I'm also giving up

Destinies

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If anyone says I'm the dumbest woman or whatever it is, I don't care.

Because in fact, I started to like it.

Yeah, I'm starting to like Tian.

I don't know when I started liking it? I don't know for sure either. Is it possible because I've been living with him for three months?

Honestly, at first I did want to maintain my marriage with her, I will try to accept the reality as a wife who has been in two. I want to make peace with the situation, and I will accept Tari as my honey.

Stupid right?

But that's me. I really hope that someday Tian will love me just as much as Tian loves Dance.

Before the man broke my heart again.

Tian's words on that day further rounded my resolve to part with him. I realized, and I knew myself, that I would never mean anything to her at all times. After my resignation in office was over, Today I decided to get out of the Tian house with a large suitcase in hand. Although actually, my father and mother-in-law asked me to survive. They were sure that if Tian would come back to me, that man would choose to live with me after the child in the birth of Tari was born.

My father and mother-in-law only wanted me to be the only daughter-in-law in this house. They didn't want Dance even though she was carrying her own son's flesh. Their own grandchildren.

It's not that I don't have a heart. Honestly, I was just as hurt as they were. I love them both very much. I've considered Papa and Mama Maya like my own parents. Although it hurts to see the two of them grieve, but I prefer to ignore it.

The pain I felt right now led me to immediately part from Tian. Moreover, I remember everything he said, where Tian said that his love was only for him, the woman who was currently pregnant, carrying her child, her own flesh and blood. The man had no idea how I felt at the time. I think after saying that, Tian will apologize. But I was actually wrong. Until the last remnants of me were in that house, Tian still remained silent.

The man just stared at me in silence.

My tears came back as I remembered all my memories in this house. Although unhappy and ignored, at least I have lived there. I was once part of that house. And now, that house will only be a memory. I walked out of the house with nothing, and I won't even demand anything from Tian.

Today I decided to go back to Mom's house, I'll tell Mom everything. And I also have to get ready with Mom's disappointment in me. Mother must be sad, she would not have thought if the only daughter was now a widow after her new marriage for a lifetime of corn.

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Sebastian Aydan, by,

I never thought that my farewell with Nayara would happen so soon. Because of my stupidity and selfishness Naya finally left. Not only Naya, even Papa and Mama seem to be very disappointed in me. They asked me not to see him for a while. Even Papa asked that I immediately take Mentari away as far as possible.

I knew and I was self-conscious about what I had done, marrying Tari without their knowledge.

I could see how disappointed Papa was, especially my own Mama at the time. They don't believe that I'm going to do something that he thinks is embarrassing. Although polygamy is not prohibited, but still Papa and Mama do not like it. I should be able to emulate the two of them, I should be like Papa who is loyal to his partner until this moment.

Yeah, should.

Because Mama said, love will come because it is used to being together. Mama also said that I would regret having wasted a girl as good as Nayara. Even with Papa who seemed to swear to me, if I wouldn't be happy living with Tari. In fact, Dance is pregnant with my son, Dance is pregnant with her grandson. But still not a little to make Papa's heart touched.

"I .. I don't love him, Pa." All of a sudden, that damn word came out of my mouth. I saw Naya get hurt there. I wanted to come closer and say sorry eyes, but I held back because there was a Dance that I had to protect now.

"Dance is pregnant with my son, Dance is pregnant with a grandchild, Papa."

I know I'm so mean and a jerk, I should be able to keep that girl feeling. I saw how Naya was crying at that moment because of me. I know Naya must be disappointed in me. I could feel how Naya felt at the time, during the three months we were in marriage, I never touched her at all. Not out of disgust, I was a normal guy who could feel passion while being with a woman.

Even when I was with Nayara, I almost lost control when we both kissed on the night that I was sick. Lucky at that time I immediately ended it, other than because of the face of Dance crossed, I also did not want to hurt Nayara. I didn't want to ruin the girl, because I knew the breakup was going to happen. Although I actually have full rights over Nayara.

Nayara is a good girl and also beautiful. Yeah, she's pretty, and I admit it. I thought about having her, making Naya my first wife. But I don't want to betray my own promises. I promised that I would love only one woman, so I decided not to touch her.

I'll let Nayara live happily after she's freed from me. Naya deserves a much better man than me. And I also know that it seems like the man who is his ex still wants Nayara.

"Sorry, Pa ... Ma." I also saw Naya who did not stop crying there. Although the girl looked down, but I knew that Naya was crying. "I'll stay with Dance." Instantly Naya lifted her face to bring our gaze together. The wound?

Again I have inflicted wounds on a good girl like Naya.

A divorce?

"It's better for you to part, than to see Naya suffer."

Yes, it's true what Papa said. Maybe goodbye is the best way for both of us. Especially for Nayara.

"Nay ... Papa and Mama won't ban you anymore. We will both support whatever your decision is now. You are a good girl and also beautiful, you don't deserve a husband like her."

Papa's words hit my heart. All my life, I've never seen Papa that angry. But this time I saw him.

My gaze now turned to the figure of the girl Mama was hugging. I saw Naya nod, and said she wanted to part with me.

I also closed my eyes tightly, not expecting if my marriage and Naya only lasted until here. And it's all because of me. All because of the promise I made to Dance myself. A promise I made long before I married Nayara.

I saw Naya leave with a big suitcase in her hand. If Naya had known, I would have kept her from leaving today. There are still many things I want to say, and one of them is my apology to him. But I hold it because I'm still upset with Naya's attitude of giving back all my gifts.

Naya returned the ring along with the other set of jewelry that I used to give as our wedding dowry. Naya felt inappropriate, and Naya refused even though I forced her. He also refused when I gave this house to him.

"Sorry, I can't. This house belongs to Mas Tian, not to me."

"I won't ask for anything. You've given me a ride to live in this house just enough for me, Mas."

I don't know why I'm so upset. I just found out that Nayara is a very stubborn girl.

"Naya, should you go tomorrow?"

The girl looked over, looking at me while shaking her head. "No, Mas. I'm going to go now." He answered while putting his last clothes in the suitcase.

"I'll drive you."

"Not to." Again, he rejected me. "I don't want to be troublesome, anyway .. I'm already a nobody to you, Mas. I'm no longer your responsibility after you dropped my talaq."

Naya looks at. Even with me. I looked back at the scarred look from her eyes that looked so beautiful it was now "And I don't want to see you until you see Mas Tian. Let me talk to him myself."

How much does Naya hate me now? to the extent that he forbade me to meet with Mom.

"Are we not going to see each other again?" You idiot! why do I ask like that?

"We'll meet later in court, Mas." And that's the answer that made my heart melt a little.

"Miss, may I ask you something?" I ventured, maybe this is the last chance we can both talk like this.

"What?" Those round, clear eyes were looking back at me.

"If one day we meet again, will you greet me?"

"It doesn't seem like it, Mas." Her little head shook. "Whenever I get out of this house, I'll forget everything. I'll erase everything about us. I'll forget you too."

Naya smiled faintly. "If one day we meet, I will regard Mas Tian as someone else."

Other guy?

What is this feeling? why did I feel dislike when Nayara said that?

Why am I upset? and this is what I want. After Naya leaves, I will live quietly with Tari. But what about my heart that says otherwise.

I was silent, my body was there. I forgot myself that Nayara left this house. The apology I wanted to say was suddenly stuck in the esophagus because of the girl's actions.

I hope Nayara doesn't mean it.

Because no one knows, if someday fate will bring us together again.

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