I'm also giving up

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Five years later,

The sound of music that deafens the ears, and the room that is minimal will be the first thing when our bodies enter the room of a nightlife like this. Just like me. Every night I am here to entertain everyone. And I'm in the club tonight for work.

Yes, my marriage of only a few months ended up running aground with a hammer beat from the judge. After I officially became a widow, at that time I went back to live in Mother's house. I was lucky to have a mother who loved me so much. I thought at that time Mother would be angry and disappointed at my decision to end my marriage with Tian. But in fact I was wrong, it was my mother who apologized to me. He felt guilty for having betrothed me first, and Mom was very sorry to find out that I was unhappy.

One year after Tian and I officially separated, I decided to work as a Disc Jockey or we know as a DJ.

I'm Nayara, I'm Nayara,

I never cared what others said about me. About my life, or about whatever it is that's related to me. I decided to become a DJ because I wanted to continue my ideals first. Since long ago, more precisely when I was in High School I have learned a lot how to become a DJ. Until in a few months I myself, then I returned to learning it, helped by my cousin's friend who had become a DJ first.

My decision to work in such a nightlife place certainly made me always looked down upon by some people. But I don't give a shit.

Because in my opinion, there is nothing wrong with the work I do now. I'm just a DJ, not selling myself.

Even so, I admit working in a nightlife place like that is indeed very dangerous. Not infrequently, there are only striped nose men who tease me. Offering me a lot of money in exchange for sleeping with him. Even every night, I should be able to keep myself from the gazes of the land crocodiles who look at me like a starving man. Other than my body movements while playing music, maybe it was my clothes that made them look at me like that. Actually I was uncomfortable, but I had to get used to this kind of skimpy clothes.

I worked as a DJ for almost four years. And that's how long I can enjoy my life now. Slowly, I could also forget Tian's shadow from my head. I enjoy my life now, especially when I am surrounded by good people around me. Not only in Jakarta, but I've been surrounding other big cities as well. While working, I was not alone. I have an assistant and also a cousin who is my manager. The two of them were always looking after me, protecting me from the bad guys, and because of them I was finally able to become a very famous DJ.

And it felt like it was all a dream to me.

"Ra, tomorrow we go back to Jakarta." Said Geril, my cousin. "There's more work there."

I, who was sitting next to him, just nodded.

Hearing Jakarta, it feels familiar to me. Because it's been almost three years that Mom and I have been living there. Living in my father's old house. Mom and I decided to move to Jakarta because of the wishes of her little brother Dad. In addition to the mandate, Om Beri also felt that he had to take full responsibility to take care of me and my mother. Because other than him, me and my mom don't have anyone else.

"Lo, remember Revan, right?"

I turned my head, looking at my cousin's sister with narrowed eyes.

"Tomorrow the opening night of his new club, he wants you as his DJ." My head nodded. Although tired, but this is my job now. I can't complain, I have to stay up for my own happiness and that of my mother.

Moms, Moms,

Remembering him makes me miss him now. Mom is the greatest woman I know. Ever since I parted with Tian, it was my mother who always encouraged me. He gave me a lot of advice, and one of the pieces of advice I remember up to this point is - never hate Tian, Tari and her family. She also asked me to forgive them, with or without them even apologizing.

Without you knowing, that I've forgiven them all long before you asked.

I don't want to live in hatred because I know it won't make my life quiet. I just want to live happily now. And I got it too. I am happy because there is still a mother, and I am also happy with my loneliness at this time. Although she had asked me several times to introduce her to her daughter-in-law immediately, Mom wanted me to get married again soon, and I wanted to see me happy soon.

"Honey ... when will you introduce your future husband to Mom?"

I who was helping him cut the vegetables immediately smiled. "I don't want to get married again, Mom."

"Why?" Ask while putting all the vegetables I cut into pieces earlier into the pan. "Mom think it's time for you to get married again, you're beautiful. Wait until when?"

"Don't know, Mom." I smile. I don't know why every time I hear the word marriage, it scares me.

"Listen to my dear mother, every human being has a different destiny." Mom cupped both sides of my face, it seemed like she could read my mind. "You have failed before, but no one knows if now your destiny will be happy after experiencing that failure, son." My mother smiled lovingly at me. "Mom's sure of that, you'll be happy."

Be happy?

If indeed I will be happy, may I ask to get someone who will accept me as I am and love me with all my heart?

Because I'm afraid to go back to loving the wrong people.

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In a different place, though,

"Excuse me, sir."

Tian turned his head, even with Rama who was currently in the room

"What's up, Nana?"

"In front there was Mr. Revan, he said he wanted to meet with Mr." Said the woman who was nodding back by Tian.

"All right, get him in."

Nana, his secretary nodded before he and Rama came out and let Revan in.

Revan was one of Tian's best friends when they were in college. Revan, who had just returned from abroad a few months ago, decided to open some business in Jakarta. And the man is one of the biggest nightclub owners in Jakarta.

"What's wrong?" Tian asked so Revan was already sitting before him.

"Gue wants to hang out tonight."

"For?" Tian asked, how badly Revan doesn't want to get married, right?

"New nightclub opening." There's nothing wrong with Revan reopening such a nightlife venue again. Because as far as Tian knew, some of Revan's nightclubs were all successful.

"It doesn't seem to." Tian returned to focus on his laptop screen.

"Come one, Tian. You have to come. We'll have a party there with the other guys." Persuade Revan with a very annoying face.

"Entar I'll know you as a sexy girl." Revan chuckles. "Who knows if you want to get married again."

"Damn it.!" Tian snorted, choosing to ignore Revan and return to work. Meanwhile, Revan decides to leave after he convinces Tian to come to the opening of his new nightclub. Revan forced Tian to come, and luckily, Tian nodded.

Tian is indeed always absent every time Revan holds an event. He was never present because of his busyness lately which makes the man can not go anywhere. In addition to being busy working, there are also other creatures who always wait for him at home. The figure of a small creature that he entrusted every day in the house of his Grandpa and Grandma.

Yes, at her wedding with Dance, Tian has been blessed with a little daughter named Tanisha Cheery Aydan.

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The sound of music that deafens the ears and the flickering flickering of lights that are minimal will make everyone there feel free. I played music, I danced and occasionally sang songs I played with music I had modified. Everyone exclaimed, asking me to take a picture together. I am happy to follow what is their will.

Some of the songs I had played, until in the last few minutes I nodded as Geril went on stage and asked me to come with him.

As soon as I, Geril and my assistant were about to enter the room, I suddenly jolted with my body stiffening instantly. There, in front of me right now, I saw someone who was looking at me just like I am now. I'm sure he was just as surprised as I was.

People I avoid and don't want to meet. Now, that person is in front of my eyes.

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