I'm also giving up

My past

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The night breeze hit the surface of my face and body. It makes me feel a little cold, but it doesn't make me want to get out of here. For almost two hours I sat beside the pool staring at the star-studded sky above.

Because of my busy life lately that requires me to work, then I am rarely at home. And today, after I managed to force Geril to vacate my gig schedule, then I didn't waste this opportunity to spend my time staying at home. In addition to sleeping all day, lazing, I also feel happy because I can accompany and help Mother's work.

I was a little surprised when I heard my phone ring. I saw Geril's name on my phone screen. A little upset I raised the call from him. After a few minutes of talking on the phone, I immediately decided to end the call.

Geril, remind me that tomorrow night we're all going to the top.

I kept quiet, actually I was lazy. But because this is my job now, then inevitably I must remain enthusiastic.

I don't know what makes my drowsiness go away, but it's ten in the evening. And I still feel right here.

A glimpse of the shadow when I met again with people who did not want me to meet all this time, suddenly crossed. Really, even up to this second I still can't believe that Tian and I will be back together.

I don't know what that guy thinks of me. I don't give a shit. Because by the time we met, it seemed like Tian was feeling strange about my appearance as well as my attitude. I wanted to make peace with the past, and I forgave him even though the apology never came from his lips. But from the moment that Tian and I met again, I somehow felt that hate.

The shadows when I was his wife kept spinning in my head. How did Tian behave and treat me while still his wife. I shouldn't have remembered all my memories.

So by the time the two of us met, I actually wanted to leave that place right then and there. But .. I can't do that. I'm sober. I can't blame Tian completely. Because I knew that Tian loved Dance so much back then. Maybe I'm selfish, because my selfishness is what makes me want to be with him even if I'm not loved.

I knew what I was doing when we both met was wrong. I shouldn't have ignored it, I should have been able to act normal. I should not consider him a stranger. Yeah, I shouldn't be like that.

I knew that Tian would often glance at me, silently watching me. But I don't give a shit. I prefer to talk to her friends, until I realize one thing. During the conversation, there was something that made me a little curious.

I heard, they said that Tian was a widower.

A widower?

I don't know if it's real or just a joke. But what do I care?

Ck.

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"Part ... Ma." I hugged Mom from behind. This is what I do every day when I am at home.

"August, baby. Tumben's up.?"

"Yes dong Bu, I want to help you cook." I said without taking off my arms.

Mom smiled. Seeing him smile like that makes me happy. After Dad left, I only had Mom. Mom is the only person I have now.

"Mr ..." I put the dishes I washed into the shelf. "I want to go for a walk, Mommy's coming?"

"Where?" Ask Mom who's still cleaning our breakfast table.

"To Mall. We're eating out, and I'm gonna buy you something."

Mother seemed to think a little, but after that her head nodded.

And so, this is where we both are now, Mom and I are walking around the Mall, which we know how many floors we have passed. I brought Mom to buy what you need, not just for your needs, I also asked Mom to shop for kitchen needs and others.

After feeling tired, finally me and Mom decided to fill the stomach that has been protesting for fill since. But before the two of us entered the fast food restaurant, suddenly there was a little boy who ran without seeing me in front of him. Then ...

"Aww ..." The boy grimaced with an anxious face.

"Oh my goodness .. baby, you don't papa?" I asked worriedly, I immediately crouched down when I saw the boy fall on the floor. Even with Mom who was crouching next to me.

"No papa." Her great-grandson along with her little head shook her head. The boy glanced at me timidly. "Auntie I'm sorry."

Oh my God, why am I so anxious?

I smiled, and helped him to stand up. But that smile did not last long as my eyes caught someone who was running a little towards us, being accompanied by another woman I knew was the nanny of this adorable little girl.

"God ...." I saw Mama Maya, my former mother-in-law was so shocked. "Na - Nayara." His speech stammered.

"Mrs ..." Overshipped.

There was a bit of happiness when I was able to meet Mama Maya, my former mother-in-law who used to be so kind to me. And my mother, who was smiling beside me. I hurried over to her, then grabbed her hand for me to kiss. After that I hugged him. Hugging the body of the woman I love after my mother.

And here I am now, here I am,

We all decided to have lunch together. After five years, and this is our first meeting. There are so many things that my mom talks about. And I couldn't believe it myself, when Mama apologized again with her regret for me and my mother for her son's behavior first.

I saw the look of sadness from that shady face. Without Mama Maya knowing, that I and Mom have forgiven and forgotten what happened before. It was just a part of the past that I had forgotten a long time ago.

"He's Cheery, Tian's daughter."

I looked at Mama Maya, and then my gaze turned to the little child who was eating being fed by her nanny.

So, the little boy who has been making me anxious since then is his son Tian and Dance?

Her face is so similar. Cheery is so pretty. Cheery is really a fusion between Tian and Dance. That four-year-old little girl was so cute and adorable as well. I couldn't stop looking at him myself because the boy really made me anxious.

"grandmother ..." Cheery looked at the grandmother. "Who is this beautiful aunt?" I don't know why I wanted to hug her when I saw those two round eyes staring at me right now.

"Beautiful aunt?" Mama Maya looked at me with a smile.

Again, the tiny head nodded. "Yes, because the Tante is so pretty." It was his great-grandson that made us all smile when we heard him.

Just as I was about to introduce who I was to her, at that moment my previously open jaw now clenched back when I heard someone's voice from behind my back.

"Ma .. sorry I'm late." My body stiffened instantly upon hearing that raucous voice. The voice I was familiar with though with a slightly dull breath.

"Son Tian?" I saw Mom looking back, as Mom stood up from her seat.

Neither Mother nor Tian, maybe the two of them were both surprised when the two met again. But not with me. I was still in my position, not wanting to look back even just to see it.

"Mother?" Tian immediately grabbed Mom's hand, then kissed the back of her hand. "Mother, how are you?"

"Good, son." Mom smiled. "You alone?"

"Good, Mom."

After greeting each other, I finally returned to face a situation like this. Being in the middle of them made me feel uncomfortable. Even with that man, I knew that Tian was the same as me. I just kept quiet, not one bit willing to join their chat. I only answered when Mom or Mama Maya asked, after that I went back to silence. I prefer to play the phone and occasionally smile when I see the little girl chattering indistinctly.

I asked Mom to come home first, but Mama Maya forbade. The middle-aged woman was heartbreaking and held back so that Mom and I would not leave. Inevitably, I also according to when Mom agreed.

Although my eyes are on the phone screen, but not with my hearing. Little, I heard a lot when Mama Maya told me about Cheery as a child. But that's not what now makes me take my eyes off the phone screen, I was silent for a moment when Mama Maya accidentally said about Dance.

So Dance left Cheery?

Shouldn't I have seen Dance since? I thought that Tari didn't come with them because the woman was busy. But ...

I shook my head, whatever Mama Maya said didn't make me want to know. Because to me, it's none of my business. I'm not interested in hearing anything else about them. Let it be a part of my past.

But ... I don't know why I saw Tian, and damn even that guy was looking at me. I took a quick look at it, and then decided to see Cheery, I didn't think their lives were the way I thought they were.

Not to Tian, I just don't have the heart with Cheery. How could Dance be so willing to leave such a beautiful and adorable princess like Cheery?

Without me knowing, if it turns out secretly there is someone who is paying attention to my confusion.

"Mr ... Aunt Naya is pretty, right?"

Her great-grandson surprised me. I turned my head at once, and it was true that the man was looking at me. I hurriedly threw out a glance with a stale face. Even with Tian, the man felt uncomfortable when he realized that his actions were inviting a lot of attention from Mama and also my mother.

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