Honeyed

Honey Ep.3 (SEASON 2)

What a pity my son's only fate. All of this I'm the one who's wrong. I made the wrong decision and move. I guess, the steps I took were right, and would make Fatih my only son happy. In fact, the opposite is what happened. Three days after Aisyah's house from my former daughter-in-law's house, from all those very bitter incidents. My son Fatih often daydreams. Which mother is strong to see her child just daydreaming?. Moreover, Fatih is my only son. It was inconceivable how broken my heart was to see his current condition. At that time, I was really in a state of worry. As a mother, I just want my only child to have a full family, to feel the affection and warmth of his Mother and Father. Really, that's all. I failed at being a mother. I don't know how many drops of my tears have fallen crying over Fatih's condition.

Tuesday, five November 2015. It was the eighth day of Aisyah's former daughter-in-law's marriage to her new husband. And eight days later, I wept for my son Fatih. His condition is getting more concerning. His psychological condition began to be disturbed. He daydreamed, hugging Aisha's clothes, looking at her wedding photo with Aisha, crying and calling out Aisha's name. His weight is falling. He's hard to tell to eat. Once upon a time, I tried to bring my son Fatih to breathe fresh air. I invite himself to just walk around and look around at one of the malls in Jakarta. At that time, my son Fatih and I were sitting in one of the eating places. Not much was done by my son Fatih other than daydreaming, as his lips mentioned the name of his ex-wife. At that time, there was a monk whose height was similar to Aisha, and he also wore a veil like Aisha. Suddenly my son immediately stood up and approached the woman by saying the name Ayesha. I panicked, as Fatih directly held the woman's hand very tightly while crying very loudly. I saw a terrified expression from the look in the girl's eyes, until the older brother of the veiled woman came, and immediately hit Fatih hard in the face. Fatih fell to the floor, but she still called out Aisyah's name. I immediately shouted and hugged my son Fatih. My heart was broken as a mother. With a cry, I could only bring my son back home. Since then, I have not dared to take Fatih to go far again.

"Son?, eat yuk dear. Mother has prepared your favorite vegetable soup,".

I approached my son who was busy daydreaming in his room, looking at a photo of Aisyah.

"Aisha?, brother?. You cook my favorite soup, baby?,". Said my son while looking at me.

"Astaghfirullah, son. This is Mommy, not Aisha. Aisyah's not here, she's not in this house, son. Hicks... hyks...,". I was really devastated by my son's situation.

"Mother?, then where is my Aisyah Bun?, Fatih misses her very much. When will Aisyah come home to this Mother?. Hicks.. hiks... hiks..,".

"Prophey baby, Aisha is busy. Aisyah is not busy. He'll meet you. Now Fatih is eating the same Mother?,".

I tried to persuade my son to eat. His body was very thin, he was very difficult to eat. I don't know what else to do. All the household assistants were completely gone, they chose to stop working.

"Mother?, what if Fatih eats. Is Fatih's coming?,". Said my son Fatih with hopeful eyes.

"Yes, Aisha is coming. You have to be patient, you have to be strong, you have to be healthy. So, Fatih must eat, son. We're facing everything together,".

"Okay ready Bun, let's eat Mother. Fatih wants to see Fatih's angel soon,". I saw my son Fatih walking excitedly towards the dining room.

I was devastated as a mother. My only son suffered such a heavy psychic blow. All this because of me. Had it been then, I had not followed the evil man's orders. Maybe right now, I can still have a daughter-in-law as beautiful, and as good as Aisyah. Perhaps, even my son will not experience stress like this. I was confused, what should I do for my son?. Should I ask Aisyah for help just once to come meet Fatih?. But, it would be too evil if I told Aisyah to meet Fatih. At present, Aisyah's status is the legal wife of a man. I don't want to ruin Aisyah's happiness a second time. Nak Aisyah is an amazing and very beautiful woman. He deserves to be happy with his partner and his new life. But what about the fate of my only son Fatih?. I won't let him be in such a state of continuous wanting.

"I'm sorry, Mother, Fatih,". I said while sitting at the dining table. In front of Fatih.

"Mother why apologize?, let's eat Mother. So that Mother is also healthy, so you can immediately meet your daughter-in-law who is very beautiful,".

"Yes-yes, son. This Mother will also eat. You are strong, baby. Fatih had a lot of inget same God well,". I said as I wiped my tears that were about to fall down.

My son Fatih ate very well. There was a lot of great hope from his face to be able to meet Aisyah. My appetite disappeared for a second. I want to feel like a very strong cry. But I'm a mother, I have to be strong in front of my son. What would Fatih be like, if her Mother was weak and dropped?. My son has no one but me. I had to face everything even if it was just the two of me with my son.

"Fatih?, we pray together. Mommy wants to hang out with you,". Hope Fatih wants to, to be honest. This is the first time I've asked Fatih to get together. Because it has been many years that Fatih and I have often LDR (Long Destance Relationship).

"Son?, Fatih?,".

I called my son's name again. He answered nothing. He just smiled and then cried. Afterwards he was still like an unconscious person, continuing and continuing to call his ex-wife's name, even on the sidelines of himself eating. Is that how deep your real love for Aisyah is?, to be able to affect your psychic condition, son?. Is it that sad to lose the figure of Aisyah son?.

"Mother, Fatih wants to sleep. Fatih's tired, if my wife comes home. Just tell him to go straight to the room, Bun. Bye Mother,". Said Fatih my son, as he got up from the dining table and went to his room.

I just cried, and looked at my son's body that was getting thinner from behind. I wiped my tears. How could Aisyah come to this house?. Aisha is no longer your wife. Aisha belonged to someone else. You even watched your ex-wife's wedding. Why do you still think that Aisyah is still your wife, son?, can't you try to give Aisyah to others?.

I woke up and ran from the bed. I'm really scared of losing my only son. The son I love so much. I opened the door to Fatih's room, I saw her sitting in one corner of her room. He was facing the wall while hitting his hand. I'm shocked, confused. I pulled and held my son's hand so that he would no longer hurt himself. Some of his fingers are already seen blisters.

"Bundaaaaaaa!!!, Fatih hated Siska Bun, because that woman Fatih lost Aisyah Bun. Hix... Hix... Hicks...,". Fatih roared at me. I can only cry. I really don't know, how else?. Aisha is now the wife of another young man. Aisyah had become the daughter-in-law of someone else.

"Fatih, son. You have to be strong, baby. You should be able to sincerely release Aisyah. Aisyah is already happy with her new life, son. Fatih Bunda's son must also be able to continue life, Fatih must be enthusiastic and happy, son,". I wiped my tears. I hugged my son's body that was getting less and less filled.

"What does it mean that Aisha has a new life Bun?!!,". The eyes of Fatih were very sharp. He could not even accept if his ex-wife was now legally the wife of another man. So much burden was received by my son. Why were you tested with such a severe test of my son?.

"Son, Fatih remember not?. When did you and your mother go to Solo?. At that time Aisyah who used to be your wife, then married again?,". I said to my son who was still crying.

"Tidaaaaaakkk!!!, Mother do not lie!!. That Aisha belonged to Fatih Bun, Ayesha could not possibly betray Fatih!!,".

"Son, Ayesha is yours, but that used to be dear. You used to have Aisyah. Aisyah is now legally the wife of her new husband. Hix... hicks...,". Cry broke. My heart as a mother is completely broken. My son's condition is getting worse.

"Mother, no Bun!. That Aisha belonged to Fatih Bun. Hiks. hiks. Bundaa...!?, please bring the Ayesha Fatih Bun back!,".

"Son, Ikhlaskan Ayesha my son. Inspiration,".

"Mother?!, look at this Bun. This is a wedding photo of Fatih's son with Aisyah. Aisha can't get married again Bun!. Aisyah still belongs to Fatih Bunda!. Mother forgot it?!,".

Fatih showed me a picture of her marriage to Aisyah first. He still keeps everything about his ex-wife. Fatih's love for Aisha is so deep. Aisyah is indeed an amazing woman, Aisyah deserves a deep love from my son. But right now, this is not what I want. I'm a mother, I want my only son to be able to move on. Despite losing his love, he lost someone who was very influential in his life.

"Mother why shut up?!. Bun, look carefully Mother. Mother look carefully this is Fatih Bun, this is Aisyah Mother's daughter-in-law,". Fatih said while forcing me to pay attention to the wedding photo.

"Train!!, wake up boy!. Aisha is already a part of your past!. Please don't be like this, son!. You are Mother's only son. Mother still needs you, Mother already has no one but you!, please the strong son. Accept all the destiny that exists. Accept everything that has happened in the past. Get up and get up, boy!. Hix... hicks...,". I really can't stand it. Not strong to see the psychological condition of my son that is getting out of control. My feeling is like being sliced with a sharp knife.

I saw Fatih not reacting to anything. She just smiled and went back to see her wedding photo with Aisyah first. He was not willing to accept what his mother had just said. He still continues to deny that his ex-wife is still his.

"God, why do you give such a severe test to my only son. Restore his physical and psychological health as before, Rabb,". My prayer in my heart.

"My son, it's been well. The picture was put first. Now Fatih rest, son. Let's stay healthy. Get the picture to mommy son,". I said to Fatih who was still fun looking at her wedding photos first. Fatih rarely sleeps. He only fell asleep if his physique was no longer strong. He sleeps wherever he is. At that time, I was looking for him. After fifteen minutes, then I can meet my son asleep in the back, precisely beside the chair hanging while hugging Aisyah's robe. Which mother's heart was not broken seeing such a state?, moreover he was the only son in his life?. Is it only his son that he now has?.

"Mother, Fatih nitip his picture is Bun. Fatih's going to bed,". Said my son Fatih, handing me the photo in his arms.

"Yes, kid, go to sleep. Keep her body healthy, son. The picture is save it first yeah,". I said to Fatih, helping to cover her body.

I left my son's room. And brought out the wedding photo of Fatih with Aisyah from Fatih's room. I'd better keep this photo in one of the places. Hopefully I can help Fatih my son, little by little to be able to move on from his past. I wiped my tears, and went back into the room.

Tomorrow, I've decided to take my son to one of the specialist doctor's colleagues who deal with psychiatric and psychological issues. I can't bear to leave my son in such a state of distress. At least, Fatih can be little by little given treatment therapy. And of course for his body's endurance. So that he can sleep and eat regularly so that his body can be healthy, and his psyche can return to what it used to be.