I'm also giving up

Always a coincidence

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"Why are you getting hurt like this anyway, Tian?" I grimaced a little when Mama applied the ointment that Naya gave me on my bruised back.

"I didn't knowingly go over bamboo, Ma."

"How could you? where's the?" Ask Mama worried. After coming home, I haven't been able to talk and tell Mama about what really happened.

"So Papa finished nolongin pretty aunt, Grandma." Cheery's great-grandson who made Tian and Mama Maya immediately turned his head quickly.

"Beautiful aunt? meaning ... Aunt Naya?"

"Yes." Yeah." He answered with his little head that nodded. "His beautiful aunt fell, fortunately there was a poor Papa."

Mama looks at me now with a look. "Are you nolongin Naya?"

Since Mama had finished treating my wound, I put on the shirt again first before nodding. I told Mama everything without anything I covered. He immediately contacted Mom, asking directly how my former mother-in-law is doing now.

"Do you like Naya?"

One question from Mama managed to make my hand move stop while combing Cheery's hair.

"Why did you ask me that?"

"So right, you like Naya?"

I kept quiet, and didn't know what to answer. I looked at Cheery now, then kissed her forehead first before Asih took Cheery to her room to sleep. The little girl hugged me and Mama in turn.

"Good sleep, baby?"

"Yes, Papa. I love you, Papa." His great-grandchild again makes me anxious and does not want to be away from him.

After Cheery left, I was still standing by my mother with both hands in my pants.

"Since when did you start liking her, Tian?"

"Come Ma. I don't know either." I answered while walking to the sofa.

Mama sat next to me patting my shoulder softly. "Mama doesn't like it if you like Naya. From the beginning what Mama had hoped for as your daughter-in-law and your wife was just Naya. But now things are different."

"I know, Ma."

"You hurt her once, and now you're a one-child widower. Mama's also not sure if Naya wants to go back to you, after what you did to her first."

I nodded, confirming what Mama said. Seeing how Naya had avoided me all this time made me sure that there was no longer any hope and opportunity for me. Especially when looking at his eyes, from the look of round and clear eyes it shows that Naya really hates me. I closed my eyes tightly as the flash of my good demeanor on Naya began to spin back in the head.

Regretted?

Yes, honestly I'm very sorry.

But all of that is useless now. God has punished me in his own way. So many mistakes that I have made, that God also reciprocated by not losing much anyway. Trouble after Trouble started coming towards me. Starting from the betrayal of Dance, and losing some shares that made my company at that time almost destroyed. Added to that a reality that made me want to drown myself right then and there.

And now, it seems like God has come back to punish me. God is moving my heart to fall in love with the figure of Nayara, the girl I used to waste her presence.

Yeah, I'm in love with that girl.

I don't know when I started to love him, because I was confused myself. What is clear since our first meeting that time, somehow every day even every second I always think about it. As much as possible I brushed aside, making myself aware that I didn't love him, but it turned out that the feeling was getting more and more torturous. Especially when I read her diary. I really didn't expect it, and somehow I was so happy when I found out that Nayara loved me too.

If anyone says I'm a selfless human being, I don't care. Whatever others will say about me, I will accept it even if it hurts me. Because right now, I really love Nayara.

But I realize who I am. Sometimes I wonder if Naya will forgive me and come back to me? Do I deserve her after what I did to her?

Seems not.

Because all this time Nayara really put a wall between us. Especially after the girl said if now her feelings are no longer there, then the smaller the chance I have to get it again.

"It's gonna be really hard, Ma. Because Naya hates me now."

"You should be sure of yourself Tian. If you've fought and Naya still won't come back with you, that means you're not a match, and you can give up."

I look at Mama now, that shady face that's always helped me wake up from a slump.

"Good thanks, Ma."

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In a different place, though,

"Alright, I'll go with you, Fi."

"Thank you, Ra. I'll pick you up at seven in the evening, okay?."

I put my phone back on the nightstand after the phone connection was disconnected. A few minutes ago Raffi called me, the man asked me to accompany him to a wedding of his cousin's brother. Although reluctant, but I myself difficult to refuse.

Raffi was too good to me. I refused every time he invited me to meet his friends or family. And maybe, it's time I repay all of Raffi's kindness to me.

"Well, I'm ready this time."

I muttered softly as I stared at my own appearance in the reflection of the mirror.

"Darling, Raffi is waiting for you downstairs."

I looked up, looking at my mother with a smile.

"You're so pretty, baby." Praise me for looking in amazement at me.

"Mom can do it." I approached Mom, then we both left the room to meet Raffi who was waiting in the living room. I was afraid of making Raffi wait too long.

As soon as Mom and I came down the last steps, I could see Raffi not stopping to look at me. I don't know what the man saw so Raffi couldn't take his eyes off me one bit.

Even when we were both in the car. Raffi did not stop praising me, so I felt uncomfortable for himself.

Arriving in front of the five-star hotel building, Raffi and I immediately entered the room where the wedding reception took place Airin, Raffi Abrar Dharmendra's cousin.

"Fi ..." Raffi and I turned to the owner of the source of the voice.

"Darling, when did you come?"

I saw a middle-aged woman and a beautiful girl coming over to us. Raffi kissed the back of the middle-aged woman's hand and her two cheeks in turn.

"Ma ... introduce, It's Nayara."

So this middle-aged woman who still looks so beautiful is her Mama? I smiled, then grabbed her hand for me to kiss. This was our first meeting, but I saw Mama Raffi so kindly and welcomed me warmly. Unlike the woman standing next to him, the girl noticed my appearance from top to bottom, and looked at me dislikefully.

Raffi who saw me a little uncomfortable because he kept being noticed by the girl immediately took me to another place. The man reintroduced me to his relatives and friends.

"Milary ..."

I heard one of Raffi's relatives calling someone's name. I did not pay much attention to the people around me, even when the two women greeted each other. But ... It seems like something is wrong with my hearing this time.

I heard the woman's voice say someone's name.

"This, Tian. Sebastian Aydan." - Sebastian."

Deg

Within seconds I could guess who the owner of the voice sounded so raucous.

Why is it always a coincidence like this?

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