Honeyed

Episode.46 (SEASON 2)

I don't know, I'm busy in the office today. Because it is nearing the end of the year makes all office employees like myself more dizzy. How not, bookkeeping and also archives must be completed immediately in a grace period that is not much. Complaining?, am I complaining now?. No, I was just describing a man's struggle to make a lawful living for the people under my responsibility. Especially in a moment, I will have 2 hearts. Of course, it will cost a lot in the future. Work is the jihad of a man as the head of the family. The Prophet of Allah shallallahu ‘alaihi wa sallam said, "The treasure issued as food for you is judged as alms to you. So does the food you give your child, it is also judged alms. So is the food you give your wife, it is also worth alms to you. Also the food you give your maid, it also includes alms,” (H.R. Ahmadis).

True, looking for rupiah coffers then used to give a living to the family will be in the value of alms. There is even a saying that, work is a man's self-esteem. How many, men out there, whose self-esteem is underestimated and trampled by women because they are unemployed and not working. It also depends on who his wife is. But such a case, so much. The role of the husband becomes paralyzed, and finally the wife who then advanced to replace the husband in the household.

It's been a few days now, I've always come home from work almost to maghrib. Because if the existing work is delayed, it will accumulate with other job lists. Fortunately, both Aisha my wife and Marwah my daughter. They understand my position. Not demanding much of me. In fact they support me so much if it is in the good and the truth. As of this moment, my watch is showing at half-six in the afternoon. Usually at six o'clock, I just got out of the office.

"Son Fahmi! ".

Someone called me to get in the car. It was a mother who called me. I don't know, I don't know exactly who he is. Mothers who call me wearing sunglasses, with bags. colored in line with her clothes, which is maroon. But wonder why he knows my name?. I watched the mothers in shock approaching me who was still standing by the door.

"Son Fahmi?!. You want to go home?! ".

" l-iyah. Sorry who is it? ".

The mother opened her sunglasses in front of me. Now I know who Mother was calling me.

"Now you know me, don't you kid? ".

" I-iyah already".

"Son Fahmi, I'm sorry to bother you for a second. But this is very important. Can I have a minute, son?. There's something I want to talk to you about".

If I refuse, it means I don't appreciate someone older than me. Moreover, he had already half-run to get close to me. All right, this is just to honor someone older than me. If not, maybe I'll reject it. I've been wanting to get home, besides being tired all day. I miss my wife's children and my mother at home. They must have been waiting for my return.

"Oh, yes please".

" We sit on that bench. Let's have a good chat".

I just nodded my head and complied with this woman's request. To be honest I was very surprised, it was the mother of the ex-electric husband who approached me. I don't know, there's something important about what he's going to talk to me about. Though I never had any relationship with the family of Aisyah's ex-husband.

"Son Fahmi, sorry before. Mother interrupts your time. Son, I'm sorry if what you're about to tell you is disrespectful and makes you uncomfortable".

" I'm sorry Mommy, if Fahmi can find out. About what things? ".

"It's about Aisyah, Fahmi".

" A-Ayesha?!. What's wrong with my wife?".

"Honestly, Mommy is also confused how to start this conversation with you son. But all you have to tell me".

I was still silent and waiting, what exactly would Fatih's Mother tell me. This is about my wife Aisyah.

" Don't Fahmi?, long before you got married and knew Aisyah. You must know, right?, if Aisyah's status is a widow?!. And maybe you also know, who was your wife's ex-husband?. Obviously, you saw our arrival at your wedding to Aisyah. Mother and son of Mother Fatih, come at that time son. I don't know, Aisyah told you everything. Or there's a part that he intentionally didn't tell you. Fahmi boy, believe it or not. Mother will tell you everything. In the past, Aisyah and Fatih were a very suitable couple. Fatih and Aisyah loved each other. In fact, Fatih treated Aisyah like a diamond in her life. Aisyah loves Fatih very much. Fatih was the first man to steal Aisha's heart. Long story short, the three of us Fatih, Mother, also Aisyah. Being a victim of the crime of your ex-husband. That led to the destruction of Fatih and Aisyah's household. In fact, Fatih did not say talak to Aisyah at all. And at that time, Mother fell ill. Fatih could not meet Aisyah in her house. Because you have to take care of Mother who is sick because of the torment of your ex-husband, son. And how devastated Fatih and Mommy, when you saw that you had taken Aisha from our lives. Even Mother had fainted at that time. Aisyah was also pregnant with a child from her marriage to Fatih. But fate willed another, Aisha miscarried. Obviously it was very painful for Fatih and Mommy. And Mommy is sure, at the beginning you married Aisha too. Aisyah still often remembered with Fatih, right?. Maybe you were also hurt at that time, because of the fact. The woman you made your wife still loves another man, Fatih, her ex-husband. Fahmi boy, at that time. Aisyah and Fatih still love each other very much, son. Because you are in the middle of both of them. Finally both Aisyah and Fatih were forced to let each other go despite still being very in love"

"Son, ever since you found out you married Aisha. Fatih was devastated, son. In fact, so love her and lost Aisyah. Fatih until affected by mental disorders nak Fahmi. Mother was very hit , with the incident. You know, Fatih is Mother's only son. Mother must take care of Fatih who is crazy for losing her much loved woman. Every day, Fatih always called out the name Ayesha. Closing Aisyah's photo, taking the photo to talk. Which mother does not hurt her to see her son crazy for losing love?. Mother woke up looking for a way, how to get Fatih healed. Finally Mommy decided to take Fatih abroad for treatment. And God like her still loves Mother also Fatih. Fatih's cured of her mental disorder son. But he still has not healed with his love for Aisyah. You know, Fatih's going to be a widower for the rest of her life, she's not looking for Aisyah's replacement. Mother was devastated to get that answer. Though Mommy already really wants to pet the grandchild of the only biological son of Mother. Hiks... Many years old son, Fatih widowed because for the sake of his love for Aisyah who is now your wife".

Shut up, and endure the pain in my heart, that's all I can do right now. Hear all the stories of Mother Layla. I was very surprised, knowing the fact that Fatih was still widowed because he did not want any other woman besides Aisyah in his heart. Is that his love for Aisha?. What does all this mean?. Why did her Mother Fatih suddenly tell me all her son's past with my wife?. What does he really want from me?. And does Aisyah still love Fatih?. I don't know, I don't know myself. What Mother Layla said is true. Early marriage I often felt pain. Because back then, Aisyah's love was still for Fatih. Even Aisyah likes to almost call names wrong, between Fahmi and Fatih. But, is there still love for Fatih, her ex-husband, in the heart of the woman who almost seven years accompanied me?.

"Then Inspiration? ".

" Ilham is the child that Fatih took from the parlor. He's very lonely. Fatih adopted a child from the home. Inspiration is not Fatih's flesh. Nak Fahmi, can you let Aisyah, if it turns out there is still love for your son?. What do you mean, Mother, reunite the love that was forced to be killed from the heart of Aisha for Fatih?. Son, Mother knows. The wicked mother says so to you. Mother does not know how else, Fatih Mother's only son. She has no one but Fatih. As for you?, you even have other family members right?. Yesterday, Mommy tried to contact your wife by landline".

"What did Aisha say?! ".

Short many.

" Your wife says, all the decisions are with you, Fahmi. Hikks. hikks. Mother is trying to meet you. Mother waited for you from morning until now, son. Please Mother, Fahmi. Help Mother unite love that should not be separated".

I was shocked, it felt like my heart stopped beating. How could Aisyah leave me?. Did Aisha really say that?. Told her mother-in-law that she would want to come back with Fatih. If I make a decision?. What he's been through with me for years. Was Aisyah just sacrificing, and was forced to kill her existing love for her ex-husband Fatih?, in order to honor myself and live out the marriage that took place?. Why is the exam so hard I feel. In this instant, my wife's former mother-in-law pleaded with me. So that I'd let go of my own wife to come back with her ex-husband. Then what about me?, if I let Aisyah go back with Fatih her ex-husband?. What will be the fate of my children?. Destiny why not always be on my side. What do I have to answer to the old woman who is pleading with me?. In a woman who is willing to sacrifice to see her born child happy?.

"No, I can't believe it. Aisha could not have said that to Mother Layla. I have to believe in Aisha. But why, as if there were no lies from Mother Layla's words to me? ".

I said in my heart.

" Daughter Fahmi?. How son?. You want to help Mother, right, son?. You should be able to be happy, seeing Aisyah happy with real love. At least, you once had Aisyah. Let Aisyah get back to Fatih, Fahmi".

"Ma-sorry before her. Fahmi should go home soon Mother. Sorry Fahmi can not promise anything to Mother. And thank you very much for all the stories of Mommy on Fahmi".

" Daughter, Mother beg Fahmi. Have mercy Mother son. You just want to have a grandchild like your mother"

My hand was held by Mother Layla. I can't be stuck in a situation like this. It felt like my heart was even like a dry forest being eaten by Fire. My heart is very hot, sick and really tormented. My body is tired, all day working. I don't want to, my unstable emotions make me take the wrong steps and decisions in situations like this. Although to be honest, I can at least bear to see a mother have to cry and feel this kind of suffering. But it concerns my home life. I have to think carefully. Mother Layla recounts Aisha's past with her son in front of me. Even he did not want to understand how broken my heart was at this moment. I was trying to hold back my tears. I cannot cry in front of the mother of my ex-husband. To the utter destruction of my heart, these tears must not be shed in front of Fatih's Mother. I have to look tough, even though it is actually like a tree that almost collapsed.

"Fahmi doesn't know what to say. Sorry, Fahmi has to be home soon. Fahmi was very tired all day working. Anyway, soon adzah maghrib. Mommy Layla should go home".

" Daughter, but please. Consider again, son. Do not let you be happy on top of the suffering of others. Mother only pity you, you are a good person. But you must be a barrier between the love of the two humans who are supposed to be united. Fahmi, I'm sorry if Mommy said something that didn't please you. Mother had to do this, for the good of all of us Fahmi".

"Fahmi pamit Mommy. Careful streets. Assalamu'alaikum".

" Waalaikumsalam ".

I walked with a car to the car. I couldn't hold back the crying. I screamed and cried as soon as I got in the car. It was broken and very painful. If true, Aisyah was forced to marry me and love me. What should I do?, what should I do?. Why is everything so hard. Sacrificing everything, for the happiness of the one I love.

"Yes Allah. Give Fahmi a way out. Fahmi does not want to be the cause of his separation of two people who should be united. If Aisha will be reunited with her ex-husband, why do You still give me the sakinah mawadah and warahmah in my household with Aisha?. Why did You not separate Me and Aisha before the arrival of our second child?. Why is your test so hard on me, Lord? ".

My words were interrupted by a cry that was no longer unstoppable.