, you." He was again with a hardened face. Papa Adi clenched his hands together at the side, trying to stay calm despite wanting to do something more than a slap.

An hour ago, I decided to come to my second-in-law's house. Although he had hesitated, but my decision this time can no longer be prevented. I came and ventured to tell them about my desire to part.

At first, Papa Adi and Mama Maya disagreed. They asked me to stay by his son's side, accompanying Tian to their wishes and the mandate of my father.

I'm desperate, and I'm still pushing to end this marriage. Even though I was silent when they asked me about the reason why I wanted to part from Tian.

Only one was tight-knit, that me and Tian, the two of us had both decided this in a good way.

But, Papa Adi remained in disbelief. He knew I was hiding something from him.

And sure enough, before I told myself the truth, Tian suddenly came over to all of us. The man came with a companion Mentari who followed him from behind his back.

I just lowered my head, while Papa Adi and Mama Maya were very surprised that Tian had come with another woman with him.

"Clearly, what's going on?"

This time Mama Maya stood up, she approached her beloved son. "Why did you bring him, Tian?"

"Ma .. I can explain."

Tian looked at me with a look that was very difficult for me to understand now. I don't know what made him look at me like that. Feel guilty?

It doesn't seem like it.

While Dance, the woman had just lowered her head.

"Tell me the truth, Tian?" press Mama Maya back.

Tian looked at us all in turn, before then the man said everything without anyone covering him. Tian's extremely shocking confession certainly made both his parents instantly go up in black.

I just cried when I saw Mama Maya fall to the floor. She was crying and it made me sick. I hugged him.

"How can you do such a shameful thing like this, Tian?"

"I'm sorry, Pa."

"Leave this woman right now, or Papa alone will make her go as far as possible."

"No, Pa." The man's head shook. "I beg you, Papa don't do that."

"Leave her.!" Snapped that Papa.

"Can't, Pa."

"Tian ....!" Papa Adi kicked his desk violently. I can see his anger. "Leave him."

"I love him, Pa." I then.

"Then Naya?"

Tian looked at me, the man was silent for a few seconds with our eyes staring at each other. I saw from the look in the man's eyes it seemed like Tian wanted to say something, he was apologizing to me.

"I .. I don't love him, Pa." In that instant I also decided to throw away my gaze, and my heart? don't ask me with my present state of heart that hurts too much.

At first I did not want to cry, so at this moment I could no longer bear it. My cry grew even more unstoppable as I found out about a truth, again.

The truth is, that guy prefers Mentari over me. And the other truth that is also no less surprising is,

"Dance is pregnant."

"Dance is pregnant with my son, Dance is pregnant with a grandchild, Papa."

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