Honeyed

Episode.52 (SEASON 2)

"Ti-no!!. Aisha!! ".

I woke up from a very long and terrible sleep. The dream was terrible. How could I possibly divorce Aisyah?!. It's the worst nightmare of my entire life in the world. Wanted to wake up from sleep but it was very difficult. I'm actually crying. All of this was just a dream, I dreamt of divorcing Aisyah. Even Mother and Marwah hate me. I was kicked out of this house by Mom?!. The sweat on my body is pouring. In this room, I use a cooling AC. I rubbed my sweaty forehead, and my tears were actually wet, but all I had just had was a dream. I'm sure it was just a dream. Azaghfirullah O Allah. Why am I dreaming that bad ?. My breath is still out of control. My heart rate is still very fast. I'm sure, this very bad dream happened, because I thought too much about what Mother Layla said to me.

"Never leave Mas Fahmi, Aisyah. She loves you so much".

I immediately hugged my wife's body that was busy cutting vegetables in the kitchen. I even shed tears in Ayesha's arms. The dream was really real. The worst and worst dream ever to come into my sleep. Nauzubillah, do not let the dream come true, I will not be able and strong to face such an event.

"Ma-mas, Fahmi?. Mas why?. How to wake up sweating until all the clothes are wet like this. Didn't you turn on the room AC? ".

" Sttt.. quiet dear. Mas was wanting to hug the angel Mas ".

"Fahmi's crying?. What's up?. Is it a nightmare? ".

" Not only bad, but very bad dear".

"Astaghfirullah, what dream?. So if you want to sleep do not forget to pray and take ablution before going to bed Mas".

" Aisyah, never leave Mas. Forgive me for being Aisyah's husband. There are many shortcomings "

"No Mas, Aisha will not leave Mas. Mas was the best man Ayesha had ever seen in her life after Abi".

I took off my arms from Aisyah's body. I rubbed a tear on my cheek. The dream still lingers in my mind. It may be true, Aisyah said. I forget not to wudhu and pray before going to bed. To the point that I had such a horrible dream.

"Mas, what was the dream?. Sweat this much. And immediately cry hugging Aisyah? ".

" Night dreams should not be told, dear. Nightmare (ru’ya makruhah), this dream comes from the devil. The nightmare is disturbing. One of the therapies of such a nightmare is reading ta’awudz, which is asking God for protection from the temptations of the devil. This dream is better not to be told to others and the dreamer should be patient in that regard. For remember that the devil is the enemy of man and seeks to hurt, also to make man my wife sad. Because the nightmare came from the devil". I said as I gently stroked Aisyah's stomach. The stomach that is currently being inhabited by a tiny creature of my second prospective baby.

"Hmmm. Yes Mas. Yasudah Mas Fahmi do not think of that ugly dream well. Pray much with God".

"Dear, I may forget not to recite a prayer while going to sleep. That's why such a horrible dream. Where's marwah? ".

"There's in his room. It's like he's reading a book".

" Oh, Mas went to Wawa's room first yeah baby".

"Yeah Mas".

I walked away from Aisyah who returned engrossed in the vegetables in front of her. I have to meet my daughter Marwah. At least to convince again, that all of it is a dream. This little girl, who was even in a dream was unwilling to hug her Abi.

"Tokkk... ".

Wawa's room door I knocked slowly.

" Marwah, this is Abi son. Can Abi come in?".

"Boleh Abi. Wawa's bedroom door is not locked".

I opened the door to Marwah's room slowly. That's right Aisyah said. My beautiful daughter was busy reading a storybook at her study desk in her room.

" Wawa what are you doing, son? ".

" Wawa again read the story, Abi. Abi was crying, right? ".

" Oh, no, son. Abi was sad for a moment ".

" Abi is sad why?".

"Let's run out of nightmares, son".

" Now, surely Abi forgot not to read the prayer to sleep well? ".

" It seems like it is, baby. Can Abi ask in the hug of this beautiful princess Abi? ".

" May dong Abi".

Marwah immediately woke up from the chair that had supported her small body while reading a book. My daughter hugged me very tightly. Now I'm sure it was all a dream. Wawa is even hugging me now. While in that nightmare, my little daughter was completely unwilling to hug her Abi. She even said that she would still love and cherish her Umi, even though I no longer love her Umi.

"Dear laughter is not the same as Abi? ".

" It's very dear. Wawa dear Abi, dear Umi, dear Oma, also dear sister-to-be Wawa. Wawa wants to always be with Abi and Umi, Oma and sister candidate Wawa".

"Definitely darling. Abi loves you all too much. Yasudah, Abi stay first. Abi's gonna take a shower".

" Dad Abi".

I came out of Wawa's room and closed the door to her room again. I rubbed my face that was still ringing with that horrible dream. I shouldn't have kept thinking about what Fatih's mother said to me on the phone back then. So I wouldn't have nightmares like this. It felt like after taking a bath, my body was much fresher than when I woke up from that dream. I was much more relaxed, and fully conscious. That I was just a nightmare. None of this happens in the real world. Aisyah was still happy with her sweet smile, my daughter Wawa was also still as spirited as ever. Also my mother who had told me to eat immediately. They're all still fine. No one is angry, let alone crying. They are all still mine. I haven't lost any of them. Thank goodness it was all just a dream. Will not be able to live, if all the dreams are reality. I'd rather die than hurt the people I love. Especially losing them all.

"Mas Fahmi?. Aisha ingi asked Mas".

"What do you want to ask, baby? ".

" How about what. Yeah, about who helped Fahmi. He said he met his guy yesterday".

Shocked, I thought Aisha had forgotten about it. It turns out he still remembers and now asks me. Should I tell Aisyah everything?. What happens if Aisyah finds out who helped her husband's life. It would have been better if I hadn't told Aisyah. Aisyah needs a calm and happy mood. Certainly, he would have thought if I told Aisyah the truth. Let me, let me bear this burden. I'll find the best solution to this problem. Aisyah and my second child-to-be should stay happy. Being pregnant is enough to make you tired and drain a lot of energy. I never felt what it was like to be pregnant. But I try to understand the condition of my wife who is struggling to keep my baby in her stomach.

"That's her problem, baby".

" sthat mean? ".

" Mad didn't manage to meet his dear guy. Though mas has come to a place that has been agreed for a place to meet. But once we got there, there was no one to meet. Or maybe it's a prankster who deliberately pranks Mas only".

"You can do that, Mas. Why didn't Fahmi just call. You will know how the face of the person who confessed to me saved Mas's life".

" It can't be dong darling. The phone back there was no longer picking up. Especially if you call through a video call. Probably not lifting him up. His name is also a prankster".

"Then how did you? ".

"How is what, dear?. Well, maybe God does not want us to meet people who have helped Mas".

" But Aisyah was impatient to know who she was. And want to thank.

"Hmmm.. Fahmi's Mas is also the same deck. Especially this is the man who helped my life".

" Dad, Ayesha really shouldn't know what happened in Mas's dream? ".

" Yes dear. If the dream wasn't that bad. I'm sure I'll tell you. If a good dream comes from Allah, Aisha. If nightmares come from the devil. That is why we cannot tell our nightmares to anyone. That's a lot better".

"That's it".

"Darling? ".

" Yah Mas? ".

" For example, the person who helped Mas is someone we knew in the past how?. And that person asks us to repay what he did to us with something very valuable in our lives. If you were Mas, would you give it to that guy?".

"Why did Fahmi ask that?".

" It's just a sweetie".

"Example or question?. Do not-don't Mas already know who the person who has helped and saved the life of Mas Fahmi. And that person, may Aisha also know him? ".

" Of course not Aisha. For what reason did Mas cover from you, if indeed Mas already knew who his person ".

" Yes if Ayesha, Ayesha will not give up something very valuable in the life of Ayesha Mas. There must be a way out, not having to sacrifice what is very valuable and meaningful in Aisha's life. So the hell about Aisyah ".

" Ohh so".

"It's weird. It was a nightmare to a sweat bath. Now ask something strange to Aisyah. What is it exactly, Mas? ".

Keeping a secret from Aisyah was the best choice for now. This woman I love so much must not bear the burden of what I am feeling. If only Aisyah was not pregnant, maybe I would choose honestly rather than having to cover up a matter of this magnitude from her. Moreover, I have to shoulder this matter alone. Telling Mom is also very unlikely, at the age of Mother who is getting older, where maybe I will have the heart to share my household problems with her. Right now, all you need is to live a happy, quiet life with your son, daughter-in-law and grandchild.

"Mas Fahmi?!. Why even daydream? ".

" Oh no deck. Sorry about the thought of which office work should be completed first. Yasudah, I want to get ready first. There are some files I have to bring".

"The tea hasn't been drunk yet".

" Let's go, have breakfast. Sorry, I'll definitely drink. Moreover, the tea is made as beautiful as you".

"It could be a mah if you seduce. Yasuda".

I walked away from Aisyah who was still sitting in the front seat of the house. Actually there are some files that I need to bring to the office today. Another reason, I don't want Aisyah to still discuss the matter of the person who saved me. I'm sure, Aisyah is still very curious. Just as I did when I didn't know the truth, it was my wife's former in-laws who helped my life.

"Derrhtt.. derrrttt".

I just sat down and will be ready to clear the important documents that I will bring. My phone's been blinking, there's a message coming in.

I didn't open the message right away. Because my priority is for the file to be finished. But again my phone vibrated and lit up. Multiple messages from the same number. Who in fact, this early in the morning has sent me so many messages.

"Good morning, Fahmi. Hows it?. When will you pay your debt to Mother. Remember well, otherwise Mother please. Maybe now you've got a name for son. Mother please be the same as you. Please think about what we talked about yesterday. Mommy sure, son Fahmi an educated person. Must know very well, how unethical his run from debt. Especially the debt of life".

More or less the contents of the message that many times entered on my mobile phone. A message from someone who asks for my return, maybe I can immediately repay my life debt, if not my wife who was asked in exchange for paying my life debt. I didn't expect, Aisyah's former in-laws would ask that of me. I'm honest, very suspicious. Let's not say all this was Fatih's plan.

"Message deleted"

I didn't reply to that message. The message I just read, I deleted right then and there. Aisha should not read and know this message. My phone turned off intentionally. So that Mother Layla no longer sends me messages like that. How can I calmly live my days. If not nothing Mother of my ex-husband, it is like a loan shark who charges debts endlessly. I'll talk to Mother Layla later. This matter should be discussed again soon. I'm sure there's another way besides putting my wife back in with her ex-husband first. I don't want to. Ayesha is too precious to be hurt and let go. Even if Mother Layla still does not want to in any other way. Let my life be the payment of my life's debt to my former mother-in-law, my wife Aisha.