I'm also giving up

Secretly likes me

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"Ma ..."

I looked up, looking at the man who was currently sitting opposite me.

"I'm serious about what I said, Ra."

"But, Fi." I shook my head slowly. "I ..."

"I don't care what your past is, I don't care about our age difference. I just want you to believe, if I really love and sincerely love you."

"Fi ..."

Somehow I always run out of words every time I face Raffi Abrar Dharmendra. Since two years ago, for the first time I was back in the meeting with a younger class during my first school. Our meeting happened accidentally. Me and the guy Raffi used to call me met at one of the nightclubs while I was DJing there, while Raffi himself was attending the birthday of one of his friends. Not to mention, Raffi and Geril's house are apparently close together.

Raffi, this man who has been close to me for almost two years. Even though we both had a few years of age, it didn't make the man give up. Raffi always expressed his feelings for me, the man said he wanted to marry me, but again and again I always refused him for the same reason.

I feel unworthy of Raffi.

Apart from being two years older than her, I am also a widow. And I know who Raffi Abrar Dharmendra really is.

Young and handsome man, also a surgeon. First child of a celebrity couple.

Raffi is a kind and friendly man. Almost every woman admired him. Alexa Sadrina, a famous model and also the daughter of the owner of the hospital where Raffi works today.

Therefore, I feel inferior and inappropriate to be the lover of Raffi Abrar Dharmendra.

"Rb ... Please give me a chance."

I know Raffi meant it, that guy was too good for me all along. Although I always refused and avoided it, but it did not make Raffi discouraged. Just like now, Raffi re-expressed his feelings to me. But I am still confused by my own feelings. To be honest, until now I have not thought about remarrying, I prefer to enjoy this loneliness until later that time comes. Where I can open the door of my heart back to other men.

Seeing me who was just silent, Raffi gave up again.

"All right, I'm not gonna force you. I'll keep waiting, until you really accept my love."

I came back to disappoint him. I shouldn't have acted that way with Raffi. But somehow Raffi was so stubborn, the man never gave up even though I had rejected him several times. And Raffi, that man can still smile. Even though behind that smile was a disappointment that he was hiding.

Raffi and I spent almost two hours together in a cafe. The man never stopped making me smile. But at that very moment, somehow my feelings suddenly became unsettled.

I suddenly thought of Mom.

"What's wrong?" Raffi asked, as usual the man seemed to have been able to read my thoughts.

"I remember Mom."

"Is your mother sick?"

"No." Answer me while shaking. "Why do I suddenly remember you."

"Well, we're going home now."

"Aren't you papa?"

Raffi chuckled, "I don't papa, I'll take you home?"

My head nodded.

During the trip, I tried several times to contact Mom, but her number was still not active. I finally decided to contact Lani, and I felt a little calm when Lani told me that Mom was going to the restaurant owned by Geril family.

As soon as we got to the front of the house, I was a little surprised to see a black sedan parked there. The car was very foreign to me, I also do not know if there are people who are visiting the house.

Not wanting to guess, so I decided to go inside and see who owned the black sedan parked in my yard.

When I entered the house, I was so shocked that both eyes were round when I saw Tian and Cheery in the house, and they were both at home with Mom.

What is Tian doing here?

Why are they both with Mom?

While I was still looking at him in disbelief, I heard a voice that sounded so shrill in my ears calling my name.

"Beautiful aunt ..."

I quickly regained my senses, then looked at that innocent and funny face with a smile. I hurriedly walked over to Mom, followed by Raffi who was walking behind me. After Raffi kissed Mom's hand, I also introduced Raffi to Tian and Cheery.

"Fi ... introduce, this is Mas Tian and also his daughter, Cheery."

Raffi extended his hand, even with Tian. The two of them shook hands with gazes I couldn't read. But I saw Raffi seemed to be asking for an explanation, asking who they were to me through his eyes.

"They .. they." I glanced at Tian, who was unlucky that the man was looking at me, Cheery and also Mother in turn. "Mas Tian is my friend." I saw Tian a little surprised, but a second later the man smiled faintly.

Yeah, I'd better introduce Tian as my friend. It was not yet time for Raffi to find out who Tian really was. I don't know why it feels so hard for me to introduce Tian as my ex-husband. Although sooner or later, maybe Raffi will find out who the man who was once my husband was.

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"Be careful, Fi."

I drove Raffi into the car, the man left after he got a call from the hospital, and of course after checking on Mom.

Yes, Mother.

I only realized when I saw Mom's slightly injured hand. It's fitting that I didn't feel calm all day, it's worth it that I want to go home and meet Mom, it turns out my mother had a small disaster.

I went back inside the house after the car Raffi was riding in was no longer visible.

My footsteps stopped when I saw Mom and Cheery laughing together. I saw the two so very close, even Cheery always hugged Mom with her tiny mouth that never stopped babbling. Without even knowing it, I smiled too.

But my smile did not last long when my eyes accidentally collided with the dark eyes of the man. Apparently, Tian was looking at me. For a few seconds the two of us exchanged glances before then I remembered something that made me feel both annoyed and embarrassed.

Diary book.

I was in a hurry to throw my face away. Dan Tian, I can see the man smiling while shaking his head slowly.

"Why are you still standing there, honey?"

Mom's voice instantly turned my eyes to her. I smiled and sat down next to my mother.

"Once again, I want to thank Nak Tian and Cheery, for helping and bringing Mom home."

"It's okay, Mom. I'm glad I could help you."

"Yes, Grandma. Cheery was also happy to let Grandma know."

Oh my goodness .. whose son is he?

"Thank you, baby." Mom hugged Cheery back. "Have you eaten?"

The petite head looked up, looking at Mother from below while shaking her head. "No, Grandma. Me and Papa haven't had lunch since." His great-grandson while glancing at Tian. Mom and I looked at each other.

"Geez baby .. Yeah, we had lunch together here, how?"

"No need, Mom." Sela Tian fast. "We can eat later."

"Son Tian." My mom was parsing, while I was just staring at her flat. "It is not good to refuse. Think of lunch this time as an expression of Mom's gratitude to you and Cheery, too, huh?"

"But, Ma'am ..."

"Yes, Pa. We ate with Grandma and her pretty aunt. Aunty, can I eat here?"

Instantly I turned my head, looking at him with a big smile.

"May dong dear."

Without even looking at Tian who was still looking at me, I immediately brought Cheery to come with me into the dining room.

"You're sitting here sweet, let Auntie and Aunt Lani prepare the food first."

"Okay, Auntie."

I smiled, pinched softly at the padlock's cheek with anxiety.

After a few minutes, I, who was helped by Bi Lani, prepared some food for lunch today.

And this is where we all are now,

Me, Mother, Tian and Cheery were at the same place and table. The atmosphere suddenly became awkward for me as well as Tian, but not with Mom and Cheery either. Only the two of them were the ones who made the atmosphere inside the dining room turn warm.

"Sir Tian, why haven't you married again?" Suddenly the question came out of Mother's lips, making Tian slightly stop his activities that were devouring the food in his mouth.

Before answering, the man looked at me first.

"Not yet, Mom."

"Why? though I'm sure out there are a lot of women who want to be the same, Nak Tian."

"I haven't thought about getting married again, Mom. I just want to be alone first and focus on taking care of Cheery."

Mom smiled warmly. "Cheery also needs the figure of a Mama by his side." Mother looked at Cheery who was still feeding the food into her tiny mouth. "He needs the affection of a Mama, you don't forget that.!"

Tian simply smiled and nodded, then the man's eyes turned to Cheery. "I'm still scared, Mom."

"Fearful?" Mother asked, she was astonished by what Tian had just said. "Fear why?"

Tian looked at Mother.

"I'm afraid of making mistakes again, I'm afraid of being a fool again. Ma." Tian was silent for a moment, for some reason the man was looking at me now. And damn, I can't throw my eyes off this time. I wonder what Tian will say after this.

"Because of my stupidity, I didn't even realize that there were people who secretly liked me."

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