I'm also giving up

Possibly

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A week passed. My marriage to Mas Tian went flat as usual. Every day Mas Tian did come home, but it was always midnight when I was asleep.

When morning came, I who always woke up early began my duties as a wife. I cook and prepare breakfast every day. But ...the man did not look at me at all or want to have breakfast with me. Mas Tian preferred to leave for his office early in the morning and skip his breakfast. Just like now, I saw the man just coming out of the room and was walking downstairs through some stairs.

"Maos ..." Sapaku, hoping that this time Mas Tian will have breakfast with me. "I've made breakfast, we'll have breakfast together, okay?"

"Can't." The drill.

"But Mas?"

"I'm in a hurry." Without looking at me or looking at the dining table that is already available toast, fried rice, even warm milk that I deliberately made for him.

"Mass ...!" I boldly shouted a little, made the man stop, then turned his body to face me now. "Why don't you ever eat breakfast here? I've cooked for you, I've prepared everything, but you---!"

"Don't I tell you not to do anything?" Cynic words. "I'm not asking you to admit to all that."

"But, I'm your wife."

"I told you not to do anything for me."

"Why?" I ask not to accept.

"Because I don't like."

I fell, even to the point of silence and looked at the body of the man who had begun to move away. During this one week his attitude was always cold, I guess the man will change. In fact not at all. What's my fault? why does Mas Tian hate me? Does that man regret marrying me?

No. .. This cannot be allowed. Mas Tian shouldn't have treated me like this. He is not the only one who regrets, I am the same.

"Mas ..wait!"

I took my legs wide to catch up to the man who was about to go to the main door of our house, precisely the Tian house.

"What do you mean talk like that? why can't I do anything?" My boyfriend who made the man turn his head for a moment, looked at me with a hardened face and also a sharp look.

"I am your wife. We're married, and it's my duty to do that, Mom.!"

"I don't like it. You deaf?" The rough touch that made me scream in shock.

Never once have my parents yelled at me like this. But he - the man who was my husband's status - could actually shout at me blatantly.

"Why Mas? Why don't you like it? What's wrong if I just want to do my duty as a wife?" I nodded with a wounded tone.

"Because I don't love you."

My heart slipped instantly, my whole body was heating up and my breath was like it was choking. Along with that, my memory returns again to the day that the man agreed to marry. Tian said the marriage was only to make his parents happy, the man said he married me because there was a promise that had to be kept.

Promise to whom?

I looked at the face in silence before I said something that made the man shut up.

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One day after that incident, Tian still remained the coldest human I had ever met in this world. Sometimes I myself can not be out of thought with the attitude of the man who did not show his hospitality in the least. What was the man's heart actually made of? Why God created such a shitty man like him. It seems like what I said back then was just that he regarded it as the last wind.

Yes, because in reality Tian is still the same. The man moved further away and avoided me.

"Mr ..."

I was stunned, my daydreams caved in for a moment when I heard someone's voice from behind my back. I smiled when I found a middle-aged woman who had been working in our house for a few days. His name was Mbok Iyam, the housekeeper that Tian took from his parents' home.

"What's up, Mbok?"

Bi Iyam smiled kindly at me. "Does Mom need anything?" Ask me. I also shook my head. "Do you want to make drinks, snacks or food?"

"No, Mbok." Reply with a smile. Seeing that woman so well reminded me of my own mother. I was happy when Tian brought Mbok Iyam home, so it was like I had a friend in this house. My time, I spent only with her, I occasionally helped the woman's work even though she always forbade me. And it was Mbok Iyam who taught me how to cook, telling me what foods Tian liked and disliked.

"Bok, where are you going?" I asked later when I saw the woman walking up the stairs.

"Bok, want to clean the room has a Father, Mom." His reply made me smile instantly. So I decided to go with him, in addition to cleaning, I also wanted to know what the man's room was like. This room that I had barely seen for a month, because Tian had indeed forbidden me to enter his room without his permission. It was only Mbok Iyam who he believed to clean his room every day.

"Patience, Mom." Mbok Iyam rubbed my shoulders gently. The middle-aged woman knew what kind of marriage I had with Tian was. "Actually the Father is good, just ..." Mbok Iyam was silent, looking at me with pity. "Maybe you're not used to it yet, ma'am, Naya."

"Yes, Mbok. I know." Then I gave her a thin smile. I did tell Mbok Iyam a lot, and I myself asked the woman to shut up and keep it a secret from anyone. Especially from his parents Tian.

"Ec ... Ma'am, let me clean the room?"

"But, Mom."

"No papa, Mbok. I'm just?" My love.

"Later you're angry, Mom."

"Mbok don't tell Mas Tian if I clean his room. How's it?"

The woman's head nodded. Hand over the spare key and let me to clean up Tian's room.

As soon as the door opened, the first thing I saw was the state of the room that looked very neat. Only the bed was a little messy. I was so amazed to see the contents of his room, in addition to the luxury and antique items on the nightstand, in the room there are also several paintings and bookshelves located in the corner of the room, not far from the work desk next to him. But that's not what's now the center of my vision, something is pushing me to get closer, see what I want to see. Then, I ventured to grab the thing, a small figura that was on the man's desk.

"Who is this woman?" I murmured softly as I looked inside the photo was a woman leaning back with a big smile on Tian's shoulder.

The woman looked so beautiful with Tian who was so handsome, they both looked so close, even both of them were smiling. A smile I never saw in my house.

"You're handsome Mas, if you smile again like this." I was so envious to see Tian who was smiling like that. Moreover, the man smiled at a woman I knew named Mentari.

"So this is the reason you can't accept this marriage, Mas?" I swiped the picture frame in a gentle gesture. "Until your name you write here."

There was a scratch of ink under the photo, writing that made me smile and feel guilty. Now that I know why Mas Tian did not want this marriage and has always been flat with me, this might be the reason. Because he has a lover. Because he loves other women.

Maybe I'm the third person here. I was the one who came when the man was still in love with another woman. Perhaps, I was the one who made Tian part with that woman. Maybe I'm the one who ruined their relationship. Yeah, maybe it's all because of me.

"I will love you forever - my Ment."

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