I'm also giving up

Wounded

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Sebastian Aydan, by,

I was a little surprised when I saw the girl I had always ignored in my room. The girl I snapped last night, the girl who cried last night because of me, now she's fast asleep in the chair next to my bed.

Has Naya been with me here all night?

I tried to sit down, leaning my body on the head of the bed. And now my attention turned to the towel that was on my forehead.

Maybe last night Naya compressed me.

A little guilt, I noticed the now-slumbering girl, Naya sleeping peacefully even though she had cried last night. And for the second time I could see Naya's face from such a close distance like this. Besides being good, I admit that it turns out Nayara has a beautiful face.

Seeing Nayara sleeping like this makes my guilt even more mountainous. I was a dick and selfish man who always broke his heart, ignored, never even considered him to exist, let alone considered him a wife.

I also know, if all this time Nayara always tried to take a little attention from me, she always tried to be a good wife for me. But over and over again, because of my selfishness and my over-indulgent love for someone, I have forgotten his goodness and presence in this house. Whatever the girl did, it never caught my attention.

Fuck no?

Yeah, I'm a dick. I should have accepted Nayara's presence in this house, I shouldn't have hurt the girl, I should have been able to do better and not ignore her whereabouts, I should have immediately granted her request when Nayara asked to separate from me. But for the sake of someone and my high ego, I also back off all that.

For my sake, her and my family, I have again made that girl even more hurt by maintaining this stupid marriage.

I don't know how long I can hide all my misery. For her sake, the woman I love so much, I would be willing to pretend to be a good husband for her. Though the truth is, I don't want to involve Nayara in such a complicated situation.

Looking at his peaceful face that was now before me, I somehow felt like I was the most evil human in the world. Nayara is a good girl, she deserves to be happy and get a much better man than me.

But last night I went back to being a brash man, I had kissed him. I admit, this was a mistake. I realized I kissed her not out of love, but out of the mood. Because I miss someone too.

Me and Nayara, last night we both had a kiss. I don't know why the girl refused when my lips stuck above hers. Feeling approved by Nayara, then I also began to dare ******* the upper and lower lip alternately. I bit her lips a little, and strangely again the girl greeted her, opened her lips and let my tongue into her mouth.

Honestly, I'm lulled. I was afraid to forget myself because our kiss was done for a very long time. I enjoyed it, even with the girl. A few seconds later, I let go of the kiss when someone's face crossed my head. I looked at her in disbelief, even with Naya who seemed surprised that I just let go of her kiss.

Jeez ... What have I done?

"Maos ..."

I gasped as the girl who had been filling my head suddenly woke up.

"Are you awake?" Ask again.

"Hit ..." As always, that's my answer. I don't want to make that girl wish for more with what we did last night.

"Sorry, I overslept. Why don't you wake me up, Mom?" Nayara smiled, and the smile deepened my guilt. I don't want to lie to that girl by pretending to care. I'm afraid that someday, she'll expect more from this marriage. Even with me.

"Where are you now, my dear?" I was a little away when Nayara wanted to touch me.

"It's better." I hurriedly replied, turning my face away.

"Oh .. Thank goodness that's it, Mom." Again, I saw him smile even though I had disappointed him.

From the tail of my eyes, I saw the movement of the girl. Nayara took the cloth and bowl she used last night to compress me from the nightstand. Before Naya came out, I got the girl back to stop her steps.

"For last night's events .. You'd better forget it."

"Good, Mas." She replied in a soft voice, though I knew her body had stiffened. Naya left without looking back at me.

"Suck!"

I closed my eyes tightly while leaning my head back on the head of the bed. Somehow the dizziness that had previously disappeared now began to pulsate back pain.

I don't want to make that girl even more hurt.

******

Three days passed, though,

I, who was currently accompanying Arga to lunch with two of his clients at one of the Mall, suddenly snapped when my eyes caught the silhouette of someone I knew on the ground floor.

To make sure my vision was not wrong, I asked Arga for permission to go to the toilet. After getting the approval from the man, I rushed to chase after Tian, before the man completely disappeared from my sight.

Yes, I saw Tian in the same Mall as me. Not only that, what makes me curious is, I saw him not alone, but there was a woman who walked with him.

I spread my legs wide to chase after him. I shouldn't care, I should just shut up. But somehow I got the urge to chase after that guy. I don't know for what reason, I just want to know who the woman he was with was. They walked together with their hands clasped each other. Although it was not obvious, I was sure that the man was Tian, my husband.

Is that woman named Mentari?

I wanted to call, but I remembered that now our distance was very far. I'm the one on the second floor, while Tian and that woman are on the ground floor. I ran a little down one floor with the escalator. I tried to chase after him, surround and circle the ground floor to find the figure of the man. But unfortunately I couldn't find Tian there.

Maybe I saw it wrong?

Massaging my forehead which suddenly felt dizzy, I turned my body back, then was stunned when I saw the male figure that was now in front of me.

"Have you met?" A question that made me squint at once. "Did you meet your husband?"

So Arga knows that I'm here to find Tian?

"What do you mean?" I asked Arga. My curiosity grew more and more because Arga seemed to know something about Tian.

Arga smiled, slowly stepping closer to me who was still standing at the spot where I was standing at the moment. "I know you're looking for Tian, right?"

"How did you know?"

"Because I saw him too." The answer is relaxed while reviewing the smile.

It turned out that it wasn't just me, Arga saw Tian was here. So that guy was really Tian.?

******

"When are you here?" I crumpled my own fingers that started to sweat cold. My feelings started to get erratic when I saw it with my own eyes.

"You down? or are you leaving?" I don't know what's wrong with me right now. Why do I seem to have no power to know the truth later. I know, even though between the two of us didn't have any feelings, I just wanted to make sure.

Is this really the woman's house?

"We'd better go."

"Related?" Arga asked with a shrunken forehead.

I look at him now, even with Arga.

Yes, Arga Devano was the one who told me about Tian and that woman named Mentari after I urged her. Actually I don't want to believe it, but this time I believe in the man who is my superior.

"I'm sorry." His words are full of regret. "I didn't mean to say it."

"No papa." Answer with a head that shakes.

"You want to go?"

I didn't answer, but my eyes turned to the luxurious building ahead. I slightly lowered the window of the car, when the car I knew had just come out of the courtyard of the luxury house. I also know who owns the car.

Taking a deep breath while closing my eyes for a moment, I decided to meet him.

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