Honeyed

Honey Ep.24 (SEASON 2)

There is no such thing as a life that is always smooth without calamities and trials. Even the famous toll road smoothly without traffic, sometimes there are problems in it. This is life in the world. Which man does not want to be happy in his days?. Who wants to lose something so precious and so in love with his life?. Some people say that the wheel of life is spinning, not always the rich will remain rich, one day will feel the name poor. Not everyone who is happy will always be happy in his life, surely one day or one day will feel the name of sadness, crying, and disappointment. This is how it feels, a live roll coaster. No matter how God wants destiny in our lives, our sweet bitters as ordinary people can only accept, even though sometimes full of wounds and tears.

Not even a year old my little Marwah went to school in kindergarten. The test of life comes back to my happy and perfect family. That storm this time was truly terrifying to me, capable of even killing my heart. The test that was able to make my bones feel dysfunctional again, and suddenly my life was paralyzed instantly. Right, not my legs are paralyzed, but my life is paralyzed. How not?, husband and wife are like one body, if one of them is in the worst condition, then the other must be able to sustain it, whatever weight the burden must be on the back, and the other must be able to support it, we must not run away, we must not give up, let alone leave him alone.

Today, my heretic who had willingly left both of his parents, just for the sake of serving me, suddenly felt a very sudden pain. I've never seen him feel that much pain. Even when struggling to give birth to Marwah, my wife was really very strong. But this time, he just lay in his bed and then cried out in tears to call my name. I was very panicked, Marwah also cried to see Uminya who suddenly roared and cried very hard. I immediately carried Aisyah's body and took her to one of the hospitals. While Marwah I put a while on Mom. I laid Aisyah in the back seat. Along the way, my heart grew more and more ungodly. Aisyah kept holding her stomach. Her face was very pale, completely pale. I wiped away my tears that I couldn't contain. It's not strong to see my wife in pain until that. I drove my car very fast. In my mind, I have to get to the hospital. My wife needs to be helped immediately, I don't want any of this to be too late. I was really in a state of chaos, my body was shaking, cold sweat pouring down the shirt I was wearing. Really very panicked, more panicked than when carrying Aisyah when contractions.

"Patience, dear, Fahmi is trying as soon as possible. So we can get to the hospital quickly. You are strong, baby. You're powerful. Hiks.. hiks,". I said on the sidelines of my growing panic.

"Maaaaass......??!!!. Sakiittttt...!!, please Asiyah mas Fahmiiiii....!!, Aisha do not kuaattt......!!!,".

All the way to the hospital, that's all that came out of my wife's mouth. Aisha is getting out of control. His face is getting pale. I kept driving my car. It's an emergency, I can't be stable in driving the car. My wife should get help right away. The streets of Yogyakarta today are quite crowded, but I am grateful not to have a very severe traffic jam. Fifteen minutes later, Aisyah and I will be at the hospital. I believe God will help me and help my wife. My forehead is strong, I believe Ayesha is strong. I was confused, why suddenly Aisyah screamed in such pain. Aisyah never told me anything, including about the pain she had experienced first. He even includes people who live his days with a healthy lifestyle. It really made me shock and very panicked uncontrollably.

The car I use keeps coming, I don't care. My current focus should be on getting to the hospital soon. I parked my car right in front of the IGD room door. I went straight down and then called the existing health worker.

"Toolooong....!!, sister!!. Please my wife, this is a real emergency!!,".

Some of the health staff who were on guard at the IGD were quick and brought a push-bed to help my wife. I immediately carried Aisyah's very cold body and placed her on the push bed that had been prepared. I keep accompanying my wife, I don't want to see her go through all that pain alone. The ladder I held tight, my mouth never stopped praying for him.

"Courage my wife. Fahmi's here, baby. Please, strong Ayesha. Aisyah should be able to fight her pain. Fahmi loves you dik,". I said in my heart.

"I'm sorry, you can go out and wait in the waiting room. We'll do something for your father's wife,". Said one of the medical personnel.

"Can't I accompany my wife here?. I want to be next to him,". My lob to the medic who told me to.

"I'm sorry sir, this is a hospital procedure. Please come out immediately, so that we immediately give action to your wife,".

"Alright,". I can only surrender.

I came out of the action room, and then sat in the waiting room. I don't care, with many pairs of eyes that keep seeing myself busy wiping away tears. My wife is struggling in there. I could even feel her struggle to fight the pain that several hours had tormented her. I was still thinking, what exactly happened to Aisyah?. He never complained to me or to my mother. Why did he suddenly fall ill to such a degree?. It's my fault, Aisyah is sick because I'm not paying attention to her. I was negligent with her, I should have known what my wife was feeling. But the fact is, I never even knew. To this day, my wife is still fighting her pain. Hopefully the result is not too bad, hopefully it is just the usual pain. Hopefully my wife can come home soon and be back together, joking and taking care of our daughter Marwah together. I'm sure at home right now, Wawa is in confusion with her Oma. Wawa must have been very afraid to see Uminya who suddenly shouted very loudly and really like a person who was getting torment. I just first noticed there was a pain that could make people scream that badly.

"Aisyah, I'm sorry Fahmi. If Fahmi's not paying attention to you. If Fahmi never realized the complaints you are feeling dear. Sorry Fahmi, I promise. I will never let you feel that kind of pain. Enough, it's enough today that Fahmi saw you crying and roaring my annoyance my wife,". I said in my heart.

It has been an hour, not a single medical personnel came out and gave news of the results of the Aisyah examination. Why until so long ago, I even felt like wanting to force my way in and break through the action chamber. I want to see my Aisyah. How is he doing now?. Why so long?. What actions Aisyah is actually receiving from the medical personnel. What's so bad?. Oh God, save my wife.

"Halooo....!!, hellooo...!!. Fahmi son, this is mom son. How's the examination, son?. Aisyah why?,". The voice from across the phone was so panicked and nervous. My mother called me, apparently, there have been several unheard calls.

"Ha-halo Mom, Fahmi doesn't know how Aisyah Bu is. There has been no information about the situation of Aisha. Fahmi is still waiting for the results of his actions,".

"It's been an hour ma'am. It had been an hour Aisyah was given action. But there has been no results or information about the state of Aisyah. Fahmi should how Mom?. Fahmi's afraid. Hikss. hiks... hiks..,". My crying is unbearable anymore. I shared my sorrows with my first greatest woman before Ayesha.

"You are so much Istighfar son. Never break up praying for your wife. Whatever the outcome, I ask. Mother's son must be a strong man. You must be strong, son. You have three women you have to take care of,".

"Mom, Fahmi doesn't want to lose Aisyah Ma'am. Fahmi's very scared,".

"Istighfar, son. You focus on Aisyah there. Do not forget to pray and eat. Please if there's anything you tell mommy son. I'm still waiting for the information,".

"Bu, Fahmi and Aisyah nitip Marwah used to be Bu. Sorry Fahmi's been a hassle, mom,".

"It's okay. I had fun, let alone have a grandson as smart and beautiful as Marwah. You are patient, son. Mother's prayer is always with you my children,".

"Thank you very much Mother. I'm careful at home, Mom. Don't be so tired. Later Fahmi will tell you again if there is clear information about Aisyah yah Bu,".

"Yeah son, I'll turn off the phone. Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi,".

"Waallaikumussalam warohmatulli wabarokatuh, mom,".

I held my phone tightly, my watch hand still showing at one o'clock in the afternoon. I even forgot to do the Dzuhur prayer. I decided to go and go to the nearest mosque in this hospital. Want to give up on everything I feel and I carry. I believe that God will never give me a trial beyond the limits of my own ability as His servant. This is clearly the promise that God gives to man, so as never to give up the grace and help of God. As in the Qur'an the letter of Al-Baqarah verse 286 which means :

Allah does not burden a man except according to his capacity. He got the reward (of virtue) he worked for and he got the punishment (of evil) he did. (They pray): “Yes our Lord, do not punish us if we forget or we are wrong. Our Lord, do not burden us with a heavy burden, as You have burdened those before us. Our Lord, do not give us what we cannot bear. Give us something; forgive us; and have mercy on us. You are our Helper, so help us against the disbelievers.”

From the above verse we can understand that God does not burden a person but according to his ability. And this is God's promise, so it is impossible for God to burden us with a test we cannot bear. Then Allah will reward the good if the person being tested is patient and does good and seeks a way out in a way that Allah wills, instead, God will sin if he is not patient and seeks a way out in a way that God does not desire.

I have to be patient, I have to be passionate. Although the fear so rumbling makes the pain and pain in the heart. Not ready, not ready, but I'll never be ready to lose someone I love so much. Moreover, he had accepted me and accompanied me so painstakingly and so patiently. If there is a man who wants to lose someone he loves, there are only two possibilities that occur, the person is crazy or crazy and is no longer loving and loving.

I walked and took ablution water, it felt so good, when I washed my face with ablution water. Very cool and comfortable. It feels like all the burden and pain is gone with the ablution water that falls down. I entered the mosque and then performed four prayers of dzuhur prayer. After the prayer, I lifted up my hands and asked God in all humility, that my wife be given strength, be given health. Man must pray, beg, and humble himself before his Lord. Man cannot be arrogant, he who is arrogant will not raise his hands and beg and pray for the One who has made him exist in the world.

“And when My servants ask you about Me, (answer), that I am near. I grant the request of the one who prays when he asks Me. Then let them fulfill (all My commandments) and let them believe in Me, that they may always be in the truth.” (QS. Al Baqara: 186)

If there is a man who is a crybaby. Maybe that person is me. I don't know how many times I've cried, how many tears have repeatedly fallen. I do not want anything for now, O Allah, other than Aisha to be healed and come back with family. Marwah was very small, she still desperately needed the affection and guidance of Uminya. What do I have to answer when little Wawa killed Uminya?. I don't want my daughter to know that Uminya is sick. Trying to get up and strong. Psychic Marwah should not be disturbed, especially in the time of his growth. He should remain happy and cheerful no matter how difficult he may be.

After finishing his degree, I then walked out of the mosque and headed to the front of the ER room. The more daytime the hospital is getting crowded, like many other patients who just come in and come. I hastened my steps, hopefully there is news and information about Aisyah. I hope there is no bad news that I will receive. I hope that.