Honeyed

Episode.58 (SEASON 2)

"Brukkk...!! ".

Ah, because of the rush, I even hit the groceries of a mother.

" Sorry Mom, I didn't mean it. I was in a hurry".

I said by continuing to clean up the groceries of the mother who fell scattered because it was hit by me. I didn't even get a chance to look at the person I hit by his groceries accidentally.

"It's okay, son. Let it go, I'll fix it".

" No Mom, I'm staying there. It's my fault, so I have to be in charge and clean up Mom's groceries".

My hands are still busy, picking up the vegetables and fruits that roll here and there. I'm so careless, I can't even calm down a little. If it's like this, I'll be late. Plus, the bad taste with this mother whose groceries some are damaged because of my actions. It's good, I just replace it with money, for broken fruits and vegetables. I can't possibly have time to replace it with stuff. My boss called to see me soon to sign a contract with my office.

"Sorry Mom, some of Mom's groceries are broken. I'll just replace it with money. Sorry I can't replace with stuff anymore. I was in a hurry, Mom. Again sorry".

I said with a busy eye opening the wallet and picking up some fifty-thousand bills.

" Does Fatih?! ".

" L-mother?. If it's not wrong, this is Fahmi's mother right?. Her mother-in-law Aisyah?! ".

" Yes, son, right. Mother is Fahmi's birth mother is also Aisyah's mother-in-law. Masha Allah, long time no see dear Fatih. How's he doing?".

"As I see it. Thank God Fatih is healthy. Are you alone in the market?. Where are Fahmi and Aisyah?. I haven't seen them in a long time".

There's no answer to my question to Fahmi's mother. But I saw a stroke of sadness on Mom's face. I don't know, what I just asked was the wrong question, so it made Mom so very sad. Ah, again I was so careless.

"Sorry Mom, why are you sad?. Is there something wrong with my question just now. If so, Fatih apologizes Mom".

" No son. Your question is correct. It's just that I don't know what to answer to you, Fatih".

"I mean Mother? ".

" Is Fatih busy?. If not, I want to tell Fatih's son everything. But if you're in a hurry, it's easy next time I tell the story".

"Oh, actually very hasty so that it hit Mom's groceries. But like him, his co-worker Fatih was already emotionally hunted for waiting a long time. So it's okay, after all Fatih is also quite late Mom".

" Why not, son? ".

" It's okay Mom. Did you tell me what Fatih was like, Mom? ".

" It's good to talk while sitting on that bench, son. Mother is too old, it is not strong to stand for too long. It's okay, right? ".

The mother of my ex-wife's husband, invited me to sit on one of the benches available near the market.

" Oh, yes, ma'am. Sorry, Fatih didn't even think about it".

Me and Aisyah's mother-in-law sat on the bench. Still waiting for what Fahmi's mother would tell him. It seems, it is very heavy for the story to be shared with me. Mimic Mother's face, even turned into a very sad. Her mother Fahmi, let out a long sigh and then started to open her mouth to tell me.

"Son Fatih, you asked me why I was alone. And where are Aisyah and Fahmi? ".

"D-yes Mom. Where the hell are they?. Fatih had not seen Fahmi with Aisyah for a long time. My second grandson has been born. And being funny. Fahmi must be very happy to have a lot of children". I'm excited.

" That's the kid. I don't know where I should tell you. It happened so fast, son. It still feels like a dream, a nightmare for Mom in particular, and Aisyah for sure".

I'm still silent, still waiting for the story from Fahmi's mother again. I dare not ask much. Fear of wrong talk or make the atmosphere becomes more unpleasant.

"Fahmi's dead, son Fahmi. And Aisha was now a widow with two small children".

" Innalillahi wa innalillahi rojiun!. Did Fatih not hear wrong Mom?!. Fa-fahmi died?!. But why Mom?!. And when?, O Allah not even Fatih heard his news at all".

Honestly, it felt very shocked and surprised. It was like disbelief, or maybe I was wrong to hear from Fahmi's mother just now.

"No, dear Fatih, what you just heard is true. Mother's Son, Fahmi. Died ten months ago son".

" Why Mom?. Is Fahmi sick?! ".

" No, your son did not die of illness. Fahmi became one of the victims of the consecutive accidents nak Fatih. At the time, Fahmi was on his way home after work".

"Mum's consecutive accident?!".

A circle of tears dripped from the corner of Aisyah's mother-in-law's eyes. I'm sure it's very hard for him. The loss of a much loved son is painful. Moreover, this was a farewell for eternity in the world. I never thought Fahmi would die so soon.

"Mother, strong well. Fatih's sure, Fahmi's calm down there ma'am".

" Yes son, just meeting you feels like I'm meeting Fahmi. I miss Fahmi, son. The house even seemed lonely since Fahmi's departure for good. Though at that time, Fahmi was aware of the critical period and coma that faced him. After nearly seven days in a coma, Fahmi was unconscious to Fatih. Just then, millions of gratitude flowed from Mother's lips as well as Aisyah. But like her, Allah only gave Fahmi a short time, to at least see his family for the last time. Fahmi's condition immediately dropped back son, not long after he regained consciousness. It is this second coma, after sharing power and effort. Finally Fahmi gave up, and chose to return to his Rabb, ahead of Mother who was even this very old".

"Fatih mourns, ma'am, for Fahmi's death. To be honest, Fatih was still very unexpected. Fahmi has died. And once again apologize ma'am, Fatih and the family don't even know about this sad news. If today Fatih did not meet with Mom, maybe not until when. Fatih doesn't know about Fahmi's news".

" It's okay, son, I understand. Oh right, how's Mother, Inspiration, and your wife, son? ".

" Thank God, the news of Inspiration and Mother is healthy. For the wife, Fatih is a widower ma'am".

"Huh?!. Widower?!. That means his mother wants Ilham dead?. Sorry, Fatih, I don't understand".

" No Ma'am, no. That's not what Fatih meant. Fatih has spent almost eight years as a widower".

"Huh?!. Eight years of graduation, son?!. And Ilham? ".

" Yes, Mother. Ilham was not Fatih's son. Fatih took Inspiration from the parlour".

"Son Fatih. You didn't hear me wrong, did you?. You've been a widower for almost eight years, son?. It's even the same age as Fahmi's marriage to Aisyah son?! ".

Smile, that's all I can do. The fact is that it is. I chose to be widowed since Aisyah was legitimately the wife of Fahmi. Eight years Aisyah became Fahmi's wife. So I was in my status as a widower. It's ridiculous, but that's what's happening in my life.

" Just Right Mother. On the first day Fahmi interrupted Aisyah. That was also the beginning of Fatih became a widower. Until this moment, Fatih met Mom now".

"But why son?!. Why doesn't a kid like you marry again, Fatih?!. I'm sure there are a lot of women out there who want to be made wives by you".

" Should Fatih tell me in front of Mom. In front of Aisyah's mother-in-law?. True what Mother said, it was not difficult for Fatih to get a companion if Fatih wanted to. In fact, Fatih often had a big fight with Mother Fatih herself, because of this problem. Thank God, Mother finally chose to give up and no longer press and force Fatih to marry the song Bu".

"It's okay, son. Just tell Mom, if you can find out. Why are you still a widower, even up to almost eight years old?! ".

" Mom, I don't know how I explained what happened to me. For years, I couldn't find a replacement for Aisyah in my life, Mom. I've tried so many times, or maybe even a hundred times to forget Aisyah. Again Fatih always fails Mom. It feels so painful to love a married woman. No Fatih meet, a woman as good as Aisyah Bu. Aisha was even like an angel to Fatih. It's hard to find a replacement like her".

"Do you love Ayesha, son of Fatih?. Until almost eight years decided to live to be a widower?! ".

" Yes ma'am, maybe for some. They thought Fatih was a weak man. Silly men who choose to live a widower because they are crazy about one woman. In the past, there were many men who easily married many times. Fatih still holds the status of widower".

"Hmmm.honestly, Aisyah is currently really at the point of most concern for Fatih. Aisha is different from other women. While she was slumped, Aisyah was even very strong. Today, he is the backbone of the family. Ever since Fahmi left for good. But, Mother had never even once heard Aisyah complain. Especially when Aisyah gave birth to her second child without a husband figure. I don't think I can see Aisyah son. A great woman, even Mother felt very grateful to have Aisyah as a daughter-in-law. After Fahmi's departure, Aisyah never changed her attitude towards Mother Son. How she treated Mom, loving Mom the same way she did when Fahmi was alive. Nothing has changed, except that Aisha is growing more affectionate towards Mom".

"Fatih believes Ma'am, That's why Fatih couldn't get married until this very moment. Fatih's love for Aisyah never changed Mom. Sorry, I said Aisyah is now the backbone of the family?!. Meaning Aisyah....? ".

" Daddy nak Fatih. Aisyah is now opening a small business by selling cakes. Aisyah also sometimes receives catering orders for Thanksgiving or other events. From there, Aisyah collected rupiah coffers to survive raising her two children, also taking care of Mother. To be honest, I feel bad about Aisyah nak Fatih. Aisyah treats Mom like her own biological mother. Sometimes I feel sorry to see Aisyah. He had to take care of two young children, also had to work hard to make a living".

I haven't finished my words yet. Looks like Aisyah's mother-in-law knows, where my question is going. And caught what I wanted to know the answer to. To be honest, my heart also felt pain and sadness. I can't bear to hear that the woman I love so much has to sell cakes just to make a living. But there's nothing I can do now. I am a nobody Aisha, I am still the same status as before. Aisha's ex-husband. I'm sure Aisyah still loves Fahmi very much. Although now, Fahmi is dead, and has died long enough. I know very well, if Aisyah is a woman who is very loyal to her loved ones.

"Mother, why isn't Aisyah getting married again?. I'm sorry, that's not what Fatih wanted to ask. I-I mean, so that Aisyah can be a little lighter because there are already those who bear her living if she remarries Mom".

Apologizing first seems better. I'm afraid, Fahmi's late mother misunderstood my question just now.

"Either son. I tried asking Aisyah that question. But Aisyah always answered with a smile and then switched the conversation. Mother has no right to force Aisyah to marry again son. After all, Mom is just a mother-in-law. Moreover, the daughter of the mother who married Aisyah had long died. It all comes back to Aisha. I'm afraid I'm wrong about talking about Fatih".

"Hmm. Fatih understands Mom. Because honestly, Fatih really understands how Aisyah is. Aisyah is a very loyal woman with her partner Ma'am. After all, Fatih was convinced. It was hard for Aisyah to love another man besides Fahmi. Fahmi's a very nice man ma'am. Mother's son was very extraordinary. Even Fatih learned a lot from Mom's son ".

"The point is, I can only pray. If ever later Allah will give Fahmi's replacement for Aisyah. May the man be a good man, and be willing to accept Aisyah with her two children. Then I'll go home, son. It's been too long, Aisyah's worried".

"Aamiin, Oh yes Ma'am. Want Fatih to interracial? ".

" No need to Fatih. Mother is more comfortable using public transportation only. Broken mom's groceries don't need you to change son. Thanks, I've listened to Mom's story. I said goodbye first, assalamu'alaikum ".

" I'm sorry Mom, if there's a wrong word from Fatih during the conversation earlier. May the family always be healthy. Aamiin.., Wa'alaikumussalam ".

I noticed the body of the woman who was starting to age. Walk with a few groceries.

" If only, Aisha would open her heart again for me. I will be ready to be born inwardly to accept himself as well as the two children resulting from his marriage to Fahmi".

I muttered softly, while returning to the car.