I'm also giving up

Love me without sharing

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After one week,

"What's up, Mom?" I approached Mother who was sitting on the sofa in the middle room. When I arrived, Mom had just ended her call with whom she had no idea.

He smiled at me, "Son, Jeng Maya just called. He invited us to come to his house tonight."

I, who was sitting next to him, looked at Mom while frowning. "What's the show, ma'am?"

"He said they would have a small thanksgiving at his house." Said Mother later. I, who was not surprised, was silent. Since our first meeting happened a while ago at a Mall, Mama Maya doesn't seem to want to lose track of us anymore. She did not ask for my mobile number directly, but Mama Maya asked for my mother's mobile number, she said there was no other intention, Mama Maya just wanted us all to stay in a good relationship, and did not break the cord even though we have no relationship anymore.

And my mother confirmed it.

"Where? do you want to come with Mom?" Ask my mom, which makes me a little confused.

Should I not accompany Mom?

Not without reason, because I knew that if I came with Mom, the greatest possibility was that I would meet Tian again. And because that's what makes me a little uncomfortable. Not because of Mama, Papa or Cheery. Really, whenever I want to be on good terms with all of them. But there's something that makes me actually want to avoid them.

Tian.

Tian is my biggest reason right now. I don't want to meet or have anything to do with him.

The more we met, the more we wanted to hate him. And I don't want to dirty my own heart just because of that guy.

"How dear, do you want to come? or did you just go there yourself?"

I stared at my mother, letting Mom go by herself was impossible. But to go with him is too difficult for me. If it wasn't my ex-in-law's family that invited us, then I would be happy to accompany Mom.

But ...

I don't want to be reunited with Tian. I don't know why I wanted to avoid it. Especially after the two of us met again at the peak of that time. At that moment, I saw Tian's attitude slightly change for me. I couldn't escape as the man kept watching me from the rearview mirror in his car.

Back then, from the trip to the location, Tian secretly noticed me often. Although his eyes pokus riding, but occasionally the man often glanced at me. I know because I know it. I don't know what made Tian keep looking at me like that. Staring at me with a look.

Even to the point where the evening party began, I who had just finished immediately approached Geril and his friends who were sitting not far from the stage. Once again, I saw Tian smiling at me. Instead of being happy, I was frightened by his unusual attitude.

I was surprised even more then, because Tian came at the right time. The man helped me, helped me out of the ignorant hands of the goddamn man who teased me when I just came out of the bathroom.

"Aren't you papa?" He asked when he managed to take me away from the three people who were drunk heavily.

I glanced at him with my chest still pounding hard in fear, a second later my head shook. Tian, the man took off the jacket he was wearing for him to put on my shoulder. But I pulled over, and gave it back.

"Thank you." Without wanting to see her again, I immediately rushed away from there. Why Tian? why did that man come to help me?

"Sinya."

My footsteps stopped, I kept quiet without looking back. I wanted to keep walking away from him, but somehow my legs suddenly felt hard to move when he called my name.

"Naya, can we talk for a second." I could hear the voices of his people whirring a little.

"I'm sorry, I have to go back there." Yeah, because I'm gonna ask Geril to come home tonight.

"Naya wait. I really want to talk to you."

"I'm sorry, I can't."

I turned around, saw him now. For a moment the views of the two of us met. I took a deep breath to ease the pounding of my heart as I watched Tian re-inspire a smile for me.

"Can we talk?" Returned master.

"I can't talk to strangers for long." I saw Tian was a little surprised by my attitude. The man nodded before then he returned.

"Just for a minute."

"I don't have much time. If you want to talk, please.!" Maybe I look so mean, but I don't care. I just wanted Tian to know that I had completely kept my word at that time.

If someday we both meet again, I will consider you a stranger.

So I really kept to my own words.

And this is where Tian and I are now.

We both decided to talk in the garden behind Villa, away from the people who would most likely recognize and see us here.

Silence, that's what happened when we both fell silent. I don't know what Tian is going to talk to me about, I'm waiting for him.

"Mrs?" I shut up, gave him time to talk. I saw the man breathing a long sigh. "Sorry." Tian said that while lowering his head.

"For?" I'm still not looking in his direction.

"For everything I've ever done with you, long ago."

After waiting for so long, I finally heard it myself. Listen directly to his apology.

"I'm sorry, I." Again, the word came back out of his lips.

I still can't believe a man is selfish and doesn't feel like Tian's apologizing. But when I saw the look in his eyes, I knew that Tian was saying those words sincerely. There's no pretense in it.

"I'm sorry for all my bad attitude with you." There's a pause in between his sentences. "I know I was wrong, I know you hate me now. I really deserved it. But after apologizing, whether you forgive me or not, at least it makes me feel a little calm."

Tian looked at me now, even with me. We were both silent for a while.

"That's all I want to say to you."

"I've forgiven you, long before you even apologized." I can see Tian back shocked by what I said. The man smiled, and I hurriedly threw my face to the side. I don't want to see that smile. Maybe it's time for me to make peace with the past.

Forgiving doesn't mean me and Tian will come back close. No. gabe.

I didn't want that to happen, even though I used to have more feelings for her, but as time went on, I was finally able to erase that race to her slowly.

I can forget about Tian little by little.

I just want to enjoy my life in peace now. I just want to enjoy my solitude right now. Before later I found a person who really right and sincerely loves me.

Love me without having to share.

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"How about baby?"

I looked at Mom with a smile. "Alright, Mom. I'll go with Mom."

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